Nighty night if you're going, Wildly, and thanks

Funeral today.
Wish it was mine.
Not sure how much longer I can hold these destructive thoughts and urges in.
Not sure how much longer I can pretend I'm ok.
Because I'm really not ok.

x_x *Hugs Helen muchly*

*Hugs everyone*

I just wanted to send a positive update; I had an appointment today with my new pysch [it was supposed to be next monday, but I got in early due to a cancellation] and although I was really nervous, it went really well. He understood; and I didn't even have to explain it all.. gives me hope!!

*sends hopeful thoughts around*

*hugs Puppy SinClair*

*clings to Dayna*

*Hugs Helen and doesn't let go*

Ravyn: Really glad to hear your meeting went well ^___^

*hugs Helen tightly*

*hugs Dayna back* Me too; and glad to hear yours went ok too. Hopefully the empty void will disappear soon. I get that from time-to-time; but it does go away.

I'm not in the void right now. Last time it happened was Sunday, I think. It's damned creepy how it changes my entire personality :/ but I've yet to hear a decent theory on why. I figured that it's a defence mechanism, trying to protect me from all the stress and ****, but...why completely obliterate my personality?

Although it might be a blessed relief to have right now. I'm damned triggered, and really just want to OD x_x. Can'tcopewithallthis

i have not theories on that; unfortunately. *hugs* are you by yourself; will talking here help with the triggeredness?

My housemate is downstairs, passed out on the sofa. My...friend is online, but he's not talking. I think he's doing other things, as his status keeps changing between online and away. I'm talking in a hangout thread (speak of the devil, and he will IM) and PMing another friend. And talking in here

keep talking here as much as you need; I unfortunately won't be on much longer, but I know there are lots who check in... is there anything I can help with?

Aside from talking as much as possible, I can't really ask for owt else. I'ma start hunting for other things to do to try and distract myself in a min, methinks

i like playing games in the arcade... i sometimes don't realize how much time has passed..

Oh **** yeah, I keep forgetting about that o.o. I normally go in to play Snake or something. Other than that, when I wanna play a game, I play the Impossible Quiz (evil D<), Flash Flash Revolution, or something on Kongregate

*cuddles Dayna* Hope your ok x

*Cuddles Katie back* I've been a lot better

Yeah I know that feeling hey =( Just trying to catch up on these posts *snuggles*

Yeah, it's been busy in here as of late *snuggles back*

You can say that again Dayna. . .

*offers hugs to everyone then disappears into the denial tent to try and get a couple of hours sleep even though it is only 2:30 ish PM*

*joins Kahlia in the denial tent*

We just got a phonecall to say we weren't approved for the place =(