*Hugs Lindsay*
*Hugs Sarah*
*Hugs Felicia*
*Hugs Laura*
*Hugs Helen*

*Hugs Laura* You don't whine, we're here to listen to you :) I know the feeling. Just thing after thing builds up on you and...it just sucks. You won't look like a fool, you can do it :)

*Hugs Mark and Helen* How are you guys?

*Hugs Lindsey extra loads* I don't want you to die. I'll listen.

*Hugs Lia* I'm feeling okay today thank Lia . Had group , The last one , but we are rounding up next week . How are you hun?

Good Mark, I'm glad :)

I'm sorta ... because the person that filled my hole- wow, rephrase- the person that made it feel a little better when the one I loved most in the world left me is also going to leave :( Massive bum, but I'm baring up. Chin up and all that. Oh, and my drama practical exam is on my birthday. :plain:

That is the face of someone who is not amused.

*hugs everyone* because you all deserve it. x

Aww Lia *Hugs* Will you be able to stay in touch?

*Hugs Louise*

*Spots and Hugs Helen*

that is a shame Lia.

How are you Helen?

*Hugs everyone*

*Hugs Nicole* How are you hun?

*Hugs Mark* I'm ok, I SI'ed last night, but I am getting rid of the last of my blades tomorrow.....
I didn't go to college cause I was sick this morning :(
And I just got a text from my friend saying she's having a baby boy, and she is going to call him Oscar :D
You?

Not really Mark...it's kinda complicated. Sort of though. But I think it might just make it worse because I'd only be able to speak to her rarely and see her even less often, it might just make it easier to break all ties.

*Hugs Louise and Nicole*

How are you Louise?

Thats A Cool name, Oscar, Very cool . I'm sorry you cut Nicole , Please take care of your cut/s . Good luck throwing your blades away ! Thats such a good step :) I'm feel okay but have just started feeling lonely and low because of it :S

I know, I love that name :). I am looking after my cuts Mark, and i'm gonna get my friends to help me throw them away tomorrow. Sorry you're feeling lonley and low :( is there anyone you can meet up with so you aren't so alone.
*Hugs Lia*

Not really Nicole :( I'm not happy that I'm feeling lonely . It got triggered by the fact that a guy in my group session announced that his parter is expecting and it just bought it to my attention that I'm not even remotely close to having a family :S

-hugs ward-

*Hugs Kitty* How're you ?

*Hugs Mark and Kitty*
Sorry :( I don't really know what to say now. It will be ok Mark. :/

*Hugs Nicole*

*Hugs Mark*
I hope my mum hurrys up at tescos :/ I'm starving, haven't eaten all day
:(

*hugs everyone*

*Hugs Lindsay* How are you hun ?

*Hugs Nicole* No food in the house Nicole?

*Hugs Mark* Nope, nothing :/ (at least-nothing thats still edible)
*Hugs Lindsay*

*Spots Solo and Hugs*How are you today?

Nicole , Did your Mum get back from Tescos yet ?

*Hugs Mark* Not yet lol.

*hugs everyone*

I keep falling asleep, going to try go bed properly in 15 or so. Still in a good mood. Bestie's planning to phone tomorrow yay, am missing her tons tonight but I'm ok.

Awh cool that you're going to hear from your bestie :) I hope you sleep well Helen Hun :)

I speak to her everyday, albeit not on the phone. But she's away at her Aunt's this week. Haven't really spoken to her, only a few texts each day. So it'll be immense to speak to her properly. Plus she hasn't phoned since Christmas Eve lol =) I hope I sleep well too. Thank you Mark.

-hugs mark and nicole back- I'm fine. How are you, Mark? Nicole, sorry to hear about not having any food...I can relate. My husband and I were in the same boat. We were able to go shopping today and stock up on some food because we got our food stamps. Hopefully it will be enough to last us the whole month.

-hugs everyone who can accept them and waves to those that can't-

Sorry about my disappearance earlier. My internet was acting up. And then we had to go shopping..

*Hugs all*

Hello :) I'm in a good mood and this worries me as I've had pretty much the worst day in a long time and now I'm scared of crashing... and that something else is going to go wrong. Still, let's make the best of this while it lasts.

*Hugs Helen and Kitty*
I hope you sleep well Helen, and it's cool that you're gonna get to speak to your bestie properly :)
We have food now, finally :) lol.

I'm a bit lonely Kitty :S Getting tired too , Just took my night time Meds . *Hugs*

*Hugs Lia* I'm sorry you're having a bad day but glad you feel so chipper :)

*Hugs Nicole* What are you going to eat ?

-hugs lia- That's good that you are in a good mood. Hopefully you won't crash later, though. That wouldn't be good...

-hugs nicole again- Glad you have food now, too.

I'd hang out with you if I could, Mark, so you wouldn't be so lonely.. -hugs-

*Hugs Mark* I had a chicken sandwich :)
*Hugs Lia* glad that you're feeling good tonight, if you feel like you're crashing, remember to just be immature, and maybe make a sandwich :P lol

Tis a wee bit quiet..

*Hugs Kitty* Thanks hun :)

*Night time hugs my wardies*

<3

Night night mark sleep tight -night time hugs-

Night night Mark, sleep well :)

*Hugs Kitty and Nicole*

-hugs lia- What time is it where you are, Lia? It's only almost 2:30 pm here and I am bored. Lol. I hate being bored. I read something about how people who have BPD and are bored constantly look for things to do or something along those lines. My husband likes to tell me "boredom is a state of mind". I get so angry at him when he says that.

I feel so strange. My head feels funny. Bleh.

-hugs sarah- why does your head feel funny, hun?

*Hugs Sarah* Are you ill dear?

*Hugs Kitty* It's almost 11.00. Time for bed in the not too far future. How are you this evening other than bored (well, night for me, afternoon for you, so I'm not completely sure where evening came from).

-hugs lia- Evening is a nice in-between of night and afternoon. And I'm fine.. How are you?

Just a bit spaced out, feels like nothing is real. Like being in a dream. Sorta like that. *cuddles Kitty and Lia*

I think I am going to go watch a movie...I will be back later.. -hugs ward-

-sighs- nevermind..I'm back..

What happened lovely?

*huggles all*

sorry i haven't been around. not been doing too well.
trying to work out what to do. haven't told anyone irl yet. don't want to upset/hurt them. things just getting a little out of control. have a psych doc appointment on the 19th and a gp appointment on tues. think i'll have to talk to the gp about it but don't really want to. am scared they will want to send me ip and i really don't want/don't think i can handle going ip. i know it's stupid and i should be putting my life first and thinking about what effect it can have on other people but the hospital scares the life out of me...

sorry. :-(

Nothing happened. I'm just in one of my off moods today. I go through periods like this where I am extremely bored. I constantly look for something to do but nothing sounds good. Then when I decide on something to do I change my mind because either it's not really what I want to do or my husband won't do it with me (i.e. play games, watch movies, etc.) and I lose interest. When I get like this I often want to find something to do with someone else so I don't have to do it alone...

-sighs- I wish I could just go to sleep and stay that way forever..

-hugs kahlia if ok- I'm glad you weren't able to go through with the plans. You should definitely talk to either your psych doc and/or gp about it. They would want to help you.