*hugs Jeff*
*hugs mark* good night
*hugs crimson* sounds like you had a great time.

I just came homw from work an hour ago.
Posted on the ED forum yesterday, cause of some fvcked up eating habits. They say I should talk with the psych about it in 3 weeks. It's going to be my first appointment. So scared. Whats going to happen with me there?

I'm annoyed :( had a crap morning. Had an appointment today (at a training thing which the job centre reffered me to sometime ago. It was at 11.30 am this morning i got there just before 11.20 am. I waited for my consultant in another room. All of a sudden i saw her, but instead of calling me she just used her hand to say come here. Anyway when i went to her desk with her she started bloody moaning at me. She said why are you late Ian!? I wasnt late at all, she said the appointment was for 11.00 am but its not because it says on the paper that she gave me 11.30 am. She was just so rude to me and unproffesional.

Then she looked at her computer and said why didnt you attend this activity i said i completely forgot which is my fault i know but that the woman spoke to me and asked me why i didnt attend and i said that it slipped my mind she said to me thats ok not to worry. But then my consultant said il be speaking to the jobcentre, great i bet my money will be stopped now! Brilliant! I'm signing on tomorrow and im going to tell them how rude my consultant was and that she had a go at me for being late when i wasnt. Totally ridiculous! I wasnt even bloody late! I wasnt rude to her at all. I'm just really annoyed though. Before i sign on im going back up to see my consultant to show her the piece of paper she gave me with the appointment time on. Its an agreement you have to sign. Sorry this was so long.

*Hugs Oliver*

*Hugs Mark* I'm so sorry about the thoughts your having, please keep safe. We are all here for you.

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Crimson*

*Hugs Jeff*

*hugs Ian* It's not your failt that she was rude to you. It's her problem if she can't organize her appointments.

*Hugs Jeff*
*Hugs Crimson*
*Hugs Laura*
*Hugs Ian*

hugs everyone

*Hugs Louise* How are you hun?

i am tired today, looking out at the sun. - how are you

The sun is nice :)

I've just been to the gym and now I don't know what to do. It's so hard to fill my time.

*Hugs Louise*

*Hugs Lindsay*

I'm............I am fluctuating up and down. Actually happy for the first time in weeks then BOOM! depression hits me yet again and repeat...

Sorry to hear that you are fluctuating in that fashion, I know how irritating and frustrating it can be

*Hugs Jeff* Thanks , How are you mate?

Right now I am doing okay, the roller coaster ride is leveling off for a little bit. I prefer it here in the middle, neither up nor down. I hope that you can find some level ground as well.

*hugs all*

sorry I'm not around much, internet is a bugger to sort out!

*hugs ian* im sorry that she was so rude. Its not your fault it all. Sounds like a rough day.

*hugs mark* i'm sorry your mood is fluctuating so much. I know how frustrating that can be.

*hugs lindsay* Its good that you went to the gym. Hope you found something else to do - like go out for coffee or tea or something?

*hugs louise* Glad the sun is out there. we haven't seen sun here in days.

*hugs oliver* its okay, we understand. how r u doing? liking the new flat?

*hugs jeff* (if that's okay to call you jeff) Glad you are finding a middle ground for your mood. Sorry to hear that some of your thoughts were coming back. Feel free to vent here if you need to talk.

*hugs crimson* Glad you had a good time. Sorry about your friend. I'll keep them in my thoughts.

*hugs mute.scream laura* I think it would be really brave of you to talk to your psych about ED related stuff. I know its nerve-wrecking to see a psych for the first time. But they will probably just get some background information on you on the first day. Hopefully it won't be too scary.

Sorry if I missed people... I just did this page.

Now I am dreaming about SI. Great *sarcasm*

*Hugs Laura* Sarcasm is understood well here , I'm actually with you there :)

*Hugs Oliver* How is your new flat , are you living alone or with a flatmate?

*Hugs Jeff* I LOVE the Happy but I Hate the sad , usually I'm numb but recently I've been Down and because of circumstances happy , but my depression keeps hitting me down :S

Just so everyone know the happy news , Felicia and I are engaged :)

Yes we are :)

Please be happy for us :)

*hugs all*

the flat is ok thanks, and I'm living on my own, which I like, but its taking a while to get used to.

yay Mark and Felicia :)

*hugs Angel*