Heather , Hello *HUGS* new avatar eh ?:P

yup :P

I'm so fed up with life. I can't wait until I have saved up enough medication to overdose on. I think in the meantime i'm going to have to turn to alcohol but i'm scared to because my Mum had alcohol problems and i'm worried that I will go down that route.

*Hugs Lindsay* I am currently struggling with Alcohol , Be careful Lindsay hun , I'm sober tonight though

*Night Time Hugs my Wardies*

night Mark.

*hugs you all* sorry I've not been around much recently, its been tough, my mood is swinging all over the place and I'm anxious as I have a psychiatrist appt tomorrow

*Hugs Oliver* Best of luck with your psychiatrist appointment today !

Good luvk Oliver, if you've already left, I hope it went well. The ward has been so quiet recently.

I know it's normal for families to fight, but is it normal to think they honestly wouldn't give a **** if I offed myself? Just now, I was a '****ing cow' and a 'stupid bitch' simply because I suggested to my brother that maybe the reason he can't sleep at night is because he goes straight to sleep when he gets home from school. Call me an idiot, but there's an obvious link between the two. I no longer tell my family anything about my grades because if it's less than an A, I'm a disappointment and if it's higher than a B, I'm an 'up myself cow' to my brother and sister. I can't win and I cba to try anymore.

*Hugs Lia* I'm sorry you are getting so much greif from your family :(

cuddles everyone, curls up

*Hugs Mark and Jill* How are you guys?

hey lia, im feeling hmm.........okay i guess. shrugs shoulders.
hmm how are you doing today?

*Hugs Lia* Tomorrow is the first day of my "Plan"

*Hugs Jill*

Oh and "Plan" is a good thing! sorry I saw how that sounded :S

I'm glad you're at least sort of alright. Do you want to talk about anything?

I'm alright I suppose. Not had the best day, I barely slept last night then I forgot my lunch and just minor annoyances like that through the day, but I was in a weirdly good mood all day. Then I came home. Enough said.

Yeah...I was gonna ask about that. What plan might that be?

And on the topic of plans, has anyone heard from Kitty?

Kitty's been on fb. She lives on.

*hugs mark, Lia and Jill*

the psychiatrist was ok, it was my first one as an out patient, but she was nice.
she has put onto a different anti depressant, put me on a higher dosage of the anti psychotic I'm on and she is seeing me in a month when she said she will also put me on a mood stabilizer.
I forgot to talk about some things though which I should have talked about, but I'm going to write a list for next time so I don't forget.

I'm glad the appointment was a succes Oliver :) A list is a good idea, I always find myself doing stuff like that.

Yeah Lia I noticed Kitty on FB too.

My "Plan" is to go (One day at a time) to quit drinking , Since tomorrow is the 1st of March and all , I figure it could be like a milestone for me.....