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PsychoKitty2010 12-12-2010 02:07 AM

That is a complicated question, and I have a complicated answer. I love him, but I am trying to figure out why. I knew why when we got married, but things have just changed so drastically in the past 7 months that I just don't know anymore. I can't work at this point in my life, but he is not willing to go out and try to find a job, even though he doesn't do anything but sit and play on his computer all damn day long. He complains when I watch shows or movies that he does not like, so I have to wait until he goes to bed to watch anything I want to watch, but he finds it perfectly OK to sit and watch shows that I don't like while I am around. If I am not there or available when he checks the mail, I do not get to open my own f**king mail - he opens it for me and claims he was "just curious". I have caught him in the act of doing so several times and have made comments on it such as "wow it's nice that I don't get to open my mail" and "You know, I don't receive much mail, but when I do, and it's not junk mail, I appreciate opening my own f**king mail", but it doesn't do any good - he still continues to do as he pleases. He tells me to talk to him when I feel down and all, but then all he does is yell and bitch at me and somehow makes it seem like it's my fault in one way or another. I just don't know anymore. :(

risenfromperdition 12-12-2010 02:14 AM

laura.. you and me both =s. cant afford =s stupid finals week/papers/craap

PsychoKitty2010 12-12-2010 04:51 AM

*curls up in the corner and hides under a bunch of blankets and doesn't move*

risenfromperdition 12-12-2010 05:30 AM

=[ sup?
*offers a jar of hugs you can take from as yuo want :)*

PsychoKitty2010 12-12-2010 05:34 AM

thanks. I feel trapped like an animal in a cage...can't do anything. Feelin hopeless because there is no way out of it at this point. Want to die...just want to be free..

risenfromperdition 12-12-2010 06:26 AM

=[ im sorry =\ anything i can do to help?

PsychoKitty2010 12-12-2010 07:21 AM

I don't know, really. I am just in a marriage that I am realizing more and more is turning into hell. I cannot afford a divorce and can't use his money to do so because he doesn't have any money. I can't go stay with family because if I go I won't be able to continue school, and I am in the school I have always wanted to go to since I was a kid. I just feel so trapped and have no idea what to do anymore..

Doikers 12-12-2010 10:33 AM

*Hugs Kitty*

*Hugs Felicia* Thankyou :)

*Hugs Lia*

*Hugs Heather*

*Hugs Laura*

xxjuliexx 12-12-2010 10:37 AM

-kicks the walls-

Doikers 12-12-2010 10:50 AM

Whats up Owen ?

xxjuliexx 12-12-2010 10:50 AM

nuffin important...

Doikers 12-12-2010 11:03 AM

:( are you sure?

xxjuliexx 12-12-2010 11:04 AM

i sorry i did mean to make u sad -sits in a corner and scratches-

Doikers 12-12-2010 11:09 AM

That's okay Owen , you didn't make me sad . are you going to be alright?

xxjuliexx 12-12-2010 11:13 AM

-nods walks over to mark and hugs him then lets go and backs off fast-sorry i made u sad

Doikers 12-12-2010 11:17 AM

You did Not make me sad Owen , I just have been sad for a few days, thanks for the hug :)

xxjuliexx 12-12-2010 11:21 AM

-tenses shoulders and hugs mark again- y r u sad? -lets go backing away siting and pulling my sleeping bag up around me-

Doikers 12-12-2010 11:24 AM

Depression Sad Owen , I can't help it , No sprecific oudside cause for me being sad I just am sad , Not your fault at all.

My Sister just rang and is coming up to try and do Christmas shopping , I don't know what shops are open here on a Sunday but It will be nice to meet her :) and my baby neice Mariama :)

xxjuliexx 12-12-2010 11:27 AM

oh cool shopping -hugs knees-

FlyingNy 12-12-2010 11:37 AM

Hey Owen *waves*

Hey Mark *hugs* have fun Christmas shopping :)

*Hugs Kitty* I don't really know what advice to give, I'm pretty sure you've already said something about not having many friends around where you are, unless you made that up entirely, so I can't really suggest going to stay with one of them, but if your marriage is making you so unhappy, you need to get out somehow. How much longer do you have left at school? I do know how you feel, I hate my home and the family I life with are dicks most of the time, but I no way have the courage to leave and go and live alone, although I am 16 so technically could. But I also love my school and couldn't leave so I am going to stick it out for another two years and go on to uni somewhere far away. Is there any way you can just get out of the house as much as possible? Stay in school long hours, leave the house early and hang back to get more work done? I'm not really sure what else to say except for hold on. Things won't be like this forever and even if you can't now, you wil someday be able to leave. *Another hug*

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