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CrazyHayley 28-04-2010 04:11 PM

*eyes pop out of head*
*pokes them back in*

Oh my goodness, there have been 8pages since I went for my nap on monday! Gosh I think I must have got lost down a corridor in the ward for me to miss all that activity going on!!
I've got to leave for a doctors appointment shortly regarding my PMDD - I am telling them that they are putting me on the contraceptive injection to stop my periods. I've had enough of only having 7-10sane days out of each 28. I can't do the emotional rollercoaster and feelings of hopelessness and worthlessness each month any longer. I've HAD IT!!!! (And this is me having a sane rant!!!!)
Anyhoo....just wanted to pop into the main hub of the ward and show my face as I've been hiding the past 48hours....actually I escaped, LOL. After circle on monday night (only shed a few quiet tears this time) I went and stayed at Eoghan's. Today I went from Eoghan's to I've citizens advice, I was there all morning regarding my housing situation and I've got an appointment to see the council about it tomorrow.
Eoghan may not have to be deployed to Afghan in september *jumps for joy* BUT that would only be because he would have accepted a 2year posting to america *selfishly doesn't want him to do either*

As for individual replies and the latest goings on with my fellow inmates, I haven't yet read up on all the posts, that'll have to be put on hold until I return from my GP's this evening. But I'm thinking of you all and sending positive thoughts all of your ways, into every hiding place and corner of the ward.

*group huggles!!!!*

*takes some proplus and prepares for the 30min hobble to the doctors*

Doikers 28-04-2010 04:18 PM

*Lends Hayley an arm to hang onto while she hobbles to the Dr's* . You TELL them Dr's what you need , I think it's a perfectly reasonable and sane request *Hugs ya*

Doikers 28-04-2010 04:56 PM

*waves madly* anyone about ?
I've also had a letter asking me to contact them about my application for incapacity benefit/ National insurance benefits , it arrived last Friday and said to ring them within 2 days . It's Wednesday now ,I've called 4 times and don't get through , the letter basically wants me to arrange a medical , I am NOT happy about that . I didn't even know I was applying for those benefits :S


I don't know if I can cope with all this ......

CrazyHayley 28-04-2010 06:32 PM

*huggles Mark* thanks for the support. I'm back and now munching on some soup and toast whilst I go back and read through the 8pages of posts I missed. Sorry but I don't have any words of wisdom on the benefits thing, I've got to try and get through to them myself - despite having a medical with them and being signed off until 2014, I've just recieved letter telling me I need to attend a work focused interview!! bloody idiots. *extra huggles for stress they cause us*

Scarletdreamer 28-04-2010 06:47 PM

I spy a Hayley & an Oliver!! *cuddles*

Just had lunch with my bestie, really didn't talk a lot and I didn't finish my lunch cos I was so anxious. :( I hate being this way, I really really do. It sucks so badly. :(

Wait Hayley, why would Eoghan be deployed to America?? That makes no sense to me, sending UK people over here... :-/ Sorry if I've missed something, it just doesn't seem to be that sensible. But that is better than him going to Afghanistan, isn't it? *cuddles gently* At least he'll be out of the combat zone... but I can understand how stressful and all that would be. *more cuddles*

*cuddles Mark and then remains curled up next to* I hope that you feel better soon - has the diazepam kicked in yet? Please try not to abuse that... I know you wouldn't do it on purpose but it can feel so great to be relaxed and everything, so difficult NOT to abuse benzos. Anyway... uhmm... sorry, can't offer advice on the benefits stuff as I'm not a UK'er. :( Wish I could help more... *offers more cuddles?*

I'm really exhausted... still... I know that I keep saying that, but I am seriously droopy right now. All I want to do is go to bed... but I have two classes and a dinner left and I can't stand it!!! *wants to rip hair out... oh never mind, it's already falling out!!* (why I have no clue :-/ ... a little worrisome ... but anyway)

I had this really weird dream last night about the younger brother of my bestie falling in love with me, and I with him, and with me still married to Jarrod. It was bad... :( I hate dreams like that. More like nightmares... :'( I love Jarrod so so much, it's just that lately with the depression/anxiety, I haven't been FEELING "in love" ... if that makes any sense.

Anyway. Best stop waffling. :'(

*hides in a hole*

nicole94 28-04-2010 06:48 PM

*walks in, looks around and waves* hi guys. i made it through cooking today. it was so scary. i managed to get her to agree to letting me keep my jumper on, with my sleeves rolled up, so i cou;d quickly roll them down if i got too uncomfortable. was still scary but not too bad.
*hugs everyone then curls up and has a nap*

Scarletdreamer 28-04-2010 06:55 PM

*hugs Nicole* Glad you got through the day okay. :D That's definitely a positive. Keep hanging in there... :)

*spies a Crimson, Mark, and Hayley* :D

PoisonedApple 28-04-2010 06:59 PM

OMG <a href="http://www.lewhif.com/">this</a> is awesome LOL. Now I want one. Stupid email group...

Doikers 28-04-2010 06:59 PM

*Hugs Hayley* Darn that benefits system , so stressful :(

*Hugs April* I'm sorry about your dream , how are you feeling now ?

*Hugs Nicole* Yay you for getting through the cooking class , what did you make? , do you at least get to eat it after all that ?

My Dad popped round unannounced (I hate that) just *Doorbell* and he was there , showed him the phone bill and he totally took over so I'm completly lost now , well I didn't understand any of it in the first place anyway.

With regard the benzo's I have been popping them more than I should , I got so stress because I coulden't cut while my dad was here that I took 2 10mg Diaz , I'm only prescribed 20 a month *sigh*

I need to harm , I'm SO Freaked out I haven't planned out a meal and I usually eat at 6pm which is now , but I eat so much yesterday that some cereal and fruit would be ok today I guess.

I NEED to hurt myself but I am trying so hard not to ......:(

PoisonedApple 28-04-2010 07:01 PM

*waves at Nicole, April and Mark* I was trying to get the link to be under the word this in that last past... anyone know how to fix it? :(

nicole94 28-04-2010 07:05 PM

*hugs april, mark and crimson* i'm proud of myself for getting through it, but very stressed and triggered. i made 3 different cheesecakes mark, one chocolate, one vanilla. and one lemon. and yes mark, i do get to eat it :D (well, with my mum, brother and sister.

Doikers 28-04-2010 07:05 PM

*feels pathetic asking this * Can someone hold my hand please?

nicole94 28-04-2010 07:07 PM

*hugs mark and holds his hand* not pathetic hun. we all need a bit of comfort sometimes. whats up?

PoisonedApple 28-04-2010 07:08 PM

*holds mark's other hand and sits to listen*

Those sound yummy Nicole. :)

Doikers 28-04-2010 07:12 PM

E-ON demanding all that money.
BT stressing me by putting up my Direct Debit by almost 20 a month and I don't know why .
Benefits people sending me confusing letters.
Thats whats up , and I'm scared and confused.
*hugs Nicole and holds her hand*

Doikers 28-04-2010 07:14 PM

Sorry this whole thread seems to have been taken up by my complaining and whineing recenlty.
I really want to cut or be out of it so I don't have to think about all this , I don't know if I'm allowed to say what I did:S

Doikers 28-04-2010 07:15 PM

*Holds Crimsons hand tight*

nicole94 28-04-2010 07:19 PM

they were very yummy crimson :D and mark sweetie, we all have our moments where we take up god know how much space whining, its what this place is for, we just wanna help you get through it. and if you not sure about saying something, it might be better not to, although my PM box is always open. *hugs*

frenchhorn 28-04-2010 07:22 PM

i'm falling apart, tutorial today was bad, usually its me on my own but someone else joined us today, we were in the tutors office, I was shaking like a leaf, I ended up sitting there harming myself to stop myself having a panic attack and walking out, I wasnt concentrating, then at end tutor told other person to go so she could have a chat with me, she just sat there and went your not good are you? it was awful, she said i should think about getting special circumstances, so essays not in until sept, and maybe defer recital as well, but then what do I say to my mum, cant cope, want to die, please can i.
well after tonights concert I can, playing my friends piece which is amazing and have to be in costume as well, but after that can I please just die.

*crawls under the floorboards and crys*

SoMuchMore 28-04-2010 07:23 PM

*hugs mark and sits with him since his 2 hands are already taken* I'm sorry that everything is stressing you out so badly. Money stuff is so hard sometimes. Dont feel bad about taking up the ward by complaining.. that is what it is here for.. Its not whining.

*hugs oliver tightly* Im sorry that tutorial was bad. I hate when I feel a panic attack coming on. And not you cannot die, before or after the concert. Hang in there hun. I know its hard. Sorry i dont have more advice *more hugs*

*cuddles everyone else* I'll do more individual replies later. I don't really have the capacity right now. I've got so much stuff to do. Sorry i'm not being very supportive.

*sits in corner with a backpack full of work to do*

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