*big hugs for everyone*

Thinking of calling the crisis team tonight, even if it will go nowhere.

*Hugs Feli* I hope your call went well .

howdy everyone. I just want a hug or two please. Anyone got lollipops and sherbet? *reaches for my packet and blankie*

I couldn't do it. I got too scared to and now I'm not sure what to do.

*huuuge hugs for razey02*

hoping everyone survived thanksgiving >.<

*Hugs everyone* I've had the worst day, lost trust in a lot of people. I'll survive though.
Happy birthday Heather :)

thanks love <3

You're welcome. Hope you have a good day :)

love youuu. am here if you wanna message me <3

Thanks honey, If you wanna know just read my R/V, it seems that i'm writing in it a lot tonight.

Just had enough guys.. anyone got any advice for someone whose struggling to stop racing thoughts and flash backs, I am So triggered.

*Waves* Hi, are cuddles ok?
I don't really have much advice, but i'm in the same place and i'm just writing rubbish in my R/V. Like literally writing down whatever I'm thinking at the time.

Thanks hun*hugs* . Just sick of laying here:( can't sleep at all .. hope your ranting/venting goes good and gets it out

*Hugs back* I know how you feel, are you in the UK? If not, what time is it where you are? Have you got any methods to help you sleep?

I'm in the next county from you if Ur still in oxon :p just looked@ Ur r/v posts.. I try all sorts, my head never chills out enough.. my neighbours are making noise now. :/ my best way is being artificialy warm, by using hot water bottle, leccy blanket or soup tonight is leccy blanket night.. not working tho.. how r u feeling now x

Oh right, insane time to be awake :) Oh right, that's annoying, you need to find something you really enjoy that you can focus all your attention on and use it to relax before bed :)
I don't know, still got a lot of stuff going round in my head.

I wanna just concentrate on Xmas, however it makes me too excited, So probably not best idea lol.. I ended up putting up my Xmas tree last night out of sleeplessness, impulsivity, lol.. I like having cuddles with my cats, but my o/h won't let them in the room when he sleeping, :'( and one has a sore eye So probably should let him have some peace. Lol.ugh the fact my house is always freezing doesn't help my sleeplessness and racing thoughts.. I have my psychiatrist on the 8th So I will ask him what I should do.
Do you live at home with Ur parents?
I used to hate living@ home because my mum used to go mad if I made the slightest noise.. on a good note, Xmas lights r being turned on in our little town So gives me something to be happy aboot

Aww, concentrate on it, being excited is better than being low :)
Yeah I live with my mum, brother and sister. But luckily they're all pretty deep sleepers :) I miss my cat :(
That sucks, I hate the cold. I'm useless when we go camping in the summer. Could you get a hot bath or something?

Oooh u legend. Bath time it is for me.. I'm bored of lying here on my nice warm blanket.. I have 2 cats Harry and gizmo
They are my world, my mum was a heavy sleeper, when she. Wanted to be. It did my head in.. :/ I'm So glad that she kicked me out when she did:) I wouldn't have the life I has today.. what happened to your kittykat:(

Haha. I love my bath :) I wish my mum would kick me out lol.
He got hit by a car and died back in April :(

Aww No the poor baby: '( I never let. My boys out alone, always with me on a lead. They have No sense, So it'd take them like 5 min to injure themselves. I'm about to sleep now pumpkin.. pm me if u wanna talk again. It comes straight thru to my phone So can respond quite quick x

Also I hope you manage to sleep soon:) x

We always let ours out but I felt so bad cause he was following me when it happend :(
Ok then, I hope you sleep well :) Nighty night.

*sneaks in and drops off hugs*

*Hugs Charlie*

*waves to SatsumaStar* Hi I'm Mark :)

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Laura and Mark* How are you both?

I really have no idea what to do. I need to do something, because I'm not well, but I'm too scared to.

hiya. i need to stop thinking. i need to go to bed but I don't want to switch my laptop off. I don't want to be sensible. I want to...can someone just make me not...?

*sneaks in through the secret entrance and waves*

How is everybody?

*waves to Jetforce*

*waves to razey*

*Hugs Feli*

*Hugs Charlie*

Hello Wardies! :)

Hey everyone.

*Hugs Lindsay*

At 6pmish today I asm travelling up to London due to the fact that I have an interview with the U.S. embassy to get into the States to Meet up with the AMAZING Felicia in January . I am anxious :/ .

-hugs everyone- how are you all doing today? :)

hugs everyone

good luck mark - i hope it all goes ok

Thank Louise *Hugs*

*Hugs High Voltage if okay?*

*hugs everyone*

I am an emotional wreck right now. I can't stay in one emotion. So lost and confused.

*puts brownies and choc chip cookies on the table*

*cries in the corner and rocks*

*hugs everyone* checking in. still here, quietly occupying this dark little corner over here out of the way. not ready to leave yet, hope its ok if i stay around a bit longer. take care everyone and stay safe! talk to you soon!

yes its ok lol - hugs back doikers-

It's been a while hasn't it, guys? I see some new faces ^^ Thats good - well not really but you know what I mean. :s

I'm in college now. I made some new friends who love me lots and lots! I'm out and proud and even told a couple people about my ...ex-problem. Turns out they've been through similar things.
I express myself through poetry now. I don't starve myself anymore. I sleep more than I used to but college sometimes keeps me awake (stupid coursework!). I'm doing a BTEC Level 3 extended diploma in art and design (photography) - and so far, I haven't missed a day!!!!
I found a new love in glowstringing and I'm going to start going ice-skating again! (It's something I'm good at ^^)

I hope you're all well! I'm sorry I haven't checked in but I thought it was about time I did. You guys saved me. You were my family when I didn't feel like I had one. So I will always be here - even if it's only to visit!

-Shad xxx

1 year, 2 months and 4 days free ^^

It's kind of shocked me that I've gone past my year. But I still think about it so I'm not free yet. Almost. But not yet.

-S xxx

I think the worst thing thats happened in the few months I've been gone other than my twaty ex-friends finally f***ing off (Kept death glaring me. I was like 'yeah, f*** you') was that I got a girlfriend and after the first three days of dating (she was living at my house (she got kicked out)) she ignored me for a month. I broke up with her and a couple weeks later I find out from my best friend (Rose <--- Gf's aunt (GF=17)) that she'd been cheating on me with a GUY! And that he'd purposed to her! I was so distraught that day. Honestly thought I was going to give in.

-S x

zzzzzzzzzzzz. so exausted >.<

Hey everyone :) how are you all? I havent been here or ages iv been on ryl just not in here. I'v just posted a picture in the compliments picture thread to for the first time.

*Hugs Mark*

*Hugs Louise*

*Hugs Heather*

*Hugs Shad* You are doing great Shad :D

*Hugs Heather*

*Hugs Ian*

*Flops*

hugs everyone