be careful! it'll have your arm off!

lol *thwap*... That was me, throwing a pillow at you David ;-)

*sigh* aren't corners wonderful? Or small spaces in general, like between the bed and the wall (in my room anyway) or in the closet... *sigh*

naughty talking with your mouth full!!!!!:0 lol

Im frightened of small spaces! I dont know why! I like lots of room! (or maybe that should be..I need lots of room!!1:) )

*keeps pillow* thanks lol I needed a pillow, my neck was starting to hurt...
*sleeps for a few minutes*
where abouts in america do you live? one of my grandparents lives in seattle...which is cool...free holiday every year =D

Aww, those are good ages :-D how severs the Autism, if you don't mind my asking?
Lol, ugh, attachment theory? Well I can tell you there's a good chance my attachment style is insecure ambivilant lol ;-)

ROTFL *pokes Davids CD player with a stick again, this time in full hocky gear*

*holds back CD player* I bought a leash for it *nods*

anyway...I'll be back in a bit, I'm gonna wash my hair ^_^

I like small spaces. When I feel bad it's nice to squish into one, or at least be up against something... You know, become one with a wall lol

Seattle?! That's just a few hours drive from here (uni) and where I grew up (actually I'm closer here at uni). And I'm glad you could use the pillow :-)

Of course I dont mind you asking, always feel free to ask me anything:)
Weel, both girls have learning difficulties and behaviour difficulties too so they are quite severe I guess. The eldest has just learnt to talk about 6 months ago..now she doesnt stop:) its lovely! I know it sounds soppy but they definatly saved my life.I alwyas have to be aroudn for them cos noone else can look after them properly. 9 and now I also sound big headed!lol)
My eldest also loves small spaces! she will go under the table against the wall if she is upset.
So, that a no to teh essay!!lol Im sure they speak in a different language!!

backkkkk. with shiny silky smooth hair.

I love it when my hair is clean, makes me feel liek a different person!

ha, I should totally come see you this summer!

They sound like a joy :-D and you don't sound soppy or big headed. For heaven sake I fessed up in session yesterday that my cat has kept me around a few times when nothing else would have otherwise. lol talk about soppy ;-)

Yeah, I think I'll take a pass on the paper lol. Though it is an interesting topic. My goal has been to work with Deaf individuals in the mental health field. Not sure if itl actually happen as right now I don't really have any motivation to accomplish anything (short of my own death:pinch:) but...

lol could be fun David

Hi Carole, I see you there *hugs*

but knowing how shy I am, I'd probably run away =[

Anyway all I should probably try and get a bit more sleep before I've got to get going.

*hugs*
Take care

Well, your cat is gorgeous and its not soppy at all. I feel the same about my animals. they are a lot more understanding than people.

I think it would be great if you worked with deaf people in the mental health field!what a great goal! I know a few deaf children as my daughter goes to a special school and there is very little help for children as most of the behaviour psychologists especially have no training for deaf kids so I imagine there is a real shortage of people to do the jobs, adults or children.

lol esp since, despite how crap I usually feel I'm obnoxious in my efforts to try and make everyone else feel included and comfortable :-D
*shakes head* strange girl, I am.

Oops. This is me, going to sleep :sleeping:

yes, good night Ally, try and get a bit.
David, I have to go now. but take care and i hope to chat soon! dont dribble at the dentists!!lol

bye bye and goodnight

I'll try not to dribble...

I guess I'll go too then...=[ *walks off all lonely*

hi again. anyone around?

Hey David
I've got lecture in an hour but I'm here for a bit

YAY!!!

I went to the dentist and I had a crown fitted on one of my molars *opens mouth wide so you can see and acts proud*

my mouth's still numb =[

lol good for you :-D

How ya doing today then? Apart from the dentist

Aww
*hugs David* I'm sorry

I'm feeling better =] thanks to ryl =D
Might write some music despite my band having broken up =[

Well glad to hear you're doing better :-)

Whyd your band break up?

lack of practice times - we could never co-ordinate ourselves =[ which sucks, but I'm writing for another band now =D

Well at least you've got that then :-)

indeed. sorry. I've been distracted, I'm talking to an old school friend I haven't seen in months!

Lol fun times :-)
No worries, I've been getting ready for lecture... Which I have for the next two hours :pinch:

Hey Emma *hugs*

Take care all

I think you come under the category of someone who needs hugs and love =] I'm afraid to say I'm leaving for a while, but I'll be back later. I hope you'll be ok.

*hugs*
*gives cookiez*
*gives hot chocolate*

*much needed hugs to all of you*

Hope everyone is staying safe.

*hugs putridangel* do you want to chat?

*wanders in dazed*
*whimpers and cries*
I dont want to leave again...
the horrible people are coming to view my house soon...and I'm planning how to sabotage it which will make my family hate me...but I cant move...I feel unstable as it is and I'll have no internet for weeks..so I'll be cut off and I wont have the Denial Tent...I dont want to move house ><

I keep telling myself that today has been a good day...but it hasnt....
I give up waiting for him..he doent want me...but who can blame him...I'm a massive ugly fat mess ><
and my family dont want me..
no one wants me :crying:
*crawls to her corner and sobs her heart out*

Oh damn....how rude of me...
Heloo David...I'm Alexx, welcome to the Denial Tent *Hugs*

Ally, Chloe, Callie, Emma, Jeremy, Sam, everyone else...how are you?
*Hugs*

*snuggles putridangel*
Not selfish at all, just in need of some support and some hugs. Please be careful.

Alexx you are SO not an ugly fat mess! *huggles* And of course people want you. All of us here want you and thats a good number of people.

*sits as far in her corner as she can get, her arms wraped around her knees*
I'm rather anxious today... don't know why... just really feel like a mess :crying:

*looks up from her corner and spots Ally*
*waves and gives hugs*

Sorry you feel anxious :(...you're not a mess though hun *cuddles*

NO!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO ><
IM.NOT.MOVING.HOUSE.
Noooo :crying:
I like the way they didnt even TELL me they were going ahead with it...but they told my little brother.

Anyone here?
No?
*hits head on the wall*

*hugs Alexx and everyone who needs it*

Rowie, the point is that it can get better. You have gone through so much of it in pain that it would be a shame to give up now when you are being given the option to get better. Ignore the stupid BPD and instead of fighting to hurt yourself, fight to be happy.

How are you doing now Ally? *hugs* I think you should take your counsellor up on his offer of writing a letter re the cat. Hope you are feeling a little less anxious x

*welcomes darkark and everyone else know is new* *offers cocoa*

Alexx, hun, things are so tough for you right now but you will start looking for unis soon and then you will be free of all the **** at home. You will be stable living in a town for at least 3 years, able to go out, socialise whenever you want without abuse or restrictions.


*looks under sides of tent for Carole, Callie, Chloe and Jeremy* You guys ok?

Spoken to Helen tonight and she is feeling much better but her internet is still down x

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As for me, I have no idea how I am doing. Really, in all honesty. none. The bad SI stuff arrived yesterday and so far I have put off using it. Not for good reasons, but because I want it to be right. I need to be alone where I cannot be disturbed and can focus. Saturday when back at uni...perfect. Never used this before but always wanted to try it. Max damage. Test limits. I am slightly scared if I fail to do what I want though, I don't know how I will react, not well I don't think, thats when the thoughts of ending it will come back.

Oh, and my manager at work, who I have known for more than 3 years and has seen my through so much announced yesterday she was leaving and moving to Cyprus in september. Was having a bad day anyway and had already burst into tears. I cried 4 times and had to take a break including 1 complete melt down in front of customers. *sigh*

Sorry for the rant

*sends more hugs for everyone*

*hugs Emma tight*
You dont need to hun...I wish I had more for you :-(

i think customers are there to be melted down at. my friend had a good one of those last year, working in a supermarket, she was having a bad day and shouting "it's not my ****ing job to pack your ****ing bags" to this rich looking lady. haha. cracked me up so much.
but, emma, PLEASE be careful. i know you bought the stuff for a reason and you want to try it but please don't go overboard. in the end you might get really hurt and none of us wants that.

i don't know how i am feeling. i want to see my counsellor again cos she has a couch and i want to just curl up on it where she can look after me and i don't have to be anything or do anything.

*drags a couch into denial tent which looks remarkably like chloe's counsellor's one*......................... *places Chloe on it with a blanket and sets up watch to keep an eye on her*

Thanks Alexx hun, I will be fine, I always am eventually lol. Take care of yourself k?

lol at your friend Chloe, that actually made me smile! Thanks :)

I should go to bed...
Forewarning....I wont be online later because I'm at a concert...
but I will be hidden in that corner over there *points*
I dont want to leave...I cant leave :(

Take care everyone.
Emma hun...keep yourself safe yeh?*hugs*
*hugs for everyone*
*leaves fresh, warm cookies and drinks.*
xxx

Have fun at your concert hun. Might text you a bit later if not too busy at work x