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blondiebear 15-05-2008 01:58 AM

Hugs everyone.

MammaMia 15-05-2008 02:53 AM

I meet Emma today
But I also meet my psychiratrist today for the first time...scared.

effervescence 15-05-2008 04:43 AM

helen and emma i hope you have a great day together!

susan, i am sorry about your friend. you are both in my thoughts.

ally i guess the best thing to say to you is trust your instincts and follow them. you can choose where you go after uni and waht you do, so i guess have a look around, at jobs, places, houses etc, and just go with what feels safe.

*hugs to everyone*

i wish i could get rid of this damn cough.

blondiebear 15-05-2008 05:00 AM

Yeowie. I have a tension headache that goes from my eyes all the way over my head and down to my waist. Part of it is from working. This is one of those days where I had to undo and redo mistakes. Not big mistakes, just quarter inch mistakes. On something the size of a shirt, that matters.

I've been talking to my friend. I've been talking to her sister who is mad because her sister won't talk to her. All of this via pm.

My I am currently is back to dizzy. In case I didn't mention that earlier, (I think I did in another thread) for me dizzy means exhausted to the point of being lightheaded.

Oh yeah, I got a card from my mom thanking me for the mother's day card and telling me/us that she misses us. I feel bad for her in a theoretical way.

I've been coughing too. I wish I had a pulse-oxygen meter.

Sorry, I needed to vent/whine. I'm physically, mentally and emotionally wiped out.

Jetforce 15-05-2008 06:27 AM

*jeremy comes in and gives every1 some hugs and leaves a plate a few bags of mashmellows for u to eat*

MammaMia 15-05-2008 09:23 AM

*gives people hugs*

I keep coughing, I do hope I'm not coming down with one!!!! Wow I meet Emma in 2 hours & 5 mins :D

effervescence 15-05-2008 10:32 AM

my cousin is going in for his 4th surgery tomorrow.

Sugar and Spice 15-05-2008 11:06 AM

*hugs everyone*

Chloe, I hope your cousin recovers quickly! May I ask why he has had so many?

Oh God, oh God, oh God. I could swear that someone did knock on the door and I could swear that something was banging against my window. I'm so frightened that someone will try to get in and end up suceeding!

effervescence 15-05-2008 11:15 AM

1st time they undid a twist in his intestine.
2nd time had to do explorative as had relapse and put in a central line.
3rd time had to remove infected central line plus cut out a suspicious lump from his gut (still waiting on results about that).
4th time to undo another twist and cut some more of his colon out.

BoundNoMore 15-05-2008 11:18 AM


Originally Posted by Carole (Post 762960)
Oh God, oh God, oh God. I could swear that someone did knock on the door and I could swear that something was banging against my window. I'm so frightened that someone will try to get in and end up suceeding!

*holds and rocks Carole* sshhh... it's ok... you are ok

Sugar and Spice 15-05-2008 11:36 AM

Thanks Amanda (hope I'm right in thinking that's your name)

:crying: I'm so scared. It's not stopping. It's not easing. :crying:

zowie 15-05-2008 11:42 AM

Thanks for the advice Susan. I'll give those a try!
Got work in an hour, still dreading it. I'm just no good at working, I'm so useless.

MammaMia 15-05-2008 12:09 PM

Heeeeeey from me & Emma :D

Appointment in 19 mins arrrrrrrrrrrrggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

Sugar and Spice 15-05-2008 12:26 PM

Hope your appt goes alright, Helen, and that you both have a good day together!

MammaMia 15-05-2008 06:10 PM

Well today has been pretty emotional. I went to college (big woop not) feeling sooooooooo nervous about the appointment. Kept checking the time and yeah. Jess kinda had a quick go at one point but that's her job to...well sorta. So at 10.20, I left the class and walked down to the car park well the entrance to wait for Emma woop woop!

Emma turns up (YAY!) and we had our first drive and Em missed a turning which was hilarious!!! So eventually took the right one and finally made to my house (after missing two turnings and then hitting the bump- bless her, she's not a bad driver!) So we chilled and came on RYL (as you do (Y)) and then walked to my appointment hehe. Fun times. Had to wait for ages cus the appointment started bloody 15 minutes late >.< But it was a very relaxed chat really and yeah.

So he asked about some of my background and we had a chat about other things. Didn't really ask too much on the self harm & suidice thing..obv mentioned my latest od and yeah got to told to not go there again kinda thing and yeah. So eventually told me what he WASN'T going to do and why, which was really good and honest :) So I'm not depressed rofl. Soooo least that's something. Got given number for self harm group thing (need to ring her again cus no answer earlier) and I have a new counsellor. Only truble is...I need to know how to get there and need to ring back to confirm the appointment she offered me after we came off the phone...she rang back 20 mins after whilst me & em were out.

So after the appointment, we came home, went online, made the two phone calls, had some photos mwahaha and had a hilarious journey back to Solihull. Emma stalled the car haha! (She's not a bad driver....honest!) Soooo yeah we had fun. She met my mum (bless) and then drove me to college. But first we had to get out of the car park. Emma made the first mistake and missed the turning (muppet) and then I nearly sent us down the wrong lane and got us killed....then on the way out we think Emma may have badly scratched her car, oooooooops! So yeah she dropped me off :(

I went to my last lesson and was alright. Jess came in looking rather cheerful and glad I was back. Then at one point she said "work or die" or something like that. Insenstitive :( Then like I heard my name being called several times...whether that was the lads or some voice in my head....I have no idea!!! Upsetting really. I just suddenly went from really cheerful to feeling utter ****. Stuipd mood swing >.< But yeah Jess made me smile at the end so tis alright I suposse.

Feel lik crying u know? I need to sleep aswell, barely slept this morning :( Buuuut here's two pics of me & emma mwahaha!

MammaMia 15-05-2008 06:16 PM

Oh I almsot forgot, he told me to stay away from psychiatrists...and explained why :p So he's written to my doctor to say I've seen him and he's not wanting to me to see him again...fair play!

chocostashchick 15-05-2008 06:56 PM

*squishes Ally and Emma and Chloe and Susan and Zowie and Carole and Helen and Alexx and Jeremy*

Emma and Helen have fun! *is jealous of you two*

Helen good luck w/ the appt
Ally being taken care of is good we all need that at times and it's a very nice thing
Zowie if you are able to work you are not useless. good luck honey it will be okay and you will feel better after
Chloe i send your cousin good luck for the surgery

in other news had horrid psych appt today. because i have weddings in June and July and stupidly cancelled a bunch of appts i dont see him again till july 2 and not at all in june or the rest of may
this is a long time. like 7 weeks with no psych appts. a little scared but also okay with it because the appt today was AWFUL
he made me show him everything, like actually show it to him
and he told me i am bulimic *is confused and appalled*
i dont understand any of this

MammaMia 15-05-2008 07:05 PM

*hugs you*

lol you need to read my post above hun, tells you about mine & em's day, might make u laugh :D

I on the other hand need to stop drinking. I need to leave my bin alone and all. (I'm trying to find certain something in there to cut)....grr! I cancelled my weekly night out with my dad aswell. My head hurts. I feel crappy. Don't want tomorrow to come. After my 9.40 lesson, I will never have a lesson with Jess ever again :( Regardless of whether it's a positive sad "because you've come out of the other side"

Did she mean like college? Or me getting through my numerous suidice attempts this year, one/two of which she barely knows about >.<

*cries and wants Emma*

l'il esky 15-05-2008 07:44 PM

*esky grabs a blanket and a pillow and curls up in a ball in the corner* please wake her when the sun is shining again

lil-princess 15-05-2008 08:28 PM

Heya everyone :)

How are ya all today?

I didn't think i was gonna be online today but i decided to in the end, i guess the funeral went quite well but i feel like i ruined the last part when i went and walked off cause i just couldn't cope with seeing my friend being lowered into the ground :'( i just want her back.
I so wanna do something right now :( either like od or just cut i don't know i'm trying my hardest not to do anything but it's just so hard.

*hugs all round* xxx

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