Its 10pm but ehh

Maybe you should try to go to sleep then? Even if it's early, you're sleepy. Could be good to get a little extra sleep? Maybe if you can't get to sleep right now, search out some good music and listen to it, maybe watch a good movie?

Might watch a movie :)

Mmmmk -makes heather some popcorn and hands it to her along with pillows and fuzzy blankies to snuggle with during the movie- snacks and snuggling with something fuzzy always make movies better -nods-

*takes cuz evrything in ward is cal free :p* yay fuzzy blankie though :)

Yup everything is cal free your right tis a magical ward -nods-

I know, right? I love fuzzies! <3 xx

Hmmm...is it weird to feel like you need to be creative, but you can't think of what you want to do to be creative, and searching for things stresses you out and causes you to become triggered? :s Does this even make sense? lol it does in my head but ya..

-spots felicia and waves- how you be?

Hello all

*hugs all who can accept & waves at others*

Sorry for the absences again but have been ... not so well. Housemate is also not so well so been taking him to docs to make sure he gets med changes and stuff. *shrugs* Joys of the mentally ill with no psych docs. Trying to do a lit review that's due in about 3 weeks but struglling a bit - probably cos of little sleep. Is very hot here which isn't helping. Bit over the heat. Also big storms in the early hours of the morning waking us up. Meh. *sigh*

-waves to kahlia- hi I'm Kitty, and I'm psycho. I like to think of myself as the reject of the litter. -smiles

sorry to hear you haven't been doing well. :( hope things get better for ya..

*Hugs Helen*

*Hugs Nicole*

*Hugs Lia*

*Hugs Heather*

*Hugs Ian*

*Hugs Kitty*

*Hugs Felicia*

*Hugs Kahlia* I'm sorry you're not sleeping well :(

Sorry I didn't do individuals , too many pages to address you all but I am thinking of you all and sorry if I missed anyone:S

I've not yet drunk my 2nd cup of coffee this morning and I just want to go back to bed , I have to go out and pay my bills in a bit , maybe the fresh air will perk me up *Sips on Coffee*

Well..... I paid my bills , did some grocery shopping , went into blockbusters but resisted the urge to buy any DVD's ( I have loads I haven't watched) It's slippy out in places but at least I got out . I HATE not paying my bills on time despite the fact that I'm over £100 in credit for my Gas I think .The Dixie Chicks came on my MP3 player whilst I was walking they're cheerful :) then depressing . So I get perked up and then relate and then repeat .

How are you all this lunchtime?

*hugs wardies*

*Hugs Helen* How are you today Helen?

*hugs Mark* I'm okay, having a bad day with my anaemia though :(

*Hugs Helen* I'm sorry your Anaemia is playing up on you today :(

*hugs everyone* sorry about last night guys, my power cut off cause of the snow, so i went to bed. I'm ok, was just feeling very low last night. Ended up SI'ing :(

*Hugs Nicole* I'm sorry you ended up S.I.'ing last night :( How long was your power out for? How are you feeling today hun?

Hey guys. Having a rough day today. Well had a bad evening yesterday and SI'd. And today I'm having really strange thoughts. Its odd, because this hasn't happened in a while but I was laying awake in bed this morning and it suddenly hit me that lots of animals had died to keep me alive and I'm not worth that... How am I supposed to get over the guilt of that? :/ My fiance really isn't understanding of it at all, he doesn't seem to care about the animals that died and has even antagonised it this morning going on about how the horse jumping horses would be better used as food as its a better cause and its driving me mad and I don't know what to do with myself. Sounds silly I know but I feel so guilty and low right now... *hides away in corner*

*Hugs Sarah* I'm sorry you're having a rough time of it :( I totally understand the whole animals dieing to help me thing , I am a strict vegetarian and even go to the point of pouring my anti-depressants out of their capsules because the capsules are made of Gelatin and thats made from cows/pigs/fish , then swallowing the bits of anti-depressants that was inside the capsule. I don't like the fact that even though I'm not eating the Geletin it's still made into the meds for me.

Yeah, my fiance is of the opinion that if it doesn't contain meat then its not a meal and even snacks should have a meat aspect, so he's not very understanding right now. Glad I have the ward. I really am. I don't know what I'd do without you guys *hugs Mark*

*Hugs Sarah* I know , I'd be lost without my wardies :S

I just don't know what to do with myself right now :( I don't know why I feel like this, I feel horribly guilty. Almost sick with guilt. Ugh. >:(

OH umm , could you look into how you could help some animals?

*hugs Mark* Thanks.

*hugs Nicole* Please look after your wounds

I was supposed to voulenteer at an animal sanctuary but they never got back to me, its been 3 months. Going to go back up in the New Year. That kinda made me feel forgotten. Thanks Mark for reminding me I need to go see them :)

*spies Helen and Felicia and cuddles*

*hugs ward*

How are you today hun?

I'm... okay, I think. Not sure.

How are you?

Pretty low to be honest. Just so glad I have the ward, noone IRL really understands, but you all do.

I'm sorry you're feeling low, Sarah. I wish there was something I could do to help. If you need to talk please get in touch.

I'm feeling like overdosing. My brother is home for Christmas so he can look after the cats and I can overdose badly enough to need to go into hospital. It's my birthday today. I shouldn't be thinking like this. I should be trying to make this a fresh start but I just can't.

*cuddles Lindsay* Happy birthday darling. Thanks for the offer, I'll remember it :) Means a lot to me

Please don't overdose, you mean so much to us and we all love you and care about you x

*Hugs Lindsay* Happy birthday Hun , Pleasse don't Overdose :S

happy birthday lindsay <3 try not to od =[

*hugs felicia*
*hugs mark and sarah*
*waves to everyone else*

*Hugs Heather* How are you feeling?

*cuddles Heather* how you feeling today lovely?

ok just sleepy.
hows you

Doing better since I've been hanging around in here this afternoon/evening :)

*hugs everyone*

sorry i didnt stop by yesterday, i was almost deathly ill. feeling a little better today.. hoping i'm on the mend.

*Hugs Laura* I hope you're on the mend too :)

*cuddles Laura* I'm glad you're feeling better today. I do hope you're on the mend :)

*Hugs Laura and Sarah* Glad you're both feeling better, even if it is in different ways.

*Hugs Mark, Heather and Felicia*

Lia! *cuddles* How are you today?

Ugh my fiance is replying to texts in such an indirect way, almost as if they're not even being read. ¬_¬ I wish he'd aknowledge when I say I miss him.

*Squishes Sarah*

*cuddles Mark* I feel like such an ass moaning about something so petty

You're not an ass Sarah , it's perfectly valid to be upset when your feelings are hurt , I'm sorry there's not more I can do though than *Squish ya*

*squishes Mark* thanks. Everyone else is telling me I'm being an ass is all... Is just a bad day for me.