*hugs Sarah*

*Hugs Lia* How are you?

It's only 6 PM... Damn... this day needs to end.

I'm sorry Sarah. I don't really know what advice to give as I am unclear on the sitation, but please don't do anything harmful to yourself.

I'm not so great, various reasons, but I am waiting for the RAINN hotline atm.

Sorry Felicia, saw your post after I posted. What's wrong? *hugs*

*cuddles Lia* hope you're okay hun



I'll try to stay safe, but my counsellor told me that whenever I SI or anything I let my mum win and when I need to and I slip up I feel so guilty. I just feel so huge and pathetic.

*snuggles Felicia* I'll be here a while yet hun if you need to chat

It's nothing huge. The holidays are just messing with me, between my ****ed up family, flashbacks, trying to not SI, and trying to keep the suicidal urges to a minimum.

I really just want today to end so i can sleep and not worry about this.

Im back errybody. -hugs felicia, lia, sarah, and crimson-

Sorry you all aren't doing so well. :(

How you be crimson?

My fiance keeps going on about how I can't just take his word for things and stop being silly about my weight or depression and things. I keep trying to explain its not that simple but it hurts so much and just keeps making me feel worse. I just wish I had enough of my meds to OD and get out of everything

*hugs everyone back* Better after talking to a coworker for 2 hours (the time just flew by)... I feel better but then on the other hand I worry that I said too much and was just a nuisance... *sigh* c'est la vie I suppose...

Well I'm glad you don't have enought meds Sarah, you're not pathetic. I'm getting messed up over one tiny could be insult from a stranger. I don't even know if it is insulting, but I'm really insecure about my writing as it is... Well anyway. Random, but does your fiance live with you?

*Hugs Felicia* Sorry you're feeling bad, the holidays mess me up slightly too as I have no distraction of school. I love school, I belong there. *squishes*

*Hugs Kitty* How are you?

*Hugs Crimson*

I'm sorry but I really can't do this.

My fiance doesn't live with me, its sometimes a blessing when things get like this. I don't know what to do anymore. I want to disappear. I'm sobbing so hard right now I can barely breathe :(

*cuddles everybody*

What can't you do Lia?

Work was busier than I thought it would be :) Thankfully!! I'm so tired dude. Going to sleep soon xx

-cuddles erryone who wants to be cuddled-

Wish I knew what to say to make errything better for you guys. :(

I just wish this would stop. I hate the arguments. I hate myself.

*cuddles Kitty and Sarah lots*

-cuddles helen- I'm glad work went well for you.

So bad...so bad....-continues repeating in a hushed tone-

-lays on the floor and just stares into the oblivion as thoughts race through her mind and as she tries to drown out the thoughts and the voices and the noise with music-

*hides in corner* I feel dead inside, like everything is now just a motion until everything is all over...

*cuddles you both again*

*hugs everyone*
wow the wards moving quite fast right now.

I'm sorry I can't help anyone else. I just want to cry, but tears won't come. Nothing now, its all blank