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Kahlia1981 17-06-2009 12:31 PM

*offers hugs to all*

Sorry I haven't been around it's been an emotional time.
:On Monday I had to put my little dog to sleep
:TuesdayI had surgical clinic regarding my shoulder
:Today I had pre-admission clinic and it looks like they are definitely going ahead with the surgery this time
:Next Tuesday my friend Nicole {mouse in darkness} leaves for WA
:Wednesday is my surgery then
:Thursday I have to go and get my hand looked at

It just doesn;t want to stop at the moment.

Dayna - i'm also glad the woman was nice and that you were finally able to have that appointment

Hannah - thanks for the hugs [wildly insane]

zowie 17-06-2009 03:06 PM

*Hugs Secrets* Would you prefer a little stay in the denial tent? There are plenty of corners in there.

*Hugs Cheryl* I think it would be a good idea to tell her the truth. She cant help you properly unless she knows as much as she can.

Glad you finally had your assessment, Dayna. Also glad the woman was nice, what sort of things have they put in place for you?

*Hugs Katie* Ohhh, I'm sorry that happened sweets. Does he not see her much because of the kid?

*Hugs Kahlia* Sometimes when it rains, it pours. I'm really sorry so much crap is happening to you. I really hope things get better for you.

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I had a bottle of wine last night, and watched some TV with my dad. It was nice, and then I had a seriously long lie-in :) Feeling a bit drained today. Like I don't really have the energy to do anything. Need a cigarette. Smoked the entire pack yesterday. Damn.

[Fog] 17-06-2009 03:23 PM

Hey guys, sorry I haven't been around much lately. Been dissociating a lot and found it hard to type. Got my family therapy session soon with a whole crowd lol, got the psychologist, two other psychologists who observe, someone from the EIT, plus me, my folks and my boyfriend. Joy lol. Anyway hope you are all doing ok, lots of love and hugs xxx

shadowedseraph 17-06-2009 05:15 PM

*hugs to all on the ward*

Crisis team nurse made me go out for a walk with her today to show that the bad people arent really there, i dont know what to think now because part of me is screaming that she just can't see them but i know they are there. I want to cut badly but i'm not going to. im not.

zowie 17-06-2009 08:22 PM

*Hugs HannahBanana* Good luck at therapy hun.

*Hugs Shadow* I know how hard it is when people tell you things aren't real. Hold onto the thought that you're not going to cut. That's great.

Eclectica 17-06-2009 08:22 PM

Well, **** it. Mum saw the empty razorblade packet in my bag. My friends caught me buying them. Mum's probably told Ken what she saw. My friends are probably gonna freak out one day cause I carry em around. Ken will takl to me about it and warn me not to do it 'cause I'll upset mum. I went to bath and they kept calling my name and asking me questions. Just making sure I wasn't dead. They also went quiet a lot outside the door whenever they passed, listening for me moving. And I heard them whispering. And now i have blood stained on my inner sleeve. Great.

zowie 17-06-2009 08:47 PM

*Hugs Kat*

I'm feeling really tired, which is weird because I woke up ridiculously late today. I'm looking forward to tomorrow, taking my dad to lunch (father's day pressie). I guess it'll have to be an early(ish) night for me. xx

youonlyliveonce 17-06-2009 09:35 PM

thanks for the hug zowie. i was honest it was really hard again 2day. she pushed me really hard. not coping well with it. had a few drinks 2nite i have been rather numb since the appointment. which scares me. got another appointment monday just before i go to work.

realflifefaerie 17-06-2009 10:01 PM

Evening all,
*hugs all round* sorry I don't have time to write individual responses but I shall try over the next few days.

I'm a bit more positive tonight though a corner in the denial tent sounds like a plan for now.

zowie 18-06-2009 12:04 AM

*Curls up with a blanket and goes to sleep*

Eclectica 18-06-2009 01:01 AM

I knew it would happen. Everybodys commenting on my SHing. Again. And I'm sick of it.

I think I'm gonna leave this RYL account. Start new, nobody knowing my new account name. I think my mum somehow has heard what i've been posting on here. Dunno how but for ****s sake. And whatever I post gets commented on by everybody.

If anybody wants to know my new name, PM me. I'm leaving this account for good and no hints on the new account will be left as to who I am.

Not even my splits will post on here. I'm sick of the damned guilt trips everyone does to me. It makes me worse.

Damnation. 18-06-2009 02:30 AM

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Originally Posted by Kahlia1981 (Post 1692337)
Glad you finally had your assessment, Dayna. Also glad the woman was nice, what sort of things have they put in place for you?

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Originally Posted by BigBear (Post 1691955)
Glad the lady was nice. Must have been hard *hugs* I hope it helps though. Good luck with the drs. Take care x

*Hugs both* Yeah, I'm glad that I've finally had it, too. It was a bit on the hard side, but could've been worse. I think it's just the future appts with the psyche and doctor now to wait for

EDIT: Whoops, I seemed to have combined Kahlia's and Arwen's posts together, lol .__.;

Quote:

Originally Posted by Eclectic*a (Post 1693819)
I knew it would happen. Everybodys commenting on my SHing. Again. And I'm sick of it.

I think I'm gonna leave this RYL account. Start new, nobody knowing my new account name. I think my mum somehow has heard what i've been posting on here. Dunno how but for ****s sake. And whatever I post gets commented on by everybody.

If anybody wants to know my new name, PM me. I'm leaving this account for good and no hints on the new account will be left as to who I am.

Not even my splits will post on here. I'm sick of the damned guilt trips everyone does to me. It makes me worse.

x_x I'm sorry you're having to deal with all the guilt trips and ****, and feel that you have to leave your account

~Kaytee~ 18-06-2009 03:23 AM

Thanks Zowie. It's complicated. Don't want to go into it. Rather forget it.

I don't know how I'm feeling. Pretty faint, so hungry, sick. Another episode. Please let wednesday happen fast. I want these exams over. I'm over everything. I had a dream that my sister started cutting. DAMN DREAM. So triggering.. very bad =[

Kahlia1981 18-06-2009 05:31 AM

I managed to slip my cast off during the night and had to go get a new one put on. But I brought forward my appointment with fracture clinic to Monday so it'll be done before the surgery.

*leavs hugs for all that want and or need them*

shadowedseraph 18-06-2009 11:23 AM

*hugs to all on the ward*

*hugs zowie* thank you, not cutting is a major thing at the moment.

Got to see the crisis team psyche today, worried cos i dont know what he's going to say

Biba 18-06-2009 12:13 PM

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zowie 18-06-2009 03:38 PM

I just took my dad for lunch, it was lovely. I'm now very full of food and not feeling guilty :)

zowie 18-06-2009 05:26 PM

okay, now I'm feeling guilty. Why did I have to eat so much? Fatty.

*LONG RANT*
Also, my youngest sister is an absolute nightmare. Yesterday afternoon she asked to go out and play in the street and our dad said no because she needed a bath. To which she went mental, called us both loads of names, screamed, slammed doors and finally said 'im going anyway' and just walked out.
She came back about ten minutes later and appologised, and dad said 'im still punishing you'. So yet again, she goes off on one, and says 'the only reason i came back was because I couldn't find my friends, and the only reason I appologised is because I don't want to be punished!'
After a lot of shouting and swearing she calmed down, got in the bath and went to bed.
She just got home from school (dad's not here atm so I'm in charge). First thing she does is head for the cuboard (even though one of her punishements is no snacks or puddings) so I have to stop her. She starts moaning and telling me to ring dad and ask him if she's allowed a snack. I said no, because I knew what his answer would be.
Then her friend knocks on the door and she asks to go out. I can't remember if he grounded her or not so I ask her to honestly tell me. She says 'I don't remember' Which basically means he did. She screams at me for saying no and then says 'oh yeah, I'm not grounded'. So to be sure, I phone dad, and he's left his phone at home. Then it turns out (from her letting slip) he DID ground her but said if she was nice he mmight lift it after a while. So I say 'well, there's your answer, you need his permission'.
Then she says in an arrogant tone 'well I'm going anyway, I don't care.' Which is exactly what got her grounded in the first place. So I raise my voice and tell her exactly that, and that she will be in enormous trouble if she does.
She then storms into the hallway where her friend is waiting and screams 'you think you're my mother. I wish you'd stop acting like you're my mother!'
That's what really upset me. If mum were here she would have sorted her right out. She wouldn't be such a brat. Dad's too liberal. I mean, so liberal it got us on TV! He just lets her get away with everything. She's ten for christ's sake!
She's now upstairs with her friend, and I know I should send him away seeing as she's grounded, but I can't stand her bringing mum into the argument.

Okay rant over.
I completely understand if no one read that, it's very long.
Sigh.

MammaMia 18-06-2009 06:02 PM

*cuddles all*

Arwen, wow, I don't know what to say to help but I read it all, sounds like hell to deal with :(

zowie 18-06-2009 06:39 PM

Aww thank you for reading my pointless rant :)
Yeah, it's horrible. She's blaming it on me that she's not allowed to do anything even though it's her own fault and dad's decision.

Anway, things have calmed down now. x


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