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~*Rainbow*~ 07-04-2009 04:01 PM

*hugs Widly insane* Im ok kinda have the docs tomorrow for my shoulder

*hugs jem* congrats on gettin out *hands over some chocolate easter nests*

*hugs Damnation* If your putting in most of the work then its not a friendship - I've been there with people and its not good!! In fact the people i left behind in scotland told me they would always be there for me since i've come back i aint heard from them but I know that they aint worth it.

*hugs zowie* when plans and things get cancelled they days do tend to drag i find sometime by just gettin out walking and reading a book helps me keeps my days busy and not dragging - even taking up a craft like card making or painting might help as well

*hugs Fairytales tell tales* How are you today?
*hugs MammaMia* Hope your Head is better Sweetie
*hugs Kahlia1981* Hope your curtains have worked for you
*hugs *Sorcha*Loupvoix* * How are you doing? *Hands in extra fluffy pillows and more chocolate and Juice*
*hugs banana89* Are you ok darlin???? Dont hide in corners speak to Monkey *Hands Over Mr Monkey* He's a good listener and like to give hugs
*hugs Tears of Solitude* Are you okay???

Sorry i dont know everyones names im getting there slowly!!!! :(


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I was on the phone tomy other half last night and i broke down in tears on the phone becasue i miss him so damm much!!

Dont know how much more of this i can take without going crazy! If only i could find a job and a place to stay down the road then i could be back! and start being happy all over again

But thats all small silly things..............

~*Rainbow*~ 07-04-2009 06:35 PM

Thats not so good, well sometime you have to be cruel to be kind jsut tell him that you have made a choice and that you dont want to see him for a while due to personal reason

ksdfjhlksajf 07-04-2009 08:10 PM

Yeah... I know it's hard to be tough like that!

How is everyone doing? I'm feeling a little better today.

~*Rainbow*~ 07-04-2009 08:43 PM

Glad your feeling a bit better fairytales

Emo 07-04-2009 10:50 PM

not posted here for a while and i changed my name from purple Goddess to Serenity

how is everyone ?


wildly insane 07-04-2009 11:48 PM

Hiya Serenity, we have easter eggs galore, all sorts of goodies, a wide variety of teas and an expansive denial tent so welcome back :)

[Fog] 08-04-2009 12:15 AM

Rainbow, thanks for Monkey. We've been having a little chat and he's good at hugs :-D I'm doing ok today... I'm at home from uni for a while and none of my family know about my "issues"... I have younger brothers so I'm trying so hard to try and be normal for them. It's exhausting but I want to protect them. So I've kind of got into a routine of trying hard during the day and then SIing for a release at night. Guess it's not healthy but it's getting me through.

How is everyone? I don't really know anyone's names or stories and I don't fancy trawling through 844 pages!! Lots of hugs all round though and I hope everyone has had a good, if not then bearable, day.

*Sees the denial tent and clambers in with Monkey*

Emo 08-04-2009 12:21 AM

oh i will have a mug of coffee and a bit of chocolate
* sits down in a comfy chair *

MammaMia 08-04-2009 01:08 AM

I had a really highly emotional day,it's been very tough and made me even lower. Funeral was far too emotional. I'll NEVER forget the look on Vicki's face, it'll torture me forever. Migraine has gone thank gosh for that. Am struggling :'(

*cuddles all and crawls into denial tent*

[Fog] 08-04-2009 01:26 AM

*Holds Monkey so his head his stroking your arm*

Sounds like a really difficult day. Funerals are so difficult and emotional. Anything you can do to relax and calm yourself?

I'm not good with physical contact but seeing as this is virtual you can have a big hug :)

MammaMia 08-04-2009 02:34 AM

Awwww, Gil's (Rainbow) monkey is coming to stay with me soon, lucky buggar :P

It was a really difficult day and emotional. I don't know how to calm down, too much is going on and getting to me.

Yay thanks for the hug *gives one in return*

[Fog] 08-04-2009 02:36 AM

What do you normally do to wind down? What about watching tv, arty stuff, listening to music?

To be honest I get these things suggested to me every day and I never listen but still :-)

If you want to rant I'm here to listen xxx

MammaMia 08-04-2009 02:42 AM

Well I normally poke around online, listen to music, sometimes watch tv or read a book (I have so many books to get through, although it's now going well...) and then try sleep. Doesn't always work or doesn't always happen like that :(

Bless you hun, I'm always offering people advice and then don't always take it myself when I really need to. Like I tell people they always need to look after number 1- themself and I don't do a good job of that with me :/

Thanks hun, I do apperciate it. It's just someone thought she was going to have something she didn't want and if she was right in what she was going to have, I would have died there and then. But it's okay, because that problem isn't going to happen (don't know if that makes any sense?) Then someone has fell out with me for pathetic reasons it would seem, and I tried to sort things out bu no reponse. Meh. Their loss yeah? I really really miss my ex boyfriend, I shouldn't have broken up with him but at the same time I still should have..GRRR!!! :/

[Fog] 08-04-2009 02:47 AM

Yeah I feel like such a hypocrite sometimes. I never take my own advice... so much easier when it's someone else!

Sorry to hear about everything that's going on for you, all sounds really difficult. Not really sure what you mean with the first thing, but glad that the problem isn't going to happen in any case. And the someone who has fallen out with you is getting sent some bad vibes right now. Of course it's their loss :) Do you think it will get better? And big hugs about your ex. It's so difficult sometimes when you're still not quite sure about the decision. How recently did you break up?

xx

MammaMia 08-04-2009 02:52 AM

So am I honey, but it's for their own good usually...

It is really difficult, because there's some stuff bothering that only a VERY small number know, because for once, it's not something I'm able to be open about. I bet they are getting sent bad vibes indeed. It's just werid how everything's fallen apart and I'm not sure exactly what I did wrong. But as we've said, their loss. Thanks, it is very difficult, and it was difficult enough when I was questionning the relationship. We broke up about a week & a half ago. Still feels like yesterday. He hurt me badly all of last week. I'm losing everyone slowly and I don't like it.

I think my Mum knows something is seriously up. Okay, she knows it is, because she saw a cut. It's sorta cute, she keeps telling me she loves me and giving me longer hugs than usual etc. I seriously need to tell her stuff. I'm going to miss her SO much when I move out in a few months time. Maybe I shouldn't go?? Decisions decisions decisions.

My head hurts again :(

Sorry for my major whining...

[Fog] 08-04-2009 03:06 AM

Lol don't worry, normally I'm the one whining on this site :) So whine all you like!

Sounds like a horrible situation for you. I had a similar thing this year, my best friend and housemate went all weird with me and now doesn't speak to me, it's been really terrible, and I have absolutely no idea whatsoever what it is that I've done wrong. It's not nice. Really sorry to hear about your ex. It's really hard when people go out of your life. Obviously I don't know any details but hopefully it was the right decision and you're just missing having a someone if you see what I mean.

Urgh yeah I'm in exactly the same situation. My mum knows me really well and I'm pretty sure she knows somethings wrong. She hasn't seen any of my scars but well mum's tend to pick things up I suppose. I really want to tell her and have some support but I'm scared. I don't wanna worry her, plus I'm not great at being articulate and I don't want to mess it up. Do you want to tell yours? That's really sweet how she's being! Shows she'd probably be really nice about it if you told her :) Are you moving out for uni or something? I have my year abroad starting in 3 months and I'm so scared about being away from my family.

xx

MammaMia 08-04-2009 03:20 AM

Thank you. I whine far too much. I'm glad I have my rant/venting thread. Just released some emotions in there, is helping really.

It is a horrible situation, because of other factors too and my ex boyfriend is a huge factor in this unfortnately. I'm sorry your best friend and housemate doesn't talk to you anymore or anything. I know how you feel about it being so terrible, espically when you haven't done anything wrong as far as you can see. It is hard, and what makes it worse, is that he was the FIRST boyfriend, who, compared to the other three, actually gave a proper **** about me and didn't want to hurt me or abuse me. I hope it's the right decision, and even if we did make another go of it, I think it couldn't happen until I get pass this needing to severly desctruct/die situation. I miss having a partner so much.

I'm sorry you're in the same situation. Mum do pick up things really well even when we don't realise. Apprantly she can often tell I've had a bad day even when I've said to her I've had an okay day. Maybe speak to her and ask for support. It's what there are there for. But I know how hard it is. Maybe write her a letter? She will worry, but that's her job and she obviously cares for you. I'm sure you won't mess it up honey. My mum knows I self harm. But I'm trying to convince her I'm 10 months free and these cuts don't mean I stop counting. But we've not really dicussed it. Oh well, maybe I should talk to her. But I really want to tell her about everything, because I know she'd be glad I told her. But at the same time, there would be so many things that would hurt her for a long time because I kept it in for so long. Also I'm scared she wouldn't believe me. I am moving out for uni halls indeed. I am in my first year already but had to stay at home, because I was nowhere near ready to cope with everything. But now I know how to do things more, I should be okay with moving in September, if they let me in of course!!!! I can imagine you're scared, but we can be scared and excited together??? Where are you gong?? xxx

[Fog] 08-04-2009 03:30 AM

Yeah I love my ranting thread, I read it back and sound like a total psycho but it really helps to just offload somewhere.

I'm so sorry to hear about your friend and your ex. It all sounds really painful for you. I hope things get better for you. When me and my ex broke up the hardest thing was getting used to not being half of a unit. I've been with my current bf for over 3 years and he's lovely, but I feel so bad for being such a f**k up... It's not fair on him really.

Good advice about the mum situation. I really do want to tell her, I'm just so worried about it. I think a letter is a really good idea because that way I don't have to panic about getting all my words jumbled. Think I might give her a letter but sit with her when she's there or something. Urgh it's just so hard, I don't want to ruin things. It's being going on for a long time and I should have told her ages ago.

Are you still cutting now then? It might help you to talk things through with your mum. Always good to have some support from someone close to you :) We really need to take our own advice hehe! Yeah I found it hard last year, I'm in 2nd year now but everything gets so overwhelming for me sometimes. It's nice having the safety of my parents house but then I like the independence of my uni house... Yep scared and excited together sounds good hehe!! I'm going to Frankfurt at the end of June, luckily my boyfriend's coming too so that's a big relief, but I've got a job there and I'm scared it's going to be too much for me. And then in February I'm going to Spain :D All sounds great in theory...!! xx

Long*Past 08-04-2009 03:55 AM

eh... I'm "okay" today even though I totally didn't cry in the car on the way home tonight, because my Mom is totally not disappointed in me, yet again, and the girl I'm falling in love with totally isn't oblivious and completely has the same feelings for me....

And I'm definitely not hanging in the denial tent.... ^_^

MammaMia 08-04-2009 03:57 AM

I love mine too. It's full of letters, songs, rants etc. I must sound mad at times. But it helps, really really helps.

It is very painful right now. I just wish I knew what I did so wrong? I'm sure things will eventually get better maybe. If they ever will? I know how you feel. When me and my first boyfriend (who ironically abused me the worse, but I'd repressed it by then..) split, it was really horrible and werid to be so aone even though we'd split loads before. We'd been together nearly two years, but I know where you're coming from.

I thought it was good advice, even if I do say so myself. I know you're so worried about it, as am I, that's what's holding me back. But I should just get it all out already and then it's done. They do say, the longer you leave it, the harder it is (usually used in the context of apologising though). Indeed you won't have that panic, though it'll be scary watching her read it. But you'll be glad at the end you did. I know it's so hard hun, but when you do do it, be gentle on yourself :) You won't ruin things I'm sure.

Well I'm not cutting like I was. So the cutting at the moment are just slips really. So that's why I'm still counting. Don't deserve to really. I need to figure it out for myself I suposse. I'm sure it may help to talk things through or something with my mum. It sure is always good to have some support from someone clsoe to me. Although it's hard, we really do need to take our own advice!!! Wow, I've found it seriously hard this year, hence the major failing :( Everything gets so overwhelming for me too sometimes. I think everyone goes through that, but with different varying levels of problems and stuff. What do you reckon? Maybe I'm talking crap since it's almost 4am!!! I bet it's good to have the safety of parents home (though it's only my mum there in my case) but also having your own independance. Yay, I think we could be a great support to each other. Awww I'm glad your boyfriend is coming with you, it'll help and oyu get to share the expirences together, nothing can beat that!!!! Good luck with it all, I'm sure you'll have an amazing exprience with some good days & some bad days (everyone has those, that's for sure!!!)...


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