*hugs Helen* Im always here if you need to talk ok!!!
*hugs Fallenshadows* I'm sorry to hear you've slipped but here is a little piece of advice stolen from SIXX:A.M;s song "Accidents Can Happen"

*Clings back* I managed to resist in the end. Housemate's gonna give the mental health team a kick up the ass tomorrow, to see how things are going, and seeing the doc on Friday. So yeah. Woo.

And thanks <3. It's just several things all together. I keep getting into the mindset that everyone's going to just go 'O BAI *paf*'

*leaves Freshly made hot chocolate with marshmallows and whipped cream For everyone*

Its the best i can do at the moment!! *hugs to all*

Thanks you two, ugh, I just want to be dead already but I cant put my plans into place yet..

*hugs lots*

*sends cuddles around*

>__< Urges are back

*Rocks back and forth*

*cuddles Dayna*

*paces*
Why am I talking to him?
Why do I feel happy talking to him right now?
I don't want to feel so bad later....
*sits in chair and bites nails*
I refuse to let myself hurt myself...

*hugs Silently crying*

*hugs Helen* - What plans darlin??

*hugs to all*

My bank have now locked down my account!!! ARRRRG why wont things just go right for once!

Sorry that I'm not replying to people, having a really **** day. *Gives out hugs* - best I can do right now.

I feel so terrible. Couldn't sleep last night because the voices were so bad, had to take a PRN this morning and then when dad went out I immedeatly started looking for the place where he hides the meds.
I just want to sleep and sleep and sleep.
I'm having really bad thoughts. About hurting myself, hurting people around me. The Man wants me to slit throats. People in the street, people I know, even people I love. Now I don't think I'd ever hurt the people I love, but I've hurt people I don't know before in the past so there's no telling if I'm just going to loose it and do something stupid.

Argghhhh. Kill me.

*gives out hugs*

I'm off the Clozapine, on the Amisulpride and the Voices are giving me HELL. The Men in Suits in and the Mindreaders are following me and editing my thoughts. They are reading my Mind and trying to Kill me.

On top of that, I appear to have lost the ability to type properly.

To go on a massive destructive bender that should hopefully kill me...and you really aren't having much luck are you?

*hugs tight* Sorry its not more :(

Again, cuddles, sorry its not more :(

*hugs Helen* Please dont do anything like that hunni - If you really need to talk Im here okay!!!

I never have any luck! im just so used to it all now

but on a good note i will be 1 year and 5 Months Clear Of SI Tomorrow!!!!


*hugs to everyone else*

Wooooohooooo

You Rock

I feel alone in my head and thoughts. I want to tell him but how can I. To worry him again. I bet he is sick and tired of me being low and sucidial.

Can I stay here forever and make time stand still......

one of my best friends is setting me up for a fall it hurts so bad i just want to make the pain stop i dont know what to do ne more i wonder if its me thinking stuff thats not real but it feels real, i need to make it stop! i want to go and find out but im to scared cos if im right then my life will be over but i cant cope i want it all to stop please!

Jaddddddde *clings*

You're welcome to never leave the psych ward ;)

*hugs Helen* sorry to hear you aren't doing too well, I know what it's like to want to go on a destructive bender, but I hope you don't.
*hugs Englishgirl23* I hope it's not as bad as you think
*hugs Jade* stay forever, but you can win this
*hugs Nikki* good for you, I think the world should give us all a break, that sucks
*hugs SteelMaiden* I hope you feel better soon
*hugs Arwen* I hope you get to sleep, and please stay safe
*hugs Dayna**squidges* hope you resist the urges
*hugs silently crying* stay strong, you can do it
*hugs MaryAnne**hugs Michaella**hugs AuburnShadow**hugs FallenShadow**hugs Kat**hugs Kahlia**hugs Mouse**hugs Snuffles**hugs Secrets**hugs Shell* I really do hope I haven't forgotten anyone but if I have I apologise sincerely and offer an even bigger hug.

I have a sore throat, I want to cry and I want to hurt :(

Thanks Wildlyinsane and MammaMia.

I am shivering even though I'm wearing a sweatshirt. These withdrawal symptoms are driving me crazy. My extremities have turned to ice.

The Mindreaders and Voices want me to Kill my Mum. The bad thing is is that I've tried before. Twice my Mum had to call the police to get me handcuffed =[.

i want someone to lock me away or kill me. either will do. i can't do this anymore.

I'm alone in the house, and the spies are outside. I'm so scared.
I'm thinking about going out there and stabbing them all, but I can't tell who's innocent and who's a spy. And I'm also scared that they'll catch me if I go outside.
****.