there is no one i can talk to about it my cpn will just say i need to disregard the thoughts but its more than just thoughts now it actions things i need to do

*Hugs Ryuu* You DON'T have to make these plans , you are stronger than this , you CAN make it through this :)

I'm coping , I get to see my Friend tomorrow so am PSYCHED about that , I haven't seen her in like 7 or 8 weeks I finally get to give her her birthday presants from the 10th September:)

I'm worried about Lia .........

I'm so out of it today - new medication. I feel strange

*hugs heather* Sorry I missed you on facebook last night, i was at work... Hope you are okay. Message me if you need to hun.

*hugs mark* i'm glad that you are coping and going to see your friend tomorrow! thats exciting!

*hugs RYUU* I agree with mark, you can do this. You are such a strong person. Don't listen to them, they are not right.

*hugs sarah* sorry that your new meds are making your feel out of it. Side effects should wear off over time though. if they don't get too bad, try to stick with them for a little bit.

*hugs lia* i spyed you on this thread a little bit ago... I hope you are okay hun. You didn't seem okay when you last posted. We are here for you.

*wonders where everyone else is* April? Helen (i know you are at your friends.)? Oliver? Taz? Nicole? Felicia? Anybody?
I miss you all.

*hugs everyone*

I got back today from my trip with the Prince's Trust. It was really good. I got to do things like abseiling and rafting. I didn't want to come home to the same old depressing ****.

*hugs lindsay* im glad that you had a good time! Try not to think about it as coming home to the same old depressing ****. Try to take some of that energy you have from the trip and channel it into life at home. Do little things are are nice for yourself.

i agree with laura :)

how're you dear?

*Hugs Lindsay* It's good you had a great time with the princes trust , like Laura said, try and focus your positive energy into here and now :)

*Hugs Laura* How are you ? I'm releived you spotted Lia , thankyou for letting us know , was worried .

*Hugs Heather*

*Hugs Sarah* what new meds are you on? I hope the side effects wear off for you soon .

*hugs Mark* Citalopram, just feel really funny. :(

*hugs Heather*

*hugs Laura*

*hugs Lindsay*

*hugs RYUU*

*hugs Lia*

Sorry my individuals suck, I'm not with it at all :p

I'm alive. Just so you know.

*Hugs Sarah*

*Hugs Lia*you concerned me , are you okay? what happened to your pills? throw them away please :S

Well they aren't inside me. But I'm sorry Mark, I don't know if they can. I like the security they bring, knowing I can end it any time I like...I'm scared though. I feel better than I did last night, but one of my best friends OD'd last night, and I could have done something. I'm so worried about her.

*Hugs everyone*

Lia , I totally understand having the feeling of security your pills , I have the same thing with my blades . Please take good care of yourself :) I'm sorry to hear about your friend , how is she ?

oh and by the by I'm at my parents , using my parents laptop so maybe more sporadic in here but will try to keep up :)

Tell you what though Mark, since they're all painkillers I'll offer then out every time someone so much as mentions a pain and they'll soon be gone ;)

She's alright thanks. I'm worried about her, but she's out of hospital and on andi ds.

*Hugs Lia* That sounds like a good idea Lia .

^^^^Whats an andi ds?^^^^

>.< sooo 10 minutes before class one of the people came into the computer lab and asked me if i was studying- i asked why cuz thought there was no reason... exam today >.> thank **** it was intro to psych so i bs'ed my way through it, but def didnt get an a 'less she curves it again =\

Oooh Heather . I'm sorry you forgot that test but at least you managed to bluff your way through it :)

Ah I hate those 'surprise' tests Heather. I hope you did OK :)

Anti depressants. And they offered her counselling, but she doesn't want it. She's a bit like me, useless at talking about her feelings.