Steph, why don't you call her and tell her you don't know what to say, but just needed someone there? I do that to people. As April knows when I started off yesterday with 'I'm not used to this. Erm...' So yeah, just tell her what you're feeling. At least that will be 45 where you're not alone. And you have us for the rest of the night.

*Glomps April back* I'm still with you in that hole of yours. Sorry if I dall asleep though, I am so tired...I don't even know why, I slept ok last night, all I seem to want to do now a days is sleep, but of course at night I can't. Sod's law really isn't it?

I've just thought. Am I overly cheerful at times? Cos I know that can be annoying. I don't always feel cheerful, I'm just odd I guess. Perhaps my mask works too well, maybe it'll get stuck to my face like in that Goosebumps book and I'll be forced to smile forever more, wondering the land of the cheerful, doomed to spend my days with the likes of happy people who always insist on looking on the bright side to a point where you want to punch them! Happy land seems like a nice place to be though. Sorry, off on one again. I have an over active imagination, so tend to come up with some sort of weird story for everything. Nothing can ever just be with me.


xx

My name's Lia by the way, and Scarletdreamer is April :)

P.S thanks for the toffee crisp, I'll dunk it in my tea :D

How is it the last 2 desktop computers I've had I've killed the Harddrive? The first was second hand (my husband had had it for ages before putting it in a comp he built me) and the second we bought new last October... And both of them just one day up and keel over! seriously... WTF?
On the upside my brother in law had just given us a tower he couldn't keep (we got him a laptop for his deployment and he sent us his desktop) so we just used his... But I had hardly put anything on my last harddrive... this one I don't want to put anything on it since I've a feeling I'll lose it all anyway so why bother?
And sorry for the itsy bitsy reply last night... I was having trouble getting the comp to read my vid card right so I was stuck at that moment viewing everything in the lowest res possible... :(
*huggles everyone*
How is everybody today?

*hugs everybody*

I really have nothing to say, I just wanted to come in and offer love

Love is always welcome. How are you?

Hugs everybody, urgh today was so damn stressful so glad it almost over. Things are falling apart again not sure I care this time would be better to just let it.

*cuddles all*

Lia & April, since you both asked how I was, I'm really struggling. Bit suicidal. I'll be fine. How are you both *squishes*

Lindsay, I'm hanging in... hoping the next week or so goes by kinda fast so I can actually attempt to take care of myself again. How are you?

shadowedsoul, *hugs* I don't really know what to say, but if you need to vent or whatever you can PM me.

MammaMia, *hugs* I hope the suicidal feeling passes soon.

*hugs* Thank you, I'll be okay :)

*Hugs Lindsay*

*Hugs Helen*

*Hugs Jill*

*hugs helen* Hope you are alright hun.

*hugs mark, lindsay, jill, april, felicia, lia, kahlia, crimson and everyone else*

*waves to Wishes (steph?)* i don't think i've introduced myself. I'm laura. *hands over some no-calorie cookies*

I am utterly exhausted. Again. No, still, I should say. ARGH. :(

Landlord is supposed to be coming by alllll of the apartments and mobile homes he owns to show to a prospective buyer... for some reason I am nervous, although hopefully we will be moving out of here in a few months. I hate showing myself to people when I feel like I'm all worn down and not dressed for doing much in public (frayed shorts and a cami...). Oh well.

Lia, hon, you don't come across as being super happy or anything. Just the right amount of positivity for in here, I think. Also, I'm glad I could help last night (if I did...). *gentle hugs*

How is everyone doing? *feels all alone in the great echoing ward*

Have no idea what time the landlord will be here... or rather, the sales agent... said they'd start around 5pm but I don't know where they'd start, with the trailer park or the apartment building. Ugh. This is just a great huge bother!!!

*hides in a hole*

Sorry for lack of replies. I'm trying to agony aunt someone else right now whilst falling apart myself and being terrifed. Of both what I just watched and why it freaked me out so much. It shouldn't have done, it's just a TV show, it shouldn't have left me feeling like this. It scares me that it scares me if that makes any sense at all.

*Hugs to all who want them.*

Edit. I need to do something calming, something nice becasue I'm freaking quite badly here and have a urge to cut so it will all go away.

Another edit. I'll put Mamma Mia on, that's pretty cheery. Oh no, that upsets me. FML.

Hmmm... quiet in here today. I spent the first half of the day at the front desk and only missed a page.

I spy crimson and lia! *cuddles*

it is kind of quiet in here today. hope everyone is alright.

hmmm lia, have you watched the bounty hunter? it's a pretty funny movie. pretty new though...

*Hugs April* I hope your landlord comes by soon

*Hugs Lia* I hope your urges pass and you are ok :)

*Hugs Crimson*

I'm up late watching a horror movie , CREEPY!!

Sorry for my scant replys :S

hey laura yeah i'm steph, sometimes it shows up and sometimes it doesnt :/.
*big huggles to everyone*
i will be on chat soon if anybody wants to talk, most probs in 3 or 4.
my left arm cant move, have had the cervical cancer vaccination today, and god, is it sore!!!
hope everyone is ok
xx

April: You brought the biggest smile to my face in on of your posts back there. Pachelbels Canon (sorry about the spelling I'm in a rush as I have to leave to catch a bus soon) is one of my favourite songs of all time. I've played it - on pianoforte I believe - and won with it in the Eisteddfodeau before. It's just so darned beautiful. I'm so envious ... but in a good way. *great big hugs*

Crimson: I wish I was there so I could offer you some help with your IT troubles. That harddrive issue sounds complex. - Sorry, I should explain. My housemate and I do a lot of work with IT. We're both studying it extensively and build a lot of computer systems, both on demand (for students and staff at a local university and TAFE) and for businesses. I'm just sorry I couldn't be there to see if there was something we could help. The situation doesn't sound good. :-( *offers big hugs)

Hels: *cuddles you tightly* Sweetheart, I'm so sorry to hear that you have been struggling with those suicidal urges again. Is there anything I can do to help? Feel free to PM me if you wish. I always try to keep up with what is happening with you, even if I am not always able to respond immediately. *gently covers you in warm hugs*

Steph, Felicia, & any other [relatiely] newbies that I have missed entering the ward: I wish to extend to you my welcome, and my introduction. My name is Kahlia - and feel free to use (and misuse) it however you like. I'm sorry for the belated responses to you. *bad me* But I have not been very well mentally for awhile. I hope you find in our lovely Virtual Psych Ward what you need - and what some of us, at least, cannot find in a real psych ward. . . people who understand, can trust and a place where we can open up.

I have to run as I have to catch a bus to go to the hospital for a 6 hour lecture on "What is Pain". *yawn* Already had 2mg of Xanax and starting to freak out again. But, it has to be done.

Wishing you all well, and once more unto the breach as they say.

*leaves cuddles and safe love and care packages on the table for all*

Hmm need to vent sorry not towards anyone here.

I have got not idea what's going on with you, how the hell did it get so messed up. You used to be so bright so full of life, now your Idk I'm worried but at the same time angry at you. Just want you back the same person you used to be , but I know I can't have you back and it kills me as I miss you.So come on B show us u can pull this back around because we all know were this is heading, so for your own sake please pull the back. =(