it does *squish* poke me if wanna chat <3
x

*cuddles april, kahlia, and heather tight*

I keep trying to type something out but then changing my mind, I suck at talking. Can i have some extra hugs please? Sorry.

*hugs as much as you want* poke me on fb hun? [im getting offline but get messages on mobile] here if you wanna chat <3

*hugs to peoples*

I told my best friend that I SI. It took me three weeks to do. Needless to say, he wasn't impressed. Ah well, it's done now at least. One more thing out of the way.

I like your poem Lia , but yeah sad...

My Mum has had her op , will be visiting in shifts later .

My sister called me lazy , well " Lazy Arse" so hmm I could have done without that , did,nt want to walk to the paper shop , tired , neck aches

*hugs Mark*

Argh it's times like this I hate being a girl, I'm not really
girly and I keep argueing with my mum over stuff to
wear. I'm trying to meet my mum in the middle, but
she Is pushing me to far. Also feel very freaked out
about going to this hen night, as I said I'm not girly
hate this sort of thing I always stand out like a sore thumb.
Just want to hide.

*hides in a hole and cries*

goes 2 the hole where Scarletdreamer is and offers a naked penguin

naked penguins all round i feel i should explain what a naked penguin is... it is a Bourbon people !!!

Lol, was wondering for a moment.

What's the matter April? Do you feel like sharing?

*Hugs carefully*

xx

*Hugs Beautiful Mistake*

*Hugs I'm just me*

*Crawls in after April and hugs*

*sits next to hole and sends hugs down* :)
<3

*Hugs all in Crawls in after April and hugs*,
My flat tomorow.
Calm.
Feel bad for feeling axious/low when my Mum has severly hurt her foot/ankle and the rest of the family are running around like flys trying to cope :S

*hugs heather* thanks hun. How r u today?

*crawls in the hole with everyone else and hugs april*

*hugs jess* Its good that you told someone though. I'm sorry he wasn't helpful.

*hugs mark* You aren't lazy, that wasnt very nice of your sister to say. Is your mom okay after the op?

*hugs beautiful mistake* lol a naked penguin...

*hugs lia, lindsay, and jill*

hehe, a naked penguin... but aren't penguins always naked? (i don't think i've ever seen any wearing clothes minus the waiter ones in mary poppins who were in tuxedos :P) anyway... interesting. hehe.

thanks for the hugs and care, everyone. things are really rough right now. i got triggered at church today because the pastor was talking about self injury in his sermon and then there were skinny small girls everywhere and i just felt so huge and horrid... :( so i cut when i go home, almost as soon as i got home. not too bad but still. then i texted my np about it and she told me to go to the hospital and to promise her not to cut again today (because i said i wanted to keep cutting). :'(

needless to say, i can't promise that but i can try. and i'm going to... it's just that i really, really want to cut more, same place where i cut before... i don't know... i know i'm a loser for letting a sermon upset me but it's just... i can't cope right now. and i don't even know what i'm having trouble coping with!!!! :(

sorry for the rant... i'll try & do individual responses later. :(

*keeps hiding in her hole*

thank you Doikers and Fallinstar0317

i needed them hugs
always up for more
i'll share a packet of naked penguins with you ;-)

x

*peeks out of the hole and offers hugs to everyone*

beautiful_mistake, you and i posted at the same time. :) how are you?

im sorry it has been a rough day for you april
and hey you rant away baby
pm me anytime
im always here

love&hugs

b m

;-)

x

hey im a bit :sad:

one of my posts got closed
and errm...

im on a break from work til october because of mental health proplems and i cant get any money


And last week i got a letter from my doctor to say ive got to go for a cervical screening test so i go in on friday and make the appointment.
After i come back home im reading the leaftlet they gave me and it says

Quote:
if you have any unusual symptoms, such as bleeding after sex or between periods, you should see your doctor.

Well err yes that happens so i have to ring up and make another appointment tomorrow
thing is i dont want to
but mum and boyfriend are nagging me to
i just want to go for the test
it there is anything unusual it will be picked up on the cervical screening test

i dunno

please highlight if you really want to read this post


:Blush:

*Hugs to all who want them.*

April, you're not stupid to let that get to you. Talking about self harm can be so triggering and being around others who you view as so much more beautiful than you can too. I hope you don't cut again, but it's nothing to be ashamed of if you do. Everyone slips, no one's perfect.

Hey beautiful mistake. What's the matter? Anything you want to talk about?

Fathers' day hasn't been as bad as I thought. I had a fun day actually, basically acted like a five year old with my sister and two best friends. 'twas fun and a mahusive laugh.

xx