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MammaMia 18-06-2010 06:12 PM

I did wonder what had happened :P *cuddles tight*

PoisonedApple 18-06-2010 06:32 PM

Khalia~ that's excellent news! *tosses confetti*
Helen~ have a good time on your trip.
*cuddles April* sorry you got triggered hun.
*hugs everyone*

shadowedsoul 18-06-2010 07:13 PM

Hmm I'm not doing well today. iam a little upset and
pissed off. I fail to understand how iam suppost to
win this one. If I don't say anything you worry anyway
if I do you worry, if I walk away you will just worry.
It's a no win situation. rocks back and forth mubbling
this sucks. =[

MammaMia 18-06-2010 07:19 PM

Right, I'm off you lovely people, will see you next Saturday!!! :)

*leaves lots of hugs & treats to last you*

Don't miss me too much will you LOL

SoMuchMore 18-06-2010 07:30 PM

Helen! *huggles* I'll miss you while you're gone! have a good time!

(I still spy you.. trying to get my bye in before u leave lol)

WIll respond to everyone else in a minute

PoisonedApple 18-06-2010 07:33 PM

*waves to helen* bye! have fun!

SoMuchMore 18-06-2010 07:50 PM

*hugs kat and lindsay* sorry that you two are not feeling so well..

*hugs kahlia* I'm so glad that the reviewer sided with you! At least now something will be said to someone that they will have to listen too. *joins crimson in confetti tossing*

*hugs lia? (i'mjustme)* I dont think i've met you before... If i have i'm sorry for being dense, but I'm laura. Sorry that you are missing school and that you're family is annoying you. I understand that to a degree, i mean, obviously i don't know what goes on in your family, but when I'm at home I sometimes feel like i better get out of there quick heh.

*hugs april* Sorry that you are tired and was triggered. Try not to do anything too bad.

*hugs crimson* how r u today?

*hugs jill and mark*

Its thunder storming again. I love it. Especially b/c i dont have to go anywhere so i can sit and watch. Sent my friend a message after he sent me 2 or 3 asking how I am and i skillfully avoiding answering every one with the information he actually wanted to know. But then I got one with direct questions that I could not avoid. So i guess now he is going to know about how different things are getting. With my ex gone at field training for the air force, things really are different for me... It's bad but I don't feel the need to be friends with all of his friends while he is away. In fact, it almost feels wrong when I hang out with them now. But that is kinda bad b/c that is my only social group here at uni really. I love my work people, but I just met them so we don't really hang outside of work. Anyway, this is getting long I know. And I have no idea why I am typing it all out except for the fact that I think I've needed to admit to someone that things feel so different... I guess this just reaffirms my "if i make it that far, i need to go to graduate school far far away" theory.

CrazyHayley 18-06-2010 07:53 PM

Pops in and sees Helen leave in a whirlwind - hope you have a good time Hels whatever you're up to!

Hello all my other fellow wardies! Reggie and I send our love and snuggles and huggles! He's busy running round like a loon, lol, and I'm trying to rest as I'm going to see Green Day at wembley stadium tomorrow.....but they buggered up the tickets, they've given me general admission standing rather than the ambulant seating ones I ordered!! But I phoned them and its too late to change it. So I'm not missing it....think my crutches may need to come back out for me to survive the crowd, eek!

I'm in limbo on whether I'll be moving soon or not. I'll keep you all posted. I just want to know so that I can then get the stress over and done with and bunny proof my new place. My living room currently has cardboard boxes blocking up things so that reggie can't destruct them, but he's gonna make his way through the boxes!!

Sorry for all the self absorbed waffle, but far too much has happened for me to comment individually, so I hope that my post has helped to keep you distracted for the couple of minutes that it may take to read it.

SoMuchMore 18-06-2010 08:00 PM

*hugs hayley* It's good to hear from you! Reading your posts is definitely a good distraction :-) I'm sorry that they messed up your tickets but I bet you'll have a lot of fun at the concert anyway, Green Day usually puts on a good show! Hope that you figure out the moving stuff soon too!

one_step_closer 18-06-2010 08:08 PM

I need hugs, i'm missing my Dad

PoisonedApple 18-06-2010 08:14 PM

*huggles Lindsay and sits with her as long as she needs*

one_step_closer 18-06-2010 08:17 PM

Thank you.

How are you?

PoisonedApple 18-06-2010 08:27 PM

eh i'm on the fence as for how i am today.better than yesterday so far though.

CrazyHayley 18-06-2010 08:35 PM

*extra huggles for Laura, Lindsay and Crimson* just cos they're about in the ward atm - I don't want to seem as if I'm picking and choosing!!

*goes around ward, looking in all the holes and hiding places to give appropraite tlc to her other wardies*

hmmm, to nap then do dinner, or do dinner then nap?!!....

PoisonedApple 18-06-2010 08:37 PM

i vote nap then dinner :)
*hugs back*

CrazyHayley 18-06-2010 08:51 PM

Reggie has just been running circles round me - literatly! it means he likes me, I'm chuffed! Gonna have a fag, nap then dinner methinks. May pop back in later depending on my energy levels.
hmmm, strange thoughts, I miss you guys, so I wonder if i'd be better off still struggling....BUT then I KNOW thats not a sensible thought, its just weird how my priorities have changed and I've less time for the ward now I'm doing better....but I always think about you guys....

*toddles off for a fag before she thinks too much and gets in a pickle*

Scarletdreamer 18-06-2010 08:56 PM

i spy hayley!! *glomps gently* heehee... :) have missed you and your posts, glad to hear that things are going well!! hope that you do okay at the green day concern, enjoy your nap, have fun with reggie, and don't forget to come back and post all about it all. :P

Scarletdreamer 18-06-2010 09:54 PM

erm so yes... responses...

crimson *cuddles* how you doing today? have you "got off the fence" yet? glad that today's better than yesterday though... that's good.

hels, do enjoy your trip!! i know you're probably long gone by now but just wanted to wish it to you again anyway. :) *cuddles*

jill, sorry you're not doing too well, although your post confused me a bit as to whom you were addressing. *cuddles*

laura, yey for thunderstorms... they are so impressive!! (as long as they don't have tornadoes along with 'em... heh) i hope you feel better over the course of the next few days - being low really, really sucks. (as you know - i don't have to tell you that!!) i'm sorry that things feel really, really different - but is that a good or a bad thing? *cuddles* maybe a little "change-up" in routine is a good thing... i don't know, though. how has si been lately?

lindsay *sits next to as well, after setting a box of cuddles on the table for her and everyone else that i didn't mention in my responses - not leaving you out on purpose, promise!!*

i'm so... triggered right now. still. i even took a nap for almost 2 hours and i am still triggered... just goes to prove that sleep is not always an antidote for triggered'ness. grrrrr... i feel so fat and ugly... :'( and those feelings are not likely to go away anytime soon. :(

i see my new therapist for the second time on wednesday. i'm nervous. i'm going to have to take charge of the appt and make sure that she knows i don't want to do sessions every other week, etc. - exactly what i know that i need for recovery to happen. but... oh, i don't know. i still have to call the insurance company to see what my copay's gonna be... probably $15/appt but i'm not sure. that's what it was for my last therapist, and she was located in the same place. so yeah. i hate making phone calls though... especially to insurance companies!!!!

anyway. sorry for rambling and ranting... :(

*hides in a hole, mumbling "selfish selfish selfish"...*

Scarletdreamer 18-06-2010 10:07 PM

oh, and updated r/v...

feel so stupid. :'(

SoMuchMore 18-06-2010 10:34 PM

*hugs lindsay tight*

*hugs crimson* glad to hear that today is better than yesterday so far.

*hugs hayley* We miss you in here too, but I know that i like hearing that you are doing well. So feel free to post whenever you want/have time.

*hugs april* I hate phone calls too.. Its good that you are trying to see the therapist more than once every other week though. Sorry to hear that you are triggered and that sleep did not help. It doesnt always help me either, or sometimes it helps a bit but not enough to stop anything.
EDIT:
Oh.. and I read your thread in the ED forum. April, hun, you are important and deserve support. No matter how long your problems have lasted it does not make you any less deserving. (i wouldve responded in there but i dont use the ED forum so.. yea)

As for what you asked about me. I don't know if different is good or bad, both kind of i guess. Some aspects of life are easier like this, but I also feel guilty about other things, like I am abandoning or giving up on something that I am not supposed too. SI stuff is there. I'm following through on my "SI plan" that I made when I was at home a few weeks ago. It hides it well. I guess its bad b/c i'm hardly trying anymore. I mean i say that I am fighting the urges and i make it through a night maybe, but the next day i'll give in. I used to be cutting only about 1 or 2 times a month, not several times a week. So much has been happening lately though.. and if a lot is happening in the outside world, then 300x more things are going on in my head.


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