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Scarletdreamer 26-05-2010 03:28 PM

*cuddles Oliver* Hope you feel better soon, being ill is no fun. I'm sick right now too with a vicious cold, it really sucks. :(

I'm doing okay. I just called my internship place for the 28762342 time and FINALLY got someone on the other end... lol... so I am staying home today and doing work... which is good... and resting. This is the 3rd day in a row that I'm staying home from work, so I feel bad about that, but oh well... :-S

Mark, did my email help?

I spy a Taz!! *tackle hugs* (germ-free hugs always!!) How are you, love?

taz35 26-05-2010 03:34 PM

Missed another 5 pages, going to attempt individual replies but if I miss anyone I'm extremely sorry =/

*hugs Mark* sorry to hear your SW didn't show up :( Is this the same one who kept calling on the day of and changing your meeting? (You were talking about it many pages ago... or a few pages ago... I don't know, my mind is mush. Maybe it's somebody completely different ><) OH And to answer one of your other questions - I love having my r/v thread. I can post about whatever's on my mind, not have to worry about dealing with any rude replies (not that any would get through without the mods seeing them at least), and people can either choose to read it, or not. And with the replies being blocked, it's not like I can see my rambling being ignored. Does that make sense? I don't know ><

*hugs April* Ahhh **** I forget what I was going to post in response to you :( I may check back and edit this if it comes to me. But you're never pathetic, or useless, or any other bad comments you might tell yourself :) You are incredible. Don't forget it. Oh, and in response to your latest post... nothing wrong with staying home, as long as you're getting work done :D

*hugs Kat and throws more confetti* That's awesome :D Hell, I can't even seem to make it a week, let alone a month.

*hugs Hels* :( *super squishy tackle-style hug* I'm sorry something is bothering you that much hun, but I hope you haven't given in to the urges yet. You're so much stronger than that!

*hugs Julie* Did you end up making it to your fitness classes? If you were that ill, probably a wise decision to stay home and try to feel better faster =/

*hugs Heather*

*hugs JK*

*hugs Oliver* Ick, hayfever sucks :(

*hugs Hayley*

*hugs Crimson*

Okay... I think I got everyone. =/ If not... well, give me crap.

*gets a broom to clean up all the left over confetti mess*

My sister noticed my arms again... she told me she knows it's not from the dog. But she's only 13 (turning 14 next month) and I don't know how much I should even bother telling her... Other than that, my mind is just a big jumbled mess. Short version is that I'm STILL paranoid that everyone who knows about my current situation with the meds/counseling/etc. thinks I'm faking it all, because I've been so good at covering it up and being "normal". I'm just hiding out in my room right now, don't even want to leave.

Doikers 26-05-2010 03:35 PM

I think your e-mail helped , I need to look at it again and quickly look at my armour in game to compare , but thankyou for going out of your way to help me, I really really appreciate it :)

*Hugs Oliver back*

Doikers 26-05-2010 03:41 PM

Ohh Taz , I can totally identify with not wanting to leaving the room *Hugs*
No it's a different worker who didn't come today hmmm, And thankyou for your take on the R/V thread business ! thanks to everyone who replied about that , very helpful , I need to mull it over now. *Mulls*

taz35 26-05-2010 03:53 PM

*hugs Mark* Oh okay. I kinda figured I may have gotten confused with it, but I knew you had mentioned about somebody canceling on you. Sounds like crap to deal with honestly :(

My dad is upstairs. I should go up now, while he's busy on the phone. I don't want to get into a long conversation with him. I just want everyone IRL to leave me alone...

CrazyHayley 26-05-2010 05:30 PM

Hey peeps, well In watched "Hairsrpray" on dvd this morning and then spent another few hours asleep. I'm trying to figure out at the moment what to do to take my mind off of the crappy feelings from my M.E sysmptoms but not to make any others worse. I want to play WoW but not sure my brain or eyes are up to being on the laptop for more than just a short period of time. I'd probable get carried away and go on there til I'm cross eyed with a banging headache...

Oh and I'm 29 tomorrow. I have plans, kind of, but right now I feel like cancelling them, I think thats due to feeling crappy with my M.E though, I hope the sanity injection is working....

MammaMia 26-05-2010 05:56 PM

*hugs everyone lots in the ward*

I'm so over this >_> Urges are getting fricking intense again. Maybe I should get my boyfriend to come over :'( He knows about yesterday and told me I should phoned him, he would dropped everything including work to come over. ****ing bollocks. Although my sister is popping in soon, so that'll make me wait. But then I have to go out a couple hours later on. My Dad would know something was seriously wrong I'm sure.

Why am I so anxious? Well I think it's related to worrying about my best friend. She's in a bad place. I kinda blame myself partially for. However, I think I know what may have caused it aswell.

LOL, I had to go upto the hospital earlier as desperately needed some hearing aid batteries, couldn't help but think how I nearly ended up in there yesterday as it is. I hate going there, brings many bad memories :/ Bollocks I'm welling up with ****ing tears. My other best hasn't replied to my texts either. Getting so ****ing pissed off about people ignoring my texts, I think it's because I'm so needy at the moment? My mind is so destructive at the moment, wow =]

Bollocks. Bollocks. BOLLOCKS!!!!!!!!!!

*hides and cries*

PoisonedApple 26-05-2010 05:57 PM


i dont think ur a bitch angelic_monster
if there is away u like things put away i think it's ok but i can see both sides of it
It probably wouldn't bother me so much if it was just something got misplaced... I'd probably just move it. It's when they take the whole stack of plates and all the cups out of the cabinet so they can swap their placement for example that makes me irate. I personally don't think this makes me a bitch but that's the way everyone else percieves it is I'm just being an unreasonable bitch. But to quote Dr. Suess... "Those that mind don't matter and those that matter don't mind."

*huggles everyone in the ward and leaves extra cuddle packs on the table*

PoisonedApple 26-05-2010 07:01 PM

Well now.... today's interesting already... there's a guy that was the shooter in a domestic violence shooting that ran from the airport where it happened to 2-3 blocks from my office... That certainly explains all the squad cars in such a big hurry this morning on my way to work. He is hiding in a restaurant on the penthouse level of an office building. Cops have the whole area within 5 block blocked off to cars (so we have several late attorneys and support staff). Why run from the airport to downtown on a top floor of a building? I so don't get that... But then I dunno why anyone'd shoot someone in front of god and everyone at the airport either... *shakes head* but they found him and that's good and our office won't be boring today... I'm sure the police reports for this will be here in the afternoon police drop off or tomorrow morning.

PoisonedApple 26-05-2010 07:03 PM

On another note... Genisis got almost all of her work done last night so I don't have to push so hard for the rest... I have to turn it in to her school by the 3rd of June. 8 days left.

SoMuchMore 26-05-2010 07:09 PM

Oh no! it sounds like almost everyone is sick! *hands out soup to all my ill wardmates*

*hugs april* I'm glad that you finally got thru to your internship place. And i would assume that they wouldnt want you to be around work if you are sick. So don't feel too bad. I hope that you have a relaxing day.

*hugs mark* Sorry to hear that your housing SW didn't show up. That whole situation sounds so frustrating and quite ridiculous.

*hugs hayley* i'm sorry that your ME is so bad today. I hope that you feel better for your birthday tomorrow!

*cuddles helen* Keep trying to fight those urges, i'm right there with you on them getting stronger and harder to fight. I think it may be a good idea to try not to be alone today.

*hugs taz* I'm sure everyone doesnt think that you are faking it. If it helps at all, we don't think you are faking here. I understand about wanting to be alone, but are you safe to do so right now? I hope that you are...

*hugs crimson* I like that dr. suess quote, i wish i believed it all the time. And whoa! That sounds like there was quite a bit of excitement at your work. I'm glad the cops got the guy.

*hugs JK* Sorry to hear that you cut and are struggling right now. And we like to hear how you are, just like you told me that you like to know how I am, so.. We dont ever wish that we didn't ask. Hope the rest of your day goes okay.

*hugs julie and oliver*

The past few days have been really bad. I feel completely back to the state I was in a few years ago when the cutting was getting worse and worse... except for the fact that I havent cut in quite a while, its just the feeling like that. It's probably partially due to being at home where people are yelling ALL of the time. Its constantly annoying. Plus it hasn't helped at all that my mother keeps saying that if i want I can get lazer treatments to reduce my scars. I just brushed her off saying "Oh they're not that bad." But she still pressed the issue a bit... I dont know, it bothers me that she wants so bad to just erase that part of me.

My family thinks I am "making great choices"... I didn't let my grades slip after all the drama this semester, I got a job at the newspaper, I try to go out with "friends" at uni... Its everything that I am supposed to do in order to move forward with my life, But I don't feel like anything I am doing is worth it. I am not worth it, never have been.

The following content has been hidden - Reason : might be pretty triggering.. so i hide it just in case
The SI urges are getting stronger and stronger. I dont really want to fight them anymore. I have even made a plan so that nobody, and I mean nobody, will be able to find out that I am cutting again. And the best part is, is that most people will think what i am doing is very positive. It's the perfect situation... Now i just have to wait until I get back to Uni next week to put it in motion as I dont have all the things i need at my house. I'm almost excited about it. Its been awhile since the SI situation was completely in my control, where I want it, etc.

MammaMia 26-05-2010 07:20 PM

*cuddles Laura* It's gone 6pm, but still trying to keep myself busy/not alone. Been out for all of the afternoon with my friend which helped. My Dad should be picking me up in about an hour or so, working my way through an application, fun times!! Hate these ****ing urges.

Need to make an appointment at my doctors, already dreading it. Ha! Really need to do it though. Also need to make a phone call back about a job, the guy left a message on my answerphone, will do it tomorrow now as I doubt they're still open. He actually phoned when I was still here but didn't realise until a few minutes ago, silly Hells.


Doikers 26-05-2010 07:33 PM

Oh Laura , I'm sorry to hear you are having such a hard time at home :( that sucks , and your Mum going on about laser surgery doesn't help hmmm
As for your plan , Please please PLEASE be careful . I'm worried about you . *Hugs*

*Hugs Helen*

CrazyHayley 26-05-2010 07:41 PM

I spu a crimson and a mark! *huggles*

Wow an eventful few hours since I last paid attention. My brain is in a state what we M.E sufferers like to call 'brain fogged' so I'm not going to attwept individual replies as typing this is hard enough atm. But please know that I'm thinking of you all.

I think I will now try WoW....I wonder how mnau times I will die from lack of focus?!!!

Oh and I've half cancelled birthday plans and adapted the other half to be morer M.E friendly so now I'm not feeling quite so anxious about that. I remember now why I don't usualy make plans for my birthfday. Cos if I do I always end up ill, having to cancel and then being disappoineted and upset. Mt 16th birthday was the last time I was helathy. I was qwuite happy then too...oh I'm going to shut up as you've all got far much more on your plates and I've just noticed some typos and I can't be arsed to fix them! lol

*huggles all her wardies who can accpet them, waves at the others*

PoisonedApple 26-05-2010 07:45 PM

update on our eventful morning... http://www.adn.com/2010/05/26/129518...-response.html i dunno if i should laugh at this or not. *sigh* back to being a slow day.
*sits down and drinks my freshly made bavarian wild berry tea* what are you guys up to this morning?

Doikers 26-05-2010 08:04 PM

OOOhhhh Crimson , some people eh? I guess it's better than it being real though. Enjoy your tea :) I'm going to play some WoW .

PoisonedApple 26-05-2010 08:25 PM

Yeah glad it wasn't real but it's too bad that no one ever learns not to do things like that... We can prosecute them for the hoax but it's just falsely reporting a crime... that's a misdemeanor. If we could prosecute them for what they say they did or charge them for the pay of all the officers whose time was wasted maybe they'd learn. *shakes head* but I suppose it'd be pretty extreme to prosecute a phone prank as murder... attempted murder maybe? nah... hmmmm I guess I am kinda bitchy in some ways. I think the punishment should fit the crime and that if a lesson isn't learned justice is not served. But then I refuse to take a job with children's services because I'm afraid I'd meet a parent that lost their kid for abusing them and get fired for assaulting said parent lol
Anyhow, tea is delicious. *makes a whole pot and leaves it on the ward table*
Have fun with WoW. What level are you up to now?

MammaMia 26-05-2010 08:27 PM

*curls up and rocks*

Sorry, I know we're all struggling.

SoMuchMore 26-05-2010 08:56 PM

*cuddles and rocks with helen*

*hugs crimson* o wow.. i think i would prolly laugh after finding out it was not real, but that is pretty stupid/annoying. Im not sure attempted murder would be the right charge, that seems pretty harsh lol.. But I think you are right that maybe it should be more than just a simple misdemeanor.

*hugs hayley* im glad you're less anxious about your birthday. Im sorry your brain feels foggy

*cuddles mark* have fun playing WoW.

I really appreciate your response too. I will try to careful, I just don't really see a point anymore. I'm just being a waste of time/space so dont worry.

Doikers 26-05-2010 09:26 PM

*Hugs Helen*

*Hugs Laura* you are NOT a waste of time or space ! Not at all.

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