please do Kat *hugs*

Because it's the past, and that always hurts and makes us feel like rubbish ): but its the future that makes us optomistic because you never know which way it can go.
Don't be sorry, and you don't need to shut up, we all need to vent our emotions and place to go when we're upset, you don't have to be sorry (:

And thanks for helping me out everyone (:
*hugs*

don't shut up Helen, unfortunately our past has dealt it's blow and we have to live with it. If somebody's hurt you then their not worth your struggles, if somebody you love is no longer around, they would not want to see you cry. However, I know that that doesn't really help, sorry :( your best friend would be with you, holding you tight if she could.

I hate my past. I'd do anything to change it sometimes, yet if it hadn't happened, I honestly don't think I'd know my best friends or if I did, we wouldn't be as close as we are & probably would all be dead to be honest. I know that's extreme.

You're welcome sweetheart :) What we're here for. *offers hugs*

Thanks Hannah. Yeah you're right it has dealt its blows & I have to live with it :'( But it still hurts & I'm still trying to deal with it I guess? I know she would, I know she really really would :'(

I think that's a good way to look at it, you have them and they have you and you are all better people because of having and knowing each other :)

Not extreme at all, my past made me who I am today, and through it all, I wouldn't change that for anyone... So in a way I'm glad it all happened.
No one close would want to see you cry, I don't and we've only just started talking... I just hate it when people cry.

Thanks (: *hugs*

that last post was with reference to your other post not your last one, sorry should have quoted, I know it hurts hun *hugs*

I'm sorry guys I'm shattered and have to sleep otherwise I will not be good to deal with tomorrow.

Take care of yourselves

leaves hugs for everybody

I understand now. *hugs tight* I quite agree with what you said :) Night night darling xxx

You're right I guess. I know people wouldn't want to see me cry :( I hate seeing people cry too, particularly when it's my best friends. Hurts me too. *hugs lots*

I think I've stopped crying, sure it'll start off again in a second lol :'( Why is it crying never satisfies me enough, unless it is for hours & hours :'( God I'm picky. >.>

*curls up*

**** life. **** it, I say.

Nevermind.

*puts on professional face and is fine* :)

Beginning to get oh so sick of hearing that people are fine when they're clearly not. Sorry this is not aimed at anyone in particular.

We're here for you April *offers cuddles*

One of my online friends is having another of my online friends visit for the summer. I am so ****ing jealous. I have known these people since 2005 and have never gotten to meet them but love them so much. And now they're going to have the time of their lives. While I'm here. Doing an internship and applying to residential treatment. WHAT A ****ING LOSER I AM.

:crying:

Maybe you could organise it yourself honey? Sometimes if you want something doing, it's best to do it yourself instead of waiting for others to do it, else it never happens. Sad really. Also you are NOT a ****ing loser sweetheart :(

Saying that we are "fine" when we're obviously not is a normal reaction. We all say we are fine when we aren't. It's the "keeping up appearances". And it's normal to get sick of it. Even when we know that we do it ourselves. Maybe we just need to cut ourselves and each other a little slack and make a pledge to be honest in the here-and-now. You know, in this safe place we say how we really are? I don't know, just a thought. I'm not trying to criticise anyone - really I'm not. But it's hard to support when someone can't or won't tell you how they really are doing. Any suggestions or ideas anyone?

I quite agree with you Kahlia, I think we are all guilty of doing this, particularly at the moment & it can get frustrating. I think we should all pledge to stop saying it, or at least in this thread :(

i'm sorry... :(

i can't organize it. we don't have the money. i live in pennsylvania, she lives in indiana, and he and his family live in texas. they're probably paying for her flight tickets or whatever. i can't organize it. the u.s. is much too big. and we're too poor. especially when jarrod forgets to collect his unemployment. >:(

sorry. i'm bitching about things i shouldn't be bitching about. it shouldn't matter. none of this should matter.

i just updated r/v if anyone cares to read.

sorry. :(

If it's upsetting you or affecting you emotionally then you have every right to moan or whatever. It's still important to you..

thanks hels... :(

*hides in a deep, deep hole* :'(

*cuddles tight*

I spy Kahlia too