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Scarletdreamer 24-03-2010 01:05 PM

What you said makes sense to me, Mark, again. Hope the diazepam helps. That's Xanax, right? or is it Ativan? I keep forgetting which is which in the world of "'pams"... heh. Anyway, I do hope that you can calm down some soon... I hate it when I am manicky. :(

My NP gave me a script for more Klonopin but only a 30 day supply... I don't like that as I will have to order again in about 15 days, which is really dumb and money wasting and I don't know if insurance will like that.

I really feel so stupid. Need to go write in my r/v thread I guess... :(

Doikers 24-03-2010 01:17 PM

MANIC!! thats the perfect word to describe the feeling April , thankyou :) been racking my brain for the right word . If you were too anious to do the exam I think it's fair to ask for an extention , anxiety is SO hard to control ( I know from experience ) it's not your fault at all , Good luck with it if you try to do it today or try and get the extention .
Diazapam is Valium , Somedays I just can't function without it so I can certanly empathise with your Klonopin *Super Hugs*

Scarletdreamer 24-03-2010 01:20 PM

Ah Valium, should've known that. :) *cuddles* Yes, manic. (You're welcome!!) Are you bipolar? or just keyed up because you haven't SI'd? (which is awesome :D)

I did just email and ask for an extension... gonna try and get as much done as possible today but have been doing awfully so far today, am at my parents' so I won't cut or try and kill myself (yes, it's that bad)... but I refuse to go into hospital because I'm soo close to the end of the semester. Just 6 more weeks... if I end up in hos now I won't be able to finish off the semester.

**** **** ****. I HATE BEING THIS WAY!!! :crying:

EDIT - oh and just updated r/v thread...

Doikers 24-03-2010 01:31 PM

I'm not Bipolar , I have chronic Depression but sometimes get all manic ( Sounds like bipolar I know but chronic depression is my Diagnosis .) I'm on AD meds and Lithium and anti anxiety meds and anti psycotics and Antabuse so I don't drink( 12 days since I had any alcohol but thats for another post ) I STILL Haven't S.I.ed it's getting harder I hope the Diaz kicks in soon or I may be naughty and take another so soon .
I read your Vent spot April *HUGS* , perhaps it's a good idea to be at your parents , please stay safe .

PrincessSparkle 24-03-2010 01:51 PM

*HUGS*

Scarletdreamer 24-03-2010 02:03 PM

Oh okay, Mark, that makes sense. :) Maybe it's more of a mood disorder NOS but I don't know... who does, heh, the mind is a VERY tricky thing to work with. I have no idea what I was thinking when I decided to become a psych major... lol. Don't get me wrong, I love it, it's just that it's, well, TRICKY. :P

Yer it probably is a good idea for me to be at my parents'. And I got the first part of the exam done, which is a good start... hopefully will be able to finish it up today sometime, although as I said, I did ask for an extension. :-/

Well done, Mark, for not SI'ing yet. Maybe curl up in bed for awhile to let the diaz kick in?? *is still curled up next to* :)

*hugs Sparkle back* How're you doing?

Doikers 24-03-2010 03:05 PM

I utterly caved in , I went for a walk as the urge was getting so strong but I ended up getting wet ( too manic / flat to think I'd need a jacket ) nd the only place left was to go home , outside was too crowded so I just got anxious which just led to me harming along with feeling flat and manic . All these contradictory feeling at once my mind can't take it . At least the anxiety had calmed although I'm still Flat and manic . Too weak willed to tough out a whole day without S.I.
Thats just me, pathetic boy! ruining my body one bit at a time , I really wish the manicness and depression would **** off , it's like my own mind is trying to trip me up no matter what I do , I'm just an insignifican't waste of space ugh. sorry to be so wrapped up in myself in this post . *Pops into bed with another Diaz*

MammaMia 24-03-2010 03:20 PM

So over everything :'(

Doikers 24-03-2010 03:35 PM

25 minutes in bed with another diaz has helped . I am feeling calmer .

April what does NOS mean?

PoisonedApple 24-03-2010 04:53 PM

mark~ nos means not otherwise specified i do believe.
glad you're feeling calmer *hugs*

PoisonedApple 24-03-2010 07:53 PM


Just thought I'd share :)

Doikers 24-03-2010 08:02 PM

Thanks for sharing Crimson :)
I slipped up again today , twice in one day isn't good
It's 7pm , I am going to bed , I'm exhausted and I don't want there to be a 3rd slip up on my part today.
Goodnight everyone , stay safe , catch you tommorow morning :-)

PoisonedApple 24-03-2010 08:16 PM

*Cuddles Mark*
Keep safe and sleep well.

PoisonedApple 24-03-2010 08:56 PM

Is it strange that I post positive and negative both in my r/v thread?
Ah well... If it's strange it's cuz it's my thread and I am strange and proud of it :D

Kahlia1981 24-03-2010 11:31 PM

April - Just thought I'd share this. The hospital here tried to put me on Clonazepam instead of Xanax (alprazolam), but in our system it's only available under the PBS (subsidy scheme) for palliative care patients!

*hugs everyone tightly*

I had a bad night last night. Really strong su urges. Seriously not coping overly well. I'm going to see my GP today about getting a) a cortisone injection into my shoulder or (if he won't accept it) b) some decent NSAID pain killers. Also having a massive problem with constipation due to the high levels of codeine I've been taking ... it's driving me insane.

*sigh* I guess the only thing I can say is: we shall see what we shall see, when we shall see it.

Sorry for the lack of individual replies, I have been reading and you are all in my thoughts, though.

*hugs everyone then tries to nip into a dark corner to catch a little bit of extra sleep before the courtesy bus from the doctors surgery drops around*

PoisonedApple 24-03-2010 11:56 PM

*huggles Kahlia*
Keep you in thoughts :)

Kahlia1981 25-03-2010 12:01 AM

*hugs Crimson*
*hugs everyone*

Just popped up again to say ... I have just reached my 19 months SI free!

*does a little happy dance*
*runs out of energy and sits down on the floor*

PoisonedApple 25-03-2010 12:06 AM

Congrats! That's awesome!

MammaMia 25-03-2010 12:33 AM

*cuddles everyone*

Congratulations Kahlia x

PoisonedApple 25-03-2010 12:41 AM

How are you today Helen? :)


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