everything is just too much, I just found out that my best6 friend is now smoking pot on top of all the family **** I really dont need this, its turined into on disasterous week

*runs in and hides under a chair* would someone please stop these thoughts and dreams would someone please protect me i cant take this want to better i want to be okay i want to be able to enjoy my life i cant cope arrrrrrrrrrrrgh

*HUGS* steve*

thanks *hugs emily back*

*comes in, looks around, takes a big blanket, sits down by the radiator with some cookies and listens*

*peers round and cries* i cant take this

I can still hear screaming from my dream, make it STOP! =[

*wants to throw many things about, cry, scream & then relax*

Why can't i do anything right? instead of getting to work to face a list of stuff i didnt do yesterday why can't i just remember to do stuff the first time? And i know ive got to face it again today as i know what if forgot to do. So angry at myself, so useless.

*hides under blanket so no-one has to see*

**** ME.
I shoulda done it & then woulda had my braces off.
Why did my daddy have to be right.
*sobs*

*hides*

*cookies not real - eats cinnamonbuns*
*hindes new cuts*

*stumbles in chilled out and sits in the corner with a stereo listening to prince* *remembers and empties his pockets out at front desk* sorry i cant go on so i am just going to sit here

*joins u & couldnt care less about anything no more*

*sits in a far corner with some tea and cookies and blasts IPod*

God I hate that I have such a lack of restraint.

*sits in his corner, cries, and writes in his notebook*

Hey TSC HUGS

Hey steve. *hugs* how you holding up today?

hey all

how is everyone

i am now officially off to uni in sept yay

you all ok?

xxx

well done newlife enjoy

have to do a first aid course today, I picked the person who knows most about me to be my partner, she is still going to freak if she was to bandage either of my arms for any reason, and she will because everyone has to practice on someone:(

I tried to commit suidice yesterday =(

What happened dance!dance!?

What did u do?

Huge hugs...hope ur alrite. Maybe u should get it checked out with a doctor or something?

Everyone begged me to do that or go to A&E. But I refused & said I go to my doctors at 8.30am, it's now 9am.

Oh ok..Go to your doctors plz...

I hope ur okies there..*hugs*

I think I need to come back here yo get over everythin....again

*goes over and lies on bed and just stares blankly at the wall*

*throws a blanket on cheyanne incase she gets cold and leaves some milk and cookies on the table*

Thank u :-) Im just not feelin all that good these days...

Hang in there

Things will improve

I guess give it time :)

I'm struggling myself as u probably know on chat

yeah i know im sorry I just couldnt think of anythin to say to support u I should have though..

Nah, it's okies :)

I'll have to survive till monday for my doc appt

After that depending what he says, i dunno what will happen from there

Im sure thing will get better for u, Im just not so sure bout me cos i know there is worse to come

Wanna talk about it?

there really isnt anythin to say cept apparently everyone just forgets bouts me and just cancels on me...

awww *hugs*

I haven't forgotten about u there :)
I'm sure they know ur there...

Haha yeah im sure.......

Sorry, don't know what to say but if u need anything, just shout me a PM ok> :)

Its cool its not problem.
Thank u :-)

*goes back to staring blankly at the wall*

*goes back into his corner and ponders more*

*hugs* :-)

Thx's

*HUGS back*

*hugs back* I'm not gunna. *stares into space*

*hides under blanket and feels sorry for myself* Hmm... Lots of crums here... Where did they come from... Ooh look candy!

what a nice surprise under your blanket Johanna80 =)
hey there everyone.
just need a corner...

*curls up in a corner out of the way somewhere*

i want to die

i want to die

i want to die

so sorry

*crying so hard*

*hugs newlife* I'm here if you want to talk about anything.

i want to die and i have no decent reason

im just useless

i just keep reliving everything

*Reaches out a hand to Newlife* *hug*

thanks

im so crap

i ruin lives

*hugs Newlife*

*also hugs Newlife*

Bahh... my doctor is stressing me out...

**hugs Newlife**