Oooh, well done you! *Hugs* And thankies ^__^

Yeah, the new place isn't too bad. The dog and housemate both seem to be fairly settled now. I sort of got used to this place like, the next day, lol. When do the renovations finish?

*hugs back* lol, that's good that you settled in quickly :)

Not so sure about the renovations, hopefully within the month. ooh.. guess what, i get to go on a trip in July, to visit my cousin who's getting married... and it's in B.C. I'm very excited :)

^__^

Ooh, well fingers crossed it's pretty soon then. And nice one! You have fun when you go <3

yeah, I'm hoping it will be finished up soon :) I liked it better when I didn't have to feel nervous going on her, cuz someone might find out...

well, i have to get going... hope you have a good night. *hugs*

*leaves hugs for the rest of the pysch ward :) *

Yeah, can't say I blame you. You have a good night too *hugs back*

I... I don't think I can do this much longer.

*Hugs Louise*

*leaves some ice cream for ppl and hugs*

Hope every1 is well today

Xxx

*squishes all*

Now...I have some news :D I'm going away to York today so there is a chance I may not get online until Sunday. But I'm taking my laptop incase I can get a connection up in York :) I'm SO damm excited. Our preformance is TOMORROW & so is my birthday :o So no birthday wishes in here for me until around 12am england time please hahahaha ;)

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! I'm doing so well :D
Love you all very much xxx

*hugs Zowie* Yay :)

*hugs Helen* hope you have a good time in York

*hugs Jem* thanks for the ice-cream - yum

*hugs Dayna* I did giggle, hope you're okay

*hugs Louise* hope you're okay

*hugs Kahlia* how are things going?

*hugs Shell* hope you have a fab weekend and hope to hear from you soon

*hugs everyone else in abundance* it's friday - yay - now to apply for a job without getting too stressed and later to go out without drinking too much, see how I'm actually doing :) Anybody for cheese toasties?

Just checking in to let you all know I am okay.
Having a bit of a hard time just now.

*hugs everyone*

*walks in*

I cannot cope.

*hugs Becky and MaryAnne*

*Glomps all*

Have fun Helen! ;D

Zowie: Glad to hear it!

Two days SI free <__< >__>

hannah is officially **** and unable to say no seemingly without even much of a fight

X___X *Cuddles Hannah*

*hugs all*

Sorry for the lack of individual replies ... am just not feeling up to things at the moment. Am going to go lie down (it's freaking 8:30 in the morning!!) and try and get to feeling a little better. Talk to you all later.

Thanks, cuddles back

Dayna ~ you post-cut me LOL :p

hey Kahlia, good to hear from you, huggles, hope you get to have a bit of a nap

****'s sakes, I took this ****ing hiatus so that I could get away from him for a bit. Decide whether it's really worth keeping him in my life, considering all we seem to do is wind each other up. I'm tired of hurting, of getting angry because of him. I'm tired of craving his company. And even now I've temporarily left, he's still pissing me off, with his half baked theories and general bullshittery, to make it look like I've left for one of the most petty ****ing reasons ever! Considering he was worried that I'd bring our bullshit into the guild, and had to be reassured multiple times by me that I had better things to do with my time, he's doing a superb ****ing job of doing it himself -___-

Kahlia: YAAAAY 8D

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE, bad urges are returning =D.

One down, one to go!

Dayna, Helen, Hannah, Katie, Jem, Shell .... everyone whose name I can't remember at the moment ~ *big hugs to you all*

thx's for the hugs :-D

absolutely pathetic, I want something f****** sharp all I end up with is some pathetic scratches, I hate blunt knives, that and I didn't get any relief at all and am now more wound up and angry than before I am completely in self-hate, self-destruct mode, how the hell am I supposed to concentrate on my job application *Screams silently*, no tears, I want to hurt and I don't know why.

*hugs everyone* can't manage anything individual at the moment, and I'm sorry.

I'm not living at the moment, I'm... merely existing. Attempting to survive. And to be honest I don't know how much longer I can keep doing this. I'm just over 2 months SI free, and I'm determined that even though I'm going through god knows what at the moment, I... I'm not going to go back to that. Although to be honest I don't know how much of that is actually due to the fact that I don't even have the energy to cut at the moment.

I don't know what I'm doing. I really don't. It would be so easy to just press the self-destruct button and forget everything else.

Hana
x

So i've done it

I've booked my bus back home to scotland!!! :'( I dont want to go but i have no choice at least then i am going to have a roof over my head!!!

My Partner says he will wait for me to come back down, but i am scared he wont!!! i dont know what else to do! i am so alone in a world full of people!!!

Help me

I jsut dont know what else to do going home to scotland seems my only option!!!!!!!!!!

I know how you feel *hugs*

*hugs everyone*

too tired to write

xx

*hugs everyone*

OH GOD.

I WANT TO OD SO BAD.

Second day in a row. Last night, I was stupid. Swallowed the rest of the painkillers. Very low amount, didn't do anything. I knew it wouldn't. So I don't know why I did it.

Now I want to down my meds x____x. I'm in ****ing tears, 'cause the urge is so bad

*hugs all*

Quick update on me: I'm in a sort of better place now that I'm on Xanax. Not sure what the next step is but we shall see.

*Hugs all*
Wish I had money. *Sulks* x

*hugs arwen*

I know how you feel Arwen!!!!

I'm so ****ing low tonight :( Been crying all day, started on the bus when sorting an error out with my lunch and was then made to sit down next to someone (and thank god I did) and she was just so supportive giving me cuddles all the way home and stuff.....but it's gotten 1000 times worse since I got home....the sobbing >.< Think I'm outta tears and barely eaten or drank today..

Oh & Hana (Abhurn Shadow) won't be posting for a while....long story but she's not got the net at the minute.

Just dropping in to offer *big hugs* to all

I feel so dead and ill :(

*offers hugs and support to Kat*

*cuddles Helen*

*clings to Kahlia*

:(

*Cuddles Kat and Helen*

Why does the Jobcentre always **** up and waste my time?? x

Helen Huge hugs

Katrica I hope the new meds work for you

Zowie Im sorry that you had to go to the job centre :( its so depressing in them places

I feel totally ****. I keep having flashbacks and nightmares about my past. It makes me not want to go to sleep. Waking up in tears having no control over your nightmares.

I just want to cry and cry but have no tears in me. I should be over it now but Im not.

I get angry with myself that Im not better, even thou I want to be better.

::::::::::::::::::::: hugs to everyone else tonite ::::::::::::::::::::::

Evberything is going oh so ****ing wrong. Maybe I should just die :D

Checks in for life

I hate myself, I hate who I am. I hate having a past

*holds Helen*

*hugs Arwen* no money is rubbish, I paid my factor bill today which means I am skint until pay day

*hugs Kat, Dayna, Jetforce, Ravyn, Kahlia, Nicole, and everyone else*

Was at the doc today, went okay except when I told her I have si'd since last visit - they get super concerned as I live alone, still I do appreciate that they are concerned.

On a postivie note, he who shall not be named came by yesterday and I would not let him in and told him where to go - felt very chuffed with myself :)

x

Can i please check in here, no-one wants me anywhere else..

Pleeeaaassseee make the pain go away....

Just Vented in the Rant and Venting forum. I think it really helped xxx

Good Luck with the psych tomorrow Katrica. Let us know how it goes if you can.

xxx Jade xxx

So bloody fed up :(

*hugs* checking in, need a break.

*hugs Jade* sorry to hear about the flashbacks hun, please don't get angry with yourself, it's not worth it *offers another hug*

Kat, good luck with the psych tomorrow *hugs*

*hugs Tigger* welcome, make yourself at home, we have a huge supply of blankets, corners, tissues, biscuits, tea and hugs, whichever takes your fancy and all if you so desire.

*hugs Helen* hope you don't feel so bad tomorrow

*hugs MaryAnne* *hugs Jem* *hugs Shell*

*hugs Arwen* good luck job hunting, i'm in the same boat and it sucks

*hugs Kahlia* how are the meds going? hope you're doing okay.

*hugs anyone else who drops by before I fall asleep*

*sending hugs around to everyone*

*offers some chocolate in hopes that it make some people feel better*