have you tried an r/v thread? mine doesn't always make sense or have an order to it but it's a place to let things out whichever way they want to come out... not really used for ranting or venting so much as letting go...

*hugs all*
I'm off for home for now...
Luv you guys!

*hugs everyone*

hey guys, how's everyone doing?

Not so good :( I'm feeling very suicidal and annoyed that I can't overdose tomorrow because people are coming to tile my kitchen. Then I have something on every day until next Sunday so i'm just going to have to wait.

How are you, Mara?

:sad: I suppose that's a good thing technically? Though I do understand why/how it's annoying. **huggles** Anything in particular getting you down or you just feel crap? I'm around for a bit if you need to talk m'love.

I'm ok I suppose, struggling with some rather severe thoughts, but think I'll be ok. I'm really pissed off because one of my rats got out of the cage last night - some are fine & will be ok out of the cage & go back when they want to, but this one's a new rescue & I can't catch him & it's really stressing me out. That, coupled with 2 very ill rats is leading me to a total break down. I feel a bit sad, I've been off sick for a while now & my team (only 5 of us) invited my ex-manager (who's on maternity) to a bbq on Friday on facebook, but they didn't ask me & it makes me feel really shitty, is that bad/weird? I probably wouldn't have gone anyway as I'm crap with people atm, but I feel forgotten. Nothing new there I suppose... (sorry for the rant, didn't realize so much was bothering me!)

hugs all and curls up

*hugs Jill, Mara, Lindsay and Crimson*

I'm feeling really suicidal, but can't OD as my mum and sister are coming on monday for the week then I'm going home with them for a few days after. I wish I was dead more than anything, while cycling to the gym I kept wishing a car would hit me and kill me and this isn't the first time I have thought of something like that, I think about it a lot, but havn't told any medical professionals about it, cos I'm scared of how they will react.
sorry guys I'll shut up now

*hides*

*Hugs Jill*

*Hugs Oliver* im sorry your feeling that way, you really should tell the proffessionals, you need to be honest with them. I realise you are scared but if you dont tell them they cant help you.

*Hugs Lindsay*

*Hugs Mara if ok?*

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Crimson*

*hugs Ian* how are you?

*hugs everyone*

*giant hugs*

*hugs all*

I'm visiting Moni for 3 weeks and I dunno if I have the time to come online a lot.
Hope you are all ok.

I hope you have a good time, Laura. Take care.

*hugs all*

How are you, Oliver?

I'm feeling stressed cos I can't OD, I feel like I'm addicted to ODing, which is bad.
how are you Lindsay?

hugs oliver and lindsay.

*hugs Louise* how are you?

*hugs oliver* I could be better :(