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FlyingNy 25-11-2010 10:19 PM

That's a little harsh Nicole, our school are strict but they give us a chance to do the work and won't throw us out over one late piece.

*Hugs Helen* What's the matter lovely?

nicole94 25-11-2010 10:24 PM

i know :( its cause ive done all the work but some was reffered and it all has to be done by tomorrow cause next weeks review week, and if we arent up to date with all our work then they will consder wether we are coping wit the course or not, and will be kicking people out :/ so tomorrows gonna be a long day :(

MammaMia 25-11-2010 10:25 PM

Nicole, that really sucks honey :( Could you try get into college early to finish it with the sites that are blocked for you or explain to your Mum??

nicole94 25-11-2010 10:38 PM

can't get in early cause of issues with anxiety-takes me about an hour to use enough skills to even get out the door in the morning :( i'm just gonna have to stay after college and do it. And i dont think my mum can do anything about it, its the network provider thats blocking it :/

MammaMia 25-11-2010 10:41 PM

That really sucks hun :(

nicole94 25-11-2010 10:44 PM

i know :( anyways, enough about my silly college course, whats up sweetie?

MammaMia 25-11-2010 10:45 PM

I'm not important or worth worrying about honey :)

FlyingNy 25-11-2010 10:45 PM

Yay, I got through an hour of my elective (philosophy) and my daily NaNo wordcount, and now I need to do my sociology. Oh the joys of life.

It is important if it's upsetting you Helen.

MammaMia 25-11-2010 10:46 PM

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Originally Posted by IceQueenHasAHeart (Post 2579920)
Yay, I got through an hour of my elective (philosophy) and my daily NaNo wordcount, and now I need to do my sociology. Oh the joys of life.

Woooo for getting a piece of work done & NaNo :D Will the sociology take long?

MammaMia 25-11-2010 10:48 PM

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Originally Posted by IceQueenHasAHeart (Post 2579920)
It is important if it's upsetting you Helen.

I guess so....

I should be happy right? But I'm really low, keep thinking about suicide. Fun =/ Worried sick about my best friend as she's pretty much really low & suicidal. I can't lose her. I just can't. I feel like I'm losing everyone. I already lost my other best friend and considering the reasons why, I'm glad..

I'm just really struggling at the moment. But don't worry, I'm not even worth it. :wow:

Also I found out I get my first visit at placement tomorrow. Only getting it because two of my college class tutors found out about last week's incident.

nicole94 25-11-2010 10:51 PM

helen. you are amazingly important! and you are so worth worrying about. come on, you obviously wanted to talk cause you posted. *hugs*
and lia, well done, i'm jealous! what was your sociology about? i loved sociology at school :)

nicole94 25-11-2010 10:56 PM

heh. typing at the same time. helen honey- please stay safe. Is there any way you could be with your friend? being together might help (as long as you support eachother instead of engaging in destructive behaviour together) and you're not losing everyone, because no matter what, we at least will always be here. *hugs*

MammaMia 25-11-2010 11:00 PM

I really wish I could be with her :'( Wish it more than anything. But we live 3 hours apart. We would never engage in destructive behaviour together. Neither of us would allow it. Plus I obviously have college, my placement & now my job.

*hugs Nicole*

nicole94 25-11-2010 11:12 PM

*hugs helen*
thats a shame :( i'm kinda in the same situation with my friend aswell :( it's hard, but i suppose you've just gotta help eachother as much as you can. I'm glad to hear you wouldnt engage in destructive behaviour together, i've been there, and i've gotta say, thats probably the thing which i regret most of all this mess, the fact that i could've influenced other people with my behavior. i suppose i try and balance out by doing everything i can to save other people now.
You will both get through it, remeber that, at the end of the day, no matter how many times you go back to that place, remember that after the first time- it gets easier, cause you know how to get back.
*hugs*

MammaMia 25-11-2010 11:14 PM

*hugs Nicole* Just wish she would talk to me more, just now, about anything. I'm just a selfish cow anyway =/ Believe me when I say, I care more about her than anything in the world...

nicole94 25-11-2010 11:21 PM

helen sweetie, read what you just typed. you are DEFINATLEY not a selfish cow, you just proved that by saying you care about her more than anything, and i'm sure i'm not the only one on this ward that you have helped so much, three times now you've saved me from suicide. you have no idea how much i love you for that. you are the most selfless person i know! if i had to pick a fault about you, the only one i can think of is that you dont think about yourself enough!

FlyingNy 25-11-2010 11:22 PM

We do believe you Helen, and you are worth it. It's a hard situation and one I can sympathise with. Just let her know you are there for her whenever she needs you to be. Not talking isn't always a bad thing. Believe me, I'm a pro. But to me it's a sense of control. I'd die if everyone knew all this stuff about me. It helps me cope not to tell.

Good luck with your work Nicole, my soc won't take long, it's only an essay plan on family diversity.

MammaMia 25-11-2010 11:27 PM

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Originally Posted by nicole94 (Post 2579985)
helen sweetie, read what you just typed. you are DEFINATLEY not a selfish cow, you just proved that by saying you care about her more than anything, and i'm sure i'm not the only one on this ward that you have helped so much, three times now you've saved me from suicide. you have no idea how much i love you for that. you are the most selfless person i know! if i had to pick a fault about you, the only one i can think of is that you dont think about yourself enough!

I really really do care about her more than anything. But I am selfish. I need her more than anything right now :'( = SELFISH! I'm glad I've helped you to not do anything sweetheart. Even my mum knows I'm selfish lol. She's told me once or twice as has one of my sisters :D I think about me way too much. Ugh makes me think about how bad I am and wonder how the hell that sometimes I am convinced by myself/others that I'm good/amazing/pretty/whatever...

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Originally Posted by IceQueenHasAHeart (Post 2579986)
We do believe you Helen, and you are worth it. It's a hard situation and one I can sympathise with. Just let her know you are there for her whenever she needs you to be. Not talking isn't always a bad thing. Believe me, I'm a pro. But to me it's a sense of control. I'd die if everyone knew all this stuff about me. It helps me cope not to tell.

I'm not worth it. It is a hard situation & in a way I'm sad you can sympathise with it :( I have told her & continue to tell her I'm there. She's told me she knows that & isn't used to someone else caring (other than her partner). Which is quite sad really. I can see where you're coming from...

nicole94 25-11-2010 11:29 PM

thanks lia :) i miss my sociology lessons :( aahh, familys, i attended school for that subject XD wasnt the best of them, but then again, wasn't the worst. for our coursework we all had to pick a bit of paper out of a hat which had a subject wich we had to do our coursework on, i managed to pick out self harm :/
And helen-family always say stuff like that, take it with a pinch of salt. you aren't selfish. beleive me.

frenchhorn 25-11-2010 11:31 PM

*hides shaking in corner* sorry guys i am useless tonigt


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