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katnovia 03-05-2010 02:35 PM

ooh candy floss is the best reason I can see there! Is there anything you can do to conteract the anxiety?

Doikers 03-05-2010 02:41 PM

Well I could take a preemtive Diazepam but I shoulden't take them unless I NEED them and I've been taking too many recently but not for a few days. Oops went off on a tangent . I don't want to get anxious and have to calm down ,I'd rather stay calm , if that makes any sort of sense ?

nicole94 03-05-2010 02:47 PM

*hugs everyone* hope your all doing ok today?. and mark- go to the fair if you want to! just try it, and if you get even a little bit anxious, leave. if its anything like the fair near me, it is packed with kids in the day time, but even MORE packed with adults/teenagers at night, so day is probably best.-oh, plus the fair by me is the largest street fair in the uk :/ lol

katnovia 03-05-2010 02:47 PM

i agree with you there on the diaz, my dad uses it. best to stick clean if you can, well done for doing so for a few days. makes perfect sense. staying calm is definately good. are there any other methods you can use? maybe like rationalising before you go?

katnovia 03-05-2010 02:50 PM

*hugs nicole* doing alright, thanks for asking. Just posted a letter to my 1st abuser, getting those feelings out helped. I never knew i had some of that in me. need to do the others now.

Doikers 03-05-2010 02:55 PM

I'm gonna go and walk to the fair via the Canal , maybe going past the water and ducks and ducklings will help, and I'll put on my headphones , music always helps (Almost always). :S

katnovia 03-05-2010 03:04 PM

thats a good idea mark. just enjoy the trip out.

Doikers 03-05-2010 04:26 PM

Well I'm back , it did make me a tad anxious so I didn't "participate" with any fair type things but at least I went out and got by without having to take a Diaz which is a good thing . I've been up all of 5 hours and feel I need a nap , but then I'll struggle to sleep tonight and oversleep again. Decisions Decisions.....

Scarletdreamer 03-05-2010 04:38 PM

Well done, Mark, on going to the fair!! :D That's awesome... I totally get why it would be anxiety provoking... church yesterday was anxiety-provoking because of all of the people there and it wasn't even packed. You should be proud of yourself - especially for not taking a benzo to get through. :) You did it ALL BY YOURSELF!!! *throws confetti in the air and dances with Mark* lol... sorry... am happy for you though. It doesn't matter that you didn't do any of the "fair activities," you went, got out of your house and braved the crowds. :) OH, and you are NOT NOT NOT selfish!! not even close. *cuddles*

*cuddles Kat* And well done on you, too, for having written and posted the letter to your first abuser!! That's definitely an accomplishment... am proud of you as well, if that means anything. :D I know how hard that can be... haven't written letter(s) to my abusers yet, but I know I will eventually, I just have to come to a place where I feel more comfortable doing it... or maybe I just need to jump in and do it, I don't know, as I don't know if I will ever get to a place that is a comfortable one for doing that - it's a very UNcomfortable thing to do - so yeah. Does that make sense? :-S

It's an icky day here... warmish, so I've got shorts on (and a Jacob tshirt from Twilight... lol) and a pair of my awesome Hot Topic shoes (black with tiny neon green stars all over them and pink laces)... but it's rainy and just YUCK. :(

Went to the dentist's - had an appt this morning - and turns out that two of the fillings done, one in 1998 and one in 2001, need to be redone... 40 minutes per each!! EEEK. I hate fillings. :( I also need to have my wisdom teeth out as the ones in the bottom are coming in funny... why oh why couldn't I have NORMAL teeth?!!? :'( So on Friday I go for my first filling, and then next Friday I go for my second. Fun. :'(

I feel so lonely and so damn unmotivated to get anything done. :'( Stupid life of mine... I'm trying to work on my soc study guide - and I found out that currently I have an 88.7% in advanced counseling - a B+, so I'm REALLY hoping that I can pull it up to an A- or something... but really, a B+ isn't that bad. :-S I'm just worried - to death - about the final. :'(

*hides in a dark invisible hole* :'(

Scarletdreamer 03-05-2010 04:46 PM

Updated r/v again... and I spy you, Kat!! :D *cuddles*

katnovia 03-05-2010 04:47 PM

Mark: *hugs mark with a big grin* well done! did it feel good to get out with out the diaz? and to go to a crowded place like that?! *dances with mark and april*

April: *cuddles* Yeah, I know how uncomfortable it is. You'll do it in your own time sweetie. It's been 12 years since the abuse with him ended, so it took me a far old while to reach the plunge point. I guess I never decided that the time was right, or why it was, I just took the plunge because I had feelings I wanted to get out, and it seemed like a good way. I was worried it would open up a real pandora's box of feelings that i wouldn't know how to deal with, but I was already feeling rough anyway, so i figured it wouldn't make much difference. I feel better for doing it, so I guess i did get the time right. weather's cold here, bright and cold. always is for mayday! I hate dentists so i'm going to give you a huge huge hug *huggles tight*. b+ is good, really good. I'm sure you'll do welll.

Doikers 03-05-2010 04:53 PM

*Hugs April and Kat and dances around with them in the confetti*
April , Ugh I'm sorry to hear about your dentists trip :( *Makes April some hot choccy to sooth*

shadowedsoul 03-05-2010 06:18 PM

sorry im so stressed out today,just want to curl up into
ball and hide.bloody mangers putting me on customer
service desk.its so messy and busy can't cope,havnt cut
yet,but I so want to. =[

Doikers 03-05-2010 06:29 PM

*Hugs Shadowedsoul* I know it sucks to be so stressed but you can get through this without S.I. Make yourself a hot bath . Or have a cup of Camomille tea . Or listen to some music , calming to help you calm , or angry so you have somthing to scream along with . Also you can talk here too :)

katnovia 03-05-2010 06:38 PM

*hugs shadowed soul* you'll be fine hunny. come here and shout if you have to

Scarletdreamer 03-05-2010 06:50 PM

I spy a Mark & an Oliver!! *cuddles* :D

Thanks for the hot choc, Mark, it's really appreciated. :) I hate going to the dentist's - I don't have a phobia of them but I do get anxious and opening my mouth wide just makes it worse... and now I have to get my wisdom teeth out, I'm scared. :( The upper ones came in just fine but as I said, the lower ones are being troublesome. Jarrod's haven't even come in (yet?) and he's 28... I wonder if they ever will. Gahhh!!!! :'( But anyway - how are you doing? feeling okay after getting out some and being successful at conquering anxiety, even if it were just a little bit? *cuddles*

Kat, thanks for the cuddles & huggles... :) ...B+ doesn't seem to be GREAT to me but okay... I can settle for that if I have to as I was looking at a B at midterms. But if I can pull it up to a A- I will be SO HAPPY!!! But I have to work on soc really hard, since I currently have a C+ in that class... want to pull it up to a B+ with the final paper and final exam... I think I can do it if I try really really hard... :-/ How are you doing today?? *cuddles*

Jill, sweetie, I'm sorry you're so stressed... it really does suck. *big cuddles* I hope that you find a HEALTHY way of getting out the frustration etc. that cutting can help with... please try to fight the urges, okay, hon? *holds you gently and rocks back and forth*

I'm so tired... tried to help a friend with health psych labwork and I couldn't, felt so dumb. Then ran across my bestie & her fiancÚ and they were headed for lunch and didn't invite me... so I felt left out. :( I mean, I understand them wanting "alone time" but at the same time, were it Jarrod and me, and her alone, I'd have invited her along. GRRRR!!!!! Just feeling kind of pent up and antsy and angry and frustrated, all at once. It's VERY annoying!!!


*hides in a dark hole*

Doikers 03-05-2010 07:01 PM

*Hugs April* I don't KNOW a lot about uni grades and the like but I DO know that you will try your hardest and get a great grade :) I have faith in you . Also I'm sorry your friend and her fella went off to dinner without you , maybe they needed some "couple time" but still it woulden't have hurt to ask , wanna have virtual lunch with me ? :-)

katnovia 03-05-2010 07:03 PM

april: well i'm rooting for you hunny. i'm sure you can do it. set your sights on it, try your hardest, and dont be too dissapointed if you dont succeed, be proud you tried.

MammaMia 03-05-2010 07:43 PM

*hugs everyone*

Have had a better day...if anyone cares.

Doikers 03-05-2010 07:45 PM

*Hugs Helen* I am so glad you have had a better day today :-) I care and I'm sure the whole ward cares too.

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