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xxjuliexx 05-05-2010 12:47 PM

*curls up and yawns*

MammaMia 05-05-2010 12:50 PM

*cuddles everyone lots and lots*

I'm sorry we're all struggling so much :(

*returns to her hiding space*

Doikers 05-05-2010 01:05 PM


Mark, how are you doing today, love? *cuddles* I hope you are doing alright... hopefully not triggered or anything? right now, at least. :) Any plans for the day other than getting the electric (?) sorted? Good luck with that... *extra-special encourging April cuddles*
*Hugs April back* The gas and electric is hopefully going to be sorted but the electric meter is bust and the gas meter , well there are 2 of them and neither are mine so the wrong meter readings have been taken , I'm confused. An engineer is coming next week.
I am triggered , quite a bit actually , I don't know why totally but the stress of the power companys does not help . I really could cut now *Bites lip and thinks to put it off*


I also have no motivation. I AM SO STUPID!!!!!!
April , we'll have none of this , you are NOT stupid and you are going to do your best on your paper which you should be proud of . Also I can totally rlate to having no motivation . I've none either but it doesn't mean we are stupid .*Squishes April*

*Jackie* 05-05-2010 01:55 PM

New here, feeling out of sorts. Not sure if i should be here. Just want to curl up and sleep, some where safe. Hospital always felt like somewhere i didn't have to pretend. Don't feel like pretending tonight.

Doikers 05-05-2010 02:02 PM

*Hugs Little Laura* Welcome to the ward , we are a friendly and supportive bunch in here :)

mouse in darkness 05-05-2010 02:03 PM

*Hugs everyone gently*

Welcome Little Laura. Sorry I am unsure as what to say but I do wish you the best of luck.

Sorry bit of a space cadet today bin staring at the monitor doin' not'ing for the last fifteen or so minutes. Not even motivated to spell right grrrr.

*Hands out cookies and milk to anyone who wants one*

Doikers 05-05-2010 02:06 PM

*hugs Mouse in Darkness* Grrrr I hate it when I can't get motivated:(

mouse in darkness 05-05-2010 02:09 PM

Thanks. Hope you is well.

Gotta go *hugs*

Scarletdreamer 05-05-2010 02:12 PM

Am so nervous... going for my internship "interview" in a matter of moments, am so scared!! :( I have no idea what to expect and I don't know if she expects a copy of my resumé or not... and as I don't have a copy available, really, then... well, she won't be getting one. :( I feel SO ****ING STUPID.

Oh well. Just had to vent, sorry... Little Laura, I promise I'm not always like this!! lol... Welcome to the ward, though, and good to see a new face - it's gotten awfully busy in here lately though, just to warn you!! :) *gentle hugs if that's okay?*

*runs off to get ready to go*

Doikers 05-05-2010 02:15 PM

Good Luck with your interview April*Sends Good Thoughts*

MammaMia 05-05-2010 02:45 PM

My invisibility clock is working well then :/

Doikers 05-05-2010 02:56 PM

Who said that!?

MammaMia 05-05-2010 02:58 PM

I did.

Doikers 05-05-2010 03:04 PM

LOL Hi Helen *Hugs* How are you?

MammaMia 05-05-2010 03:14 PM

Glad you think it's funny because I don't :S Maybe I'm overreacting. *hugs Mark*

I'm worried sick about money, I have no job, am waiting for my JSA to come through. I don't know how to pay for 2 things within days of each other. Plus I am so low and feel under so much pressure....

Doikers 05-05-2010 03:19 PM

Oh Helen I didn't mean to Laugh at you , Sorry :( *Hugs Helen* It sucks being under so much pressure financially so I can empathise . As for feeling low , well thats just awful on it's own * Makes Helen some hot Choccy*

MammaMia 05-05-2010 03:23 PM

Thanks Mark.

I'm sat here crying my eyes out, I can't cope with all this.

Doikers 05-05-2010 03:27 PM

*Lends Helen shoulder to cry on*
Sorry , I wish I could make it better for you , but I'm here if you need me to listen , you can post here or PM if you feel more comfy with that , I'm honestly no good at advice but I try.

MammaMia 05-05-2010 03:28 PM

Thanks Mark.

Wish this would just go away :'(

CrazyHayley 05-05-2010 04:10 PM

*paces up and down the common room*

I'm so so sorry guys I've not been in here, I've been hiding since I left for my phonecalls 20pages ago, and please forgive me for not catching up with you all but I don't think my brain can take it. PMDD really bad. So so stupid - I was so busy at the doctors getting them to agree to put me back on the injection that I forgot to get them to give me the progesterone tablets to help me through this cycle....arrghhh....so I'm left to my imbalances doing whatever the hell they like! Eek!

Earlier on I was thinking I'm going to go and buy and apple and eat it. Not too irrational right?! Nothing bad in that thought....except I'm bloody allergic to apples!!! I made it to 10months SI free, but if I ate an apple on purpose, would that still count as self harm?....maybe I'm not allergic anymore, or not as bad, it would be like an experiement!

*paces pondering whether to go out for an apple or not*

*stops pacing to give everyone a super duper huggle*

*continues pacing*

Doikers 05-05-2010 04:14 PM

NO! No Apples for Hayley , * Hands Hayley a Bananna* eat this . *hugs Hayley loads*

CrazyHayley 05-05-2010 04:22 PM

*munches on banana* thanks Mark *huggles tightly back*....I'm still tempted by an apple though. I'm in pain and I haven't taken my pain meds...how messed up is that?! arrghhh....
I'm trying to read back over the pages I've missed to keep my thoughts on things other than my stupid self and wanting apples!

Doikers 05-05-2010 04:25 PM

Hayley , go take your pain meds ok? you don't want to be in pain . Can you get a late persrciption for some progesterone from your Dr? maybe it would help some?

CrazyHayley 05-05-2010 04:33 PM

If I could be arsed to get off my...well....arse! - then I may take my pain meds. As for going to get the progesterone, I'd have to phone up at 8am in the morning to get an emergency appointment to see a GP to get it prescribed. They don't give me tablets without seeing me due to my previous OD and recent SU thoughts. The last time I asked, they accused me of drug seeking behaviour 'cos apparently I wasn't due whatever drug is was yet, but I didn't have any left, so something went wrong....*rants*

Anyhoo.....thanks for caring. What's been going on with you today? You ok?

MammaMia 05-05-2010 04:33 PM

*cuddles Hayley lots*

I'm sorry you having such a bad time..

Doikers 05-05-2010 04:39 PM

My housing worker came by to try and sort out that energy company , My electric meter is apparently busted and there are 2 gas meters neither of which carry my registration number I think , so one missing gas meter hmmm.VEY confusing .
I S.I. a little :( It had been building in me for a while , it's not bad (physically) . I'm really worried about the benefits people medical they want me to take. I don't want people looking at my scars and treating me as some benefit fraudster , I fon't know why else they would have sent for me , just to judge . UGH!.
EDIT . Or maybe they want to take away my Benefits!? I haven't done anyhing to make that happen but still......*Paranoid*

CrazyHayley 05-05-2010 04:43 PM

*huggles Helen* thanks for the hugs sweetie. I've read up to page 1204 now, so I'm getting caught up with things. Hope things have settle down at home with you now.

Yikes Mark, a lot has been going on and seems confusing about the gas meter's etc, but we kinda knew something had to be majorly wrong for you to get such a stupid bill. I'm glad your support worker is on the case. As for medical for benefits. I've had a few of them over the years. I always get myself in a pickle and freak out and usually end up in tears in there (sorry this isn't helping, is it?!) BUT, they are never as bad as I fear them to be and they've never judged me or called me a fraud. So please don't freak out too much. *extra huggles*

Doikers 05-05-2010 04:45 PM

Thankyou for the huggles *Huggles Hayley back*

MammaMia 05-05-2010 04:48 PM

*hugs Mark* That's not good about the gas meters stuff, glad your support worker is on it :)

*hugs Hayley some more* Yeah they are thank you. Wish everything else was better ha :'(

CrazyHayley 05-05-2010 04:52 PM

ooh I spy a Crimson! *huggles Crimson*

I've read 1205 now.
Got chest pains too now so think I will get off my fat arse and take pain meds and have a fag.

*gets off fat arse to take pain meds, then toddles out to smoking shelter*

Scarletdreamer 05-05-2010 05:02 PM

I spy a Hels (your invisibility cloak isn't working right now!! *cuddles*), a Hayley, a Crimson, and a Mark!! *ginormous cuddles*

My internship interview-y thing went well (if anyone cares)... I start on 17 May, 8am-4pm, it's going to be interesting. :-X I've never had a job or anything like one, this is going to be the beginning of my working career. I'm scared!! but excited... it's not paid, which sucks, but oh well. :) It sounds interesting...

Mark, I'm sorry about your gas meter(s). That's so dumb. I hope things get sorted out soon!! *cuddles* Care to share a virtual lunch with me? :D (anyone else can join us!!) I know it's later there, but it's lunchtime here... figure we can go outside to the garden and have a picnic. There aren't any caterpillars out there are there? :P

Hayley, I'm sorry that you're in pain... definitely take your pain meds, and do NOT eat an apple, enjoy the banana instead, or here *offers some pineapple* I love pineapple... Mark got me some the other day, lol... virtual of course... wish it had been IRL. *pouts* How else are you doing? any plans for the rest of the day?

*cuddles Hels* Honestly, sometimes you just don't show up at the bottom of the screen, sweetie... try not to take it too hard, we love you and care about you even if we don't "spy" you. You are just as important as the rest of us and please please please feel free to type about how things are going. *more cuddles* ♥

Crimson, how are you?? *cuddles*

I'm really tired... gotta get soc studying done though... I know a lot of the stuff on the study guide which is awesome... but I'm a little worried about getting done on time. :-S It starts at 5:30pm and I have to be at another class at 6:30 I think... so I hope I can get done by then!! I usually take about 10 minutes to take his exams so I don't think that there is anything for me to worry about, except I will be VERY careful on this exam to do my very best. :-S I need - NEED - to pull my grade up in that class... so yeah.

Anyway. I'd best get working on my health psych paper - but I found out that I don't have a final then, I just turn in my paper!! WOOHOO!!!!! :D

*hides* :o

CrazyHayley 05-05-2010 05:03 PM

*comes back in from smoking shelter - sprays self with pretty smelling stuff so she doesn't stink of fags*

ooh I spy and April now too! *huggles April*

*goes back to catching up with people* page 1206 here I come!

Scarletdreamer 05-05-2010 05:07 PM

*huggles Hayley* Have you played much WoW yet? You're amazing for catching up with so many pages, wow!! lol. Oh, and we've convinced Mark to try WoW, how awesome is that? :D (couldn't remember if you were around when that happened, sorry if I'm reiterating it :o)

Ugh, sociology I HATE YOU!!! :(

Scarletdreamer 05-05-2010 05:09 PM

Oh, and I just made a death knight (unholy) on Area 52 realm last night, I think I mentioned it, but she's Horde and I've NEVER had a Hordie in Outlands before, so here's her armory link so you can see what she looks like. :D

Jarrod helped me through the starting quests with a Tauren blood-specced dk... lol... it was fun. :) I didn't die at all, which was even more awesome. Hehe.

*hides again* :o

MammaMia 05-05-2010 05:19 PM


Originally Posted by Scarletdreamer (Post 2280186)
My internship interview-y thing went well (if anyone cares)... I start on 17 May, 8am-4pm, it's going to be interesting. :-X I've never had a job or anything like one, this is going to be the beginning of my working career. I'm scared!! but excited... it's not paid, which sucks, but oh well. :) It sounds interesting...

*cuddles Hels* Honestly, sometimes you just don't show up at the bottom of the screen, sweetie... try not to take it too hard, we love you and care about you even if we don't "spy" you. You are just as important as the rest of us and please please please feel free to type about how things are going. *more cuddles* ♥

Congratulations on your internship :D Exciting times :)

I know I don't show up. That's not what's bothering me. It's the fact I make posts and they get ignored, mostly because they are the last post on the previous page and someone makes a post at the exact time or straight after so mine gets ignored. Always seems to be when people have asked me to explain...I know I'm just being pathetic. Even if it does really upset me. Will stop whining....


CrazyHayley 05-05-2010 05:23 PM

Read up to 1207 now, I'm getting there. It is good at keeping my thoughts a bit more levelled out. :-D I feel like I'm doing something worthwhile, seeing how my friends are.

I was around for the start of the talk of Mark getting WoW and I've encouraged him to be on the same realm as me (darkspear - just incase you've forgotten mark! :-p) Played on it a lot the last 2evenings to keep me safe. I think I'll be back on there once I've caught up here. I dinged lvl 26 yeasterday and I looked at my 'play' time and I've just clocked up 3days worth. Don't know if that's good going or not for a first timer and I've only done 6dungeons because of the problems with my graphics. The guild I was in fell apart, so now I'm guildless and feeling quite lonely even on there :sad:

Anyhoo, enough WoW talk...for now!

Oh and Helen I'm sorry your invisability cloak still seems to have been confusing people the past few days. Its just that sometimes your name doesn't show up as viewing the thread when I start a response and then once I've posted it, it seems you were veiwing and did a post of your own and so it seems we've ignored you. I'm glad I can see you today. I'd never ignore you, you've been here since the start for me. I value you and I hope you're feeling a bit better about that situation too now. *extra huggles*

April - I know this is going back a few pages but I hope you don't dislike all catapillers because I think of myself as a catapiller but that one day I'll turn into a beautiful butterfly:-D

edit: ah Helen you've just explained bout feeling ignored as I was typing this. I hope that I pay enough attention to read all the posts of everyone and respond appropriately. I apologise if I don't.

And helen's post reminded me to say - congratulations on your internship April, I do care, I just got distracted talking WoW with you!

Scarletdreamer 05-05-2010 05:24 PM

You're not whinging, sweetheart... the same thing would/does upset me as well, it's just that I'm not brave - yes, BRAVE - enough to let other people know. But we're not doing it on purpose... I apologize if I've done it and not responded to your post, it's just so hard to keep up with this thread sometimes!! *cuddles gently* I know that's no excuse to ignore your post - but it's not ignoring at all, it's me being old & forgetful... (lol) ...I wish I could make you feel better, sweetie... you are such a good friend of mine. Remember that - I'm here for you. ♥

Doikers 05-05-2010 05:41 PM

*Super internship hugs for April* Congratulations!!!!!!!!!!

*Helen , I don't ignore you , you are totally valued as an inmate of this ward *Hugs*

Wow Hayley you are going through those pages !!!

CrazyHayley 05-05-2010 05:45 PM

Just finished reading page 1210....so whilst I remember I just want to say:

Thanks JK for taking the time to type out the 'Everybody Hurts' lyrics. Its a song me and my best mate were talking about only the other day saying that as tough times we often put it on on repeat!

Also thank you to lots of people who gave me hugs even when I wasn't posting. It warms my heart to know that you were thinking about me. I was thinking about all of you too, I was just too all over the place to even make myself come in here and be socialable. Oh yes and Hello to our new wardies! *group huggle!!*

I need to have something to eat before I continue reading. I've been sleeping on and off all day today and meal times have gone out of the window...

*toddles off to kitchen*

Doikers 05-05-2010 05:50 PM

Hayley , did you take your pain meds? Are you feeling any better?

*Waves at Crimson* I spot you :)

PoisonedApple 05-05-2010 05:53 PM

Well... I got caught up to all but the last half a page before having to run downstairs... but now that I'm back I totally forgot what I was gonna say for my replies...
Ah well. *huggles everyone but Owen*
*waves at O*
Oh... I remember a couple things I was gonna say. I agree with JK Julie. Abuse is abuse is abuse... just because you learned how to minimize it doesn't make it ok nor does it mean you got off easy.
Hmmm... forgot the rest I was gonna say again... If this keeps up its gonna be a long day... Anyhow... I'm gonna head back to page 1215 (i wrote it down lol) and listen to the music vid someone posted.
Oh yes and... Lynx (and anyone else new) I'm Crimson *offers a hand for shaking and a hug for taking :D*

MammaMia 05-05-2010 05:54 PM

Thanks everybody, I'm sorry for snapping :( *cuddles each and every one of you* Sorry it's not much of a post, but it's best I can manage at the moment.

Hayley, hope you've taken your pain meds missy, or you'll have me to deal with mwaha!

PoisonedApple 05-05-2010 05:56 PM

*runs and tackle hugs Mark* Is the company in question finally agreeing that you don't owe them some absurd amount of money yet?

CrazyHayley 05-05-2010 06:11 PM

with a plate full of baked beans on toast I've made it up to 1213 so far. Getting caught up!

Yes I was a good girl and took my pain meds - thanks for caring Mark and helen.

Ooh Crimson, I've just been catching up regarding your housing/finance situation. I wish there was more I could do to help. *huggles* ......*feels guilty that I get my rent paid for by hardworking tax payers*

Doikers 05-05-2010 06:13 PM

No, The Company in question is not *Sigh* but the readings have been coming from the wrong meter or something . I feel stupid for not understanding it but it's SO complicated. I have a gas meter but there are 2 meters and both are being used but we don't know who is using the other one or something . oh and the electricity meter simply has not been going around at all . .

Got that ?

*Hugs Crimson*

Doikers 05-05-2010 06:17 PM

OOOhhhhh April I like that armour btw :)

PoisonedApple 05-05-2010 06:21 PM

*hugs Hayley* You shouldn't feel bad for that. I'm on a list to have help with my rent but well the list for that here is very long (up to 3 yrs of waiting while they sort out the people that don't actually need the help).

*hugs Mark* Hmmmm... I'm glad your support worker is helping because it seems hinky no matter what reason they give so far. Even if you use bot the gas and the electric constantly every day and night I don't see how its possible to get a bill as high as they were trying to have you pay. And as for the 2 meters being there... I'd think it was in their own best interests to figure out where the other meter is hooked up to.

Doikers 05-05-2010 06:31 PM


helping because it seems hinky no matter what reason they give so far.
Hinky! What a cool word, new one to me:)

And as for the 2 meters being there... I'd think it was in their own best interests to figure out where the other meter is hooked up to.
Yes I would have thought so , maybe they'll find out when the engineer comes between 8am and 1pm next Tuesday. Lets hope this gets sorted out. What with that and the phone bill (Which I think is sorted out) and the benefits medical I have been TOO stressed out.

*Hugs Crimson and Hayley and Helen and April and everyone else* I want hugs ... I realise that sounds pathetic but I do:s

PoisonedApple 05-05-2010 06:33 PM

Not pathetic at all. *hugs Mark tightly*

PoisonedApple 05-05-2010 06:37 PM

http://en.wiktionary.org/wiki/hinky :D I love uncommon words.

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