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That's an answer I'd like to have, too
*Hugs Emma* |
Emma, Dayna - if you find out the answer.. please share! I'm all ears. *hugs*
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Shall do *hugs back*
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Will do x
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Ok, I am forcing myself to go out to my friends house. I'm not sure that this is a great idea tbh but I have to do something to try and escape my thoughts and the urges.
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Hope it works, and you feel better some *hugs*
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Thanks Danya *hugs to you too*
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*hugs everyone*
I am going to wash my (very long) hair then go to bed. Everyone - hope you are all safe tonight, lots of love to you all. xx |
*Hugs Mary Anne back*
Nighty night then, and hope you're safe tonight, too |
*runs in and hugs you all*
IT'S 2009!!!!!!!!!!!!! IT'S NOT THE YEAR OF HELL NO MORE I AM SO FREAKING HYPER THIS YEAR MEANS NO DELIBERATE HARM YEAH? AND STUFFS HAHAHAHAHAHAHA I TRIED TO RING 4/5 PSYCH WARDERS AND COULD ONLY GET THROUGH ONE :) Excuse my hyperness =\ |
XDD!!! Nice to see you so exhuberant, Helen! *Hugs back*
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*jumps on Dayna*
I am shattered but so ****ing hyper :D |
*Catches* XDD!!!
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It's already the worst beginning of a year I've ever had.
I went to the party and no one wanted to talk to me, so I just put on a happy face and talked to whoever was free. Then my boyfriend said he wouldn't kiss me at midnight because we're 'not together', and my best friend ignored me throughout the whole night. Everyone was doing coke. So I thought 'okay, i'll stay awake by doing coke and then someone will actually talk to me'. I took the coke and threw up all the floor and my trousers. So I had to walk home because everyone thought I was too drunk, and I was too embarrsed to stay after I'd thrown up on the floor. Even though I cleaned it up and appologised to my friend. She came running down the street saying 'I thought you'd left without saying goodbye' And I said 'I thought you'd be pissed off with me coz I puked on your floor'. And she said 'of course i am'. Said goodbye to my boyfriend, who was walking me home, and went home. So basically I'm going to go harm myself because I'm the worst person who ever exsisted. |
*hugs Zowie* You are not the worst person who ever existed...
The people at the party were incredibly rude to you... please try and stay safe. |
*hugs Helen* Glad to see you so excited!
Emma - hope that things go well for you at your friends house! Hey Dayna, how are things going? |
I made a thread. I AM the worst person. No one wants to spend time with me, not even my dad.
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Zowie: x__o Not really sure what to say there, I'm afraid *hugs instead*
Ravyn: Meh. Triggered. Lonely. Again >_<. You? |
Zowie: *hugs* I saw your thread and replied... take care
Dayna: *hugs* ugh for triggeredness.. I hope it passes for you soon.. I'm doing alright now, although quite sleepy, was super-triggered early but didn't have the opportunity to act on it and thankful it's passed for now.. It's gotta be late there? |
Zowie, you are not the worst person in the world! I think you were really brave going to the party and it is completely understandable wanting to be more sociable. Your friends sound like they are the ones with the problem tonight, not you. It could be the coke, alcohol, anything, but what happened does not make you a bad person or responsible in any way, shape or form. I can't explain why your Dad wouldn't come. Maybe he doesn't realise how you are feeling? Or maybe in his head he is trying to ensure you don't become too dependant for your own sake? I don't know and can't say without knowing him. But try and think about it logically....he has supported you through all of this and he is your dad. Why would he suddenly stop caring now? I don't think he would, it doesn't make sense.
You are doing fantastically well and I have so enjoyed reading about your strength against SI the last few weeks. Please try and keep going. Don't let one bad night taint what you have worked so hard for. |
Ravyn: *Hugs back* Yeah, I'm tryna distract myself. Not having a whole lot of luck so far, though. Glad to hear that you're not doing too bad, though. And it's late-ish here, I guess. 3:21am, although with my sleeping pattern, it's still early for me, lol
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*sits by Danya so you aren't quite so alone* Sorry you are feeling triggered *offers hugs*
I know I am currently talking to you Helen, but I am glad to see you so energetic and happy! I hope this sets the tone for your 2009 x How are you Ravyn? Is it new year in Canada yet? *offers hugs* |
*Hugs Emma back* ^___^ And sorry to see you're not feeling too hot, either x_o
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Thanks for the hugs Dayna and Emma.
Dayna - 3:21 am is early for you and it's 10:32 pm now for me and I think it's late.. :) Emma - not New Years yet... don't know if I'll manage to stay awake for another 1.5 hours [lol, I typed years first... definitely sleepy]. How are you doing now? |
ooh.. forgot to add...
*lots of hugs for everyone* |
Ravyn: xD Well I say we're just awesome like that, lol
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Ravyn: NYE is over rated in my opinion lol. If you are sleepy get some rest :)
I am feeling a bit more stable actually. It was quiet which was good and I think it was a good distraction. Had some drama both there and when I got home but trying not to think about it. Thanks for asking though, sounds sad but it means a lot. |
Is there anyway you could manage to sleep now Danya to keep yourself safe?
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Emma: Glad to hear you're feeling more stable now. And while I am tired, I'm not actually tired enough to sleep <__<;;. My sleeping pattern is really ****ing fail at times
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That sucks Danya! hmmm....I don't actually have anything useful to say...I just realised but I really genuinely do hope the urges subside for you.
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Dayna - lol! yesireebob.. it's awesomeness
Emma - I agree NYE is overrated!! Glad to hear that you are feeling pretty stable; I hope you have lots of safe thoughts and I don't think it's sad for you to say that. |
Ok, I really need to go to bed... I hope you have a good night's sleep.. take care and I hope you both have safe distracting thoughts!
*leaves lots of hugs* |
My housemate and me just had a peaceful night in tonight. It was like any other night, if I'm completely honest
EDIT: Nighty night, Ravyn *hugs back* |
Dayna: Glad to hear you had a nice peaceful night :)
Ok night Dayna and Emma.. sleep tight! |
Ravyn: See you tomorrows, if you're on
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night Ravyn x
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think I might try and get some sleep too Danya. May end up back on in a little while. Take care there *hugs* x
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Alrighty then, nighty night to you too, Emma *hugs back*
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*Hugs and hot chocolate with marshmellows to all*
Hi all hope you are doing well. Thanks Emma I see my psyc doc on the 6th am trying realy hard to hold out till then. Hpe it passes soon. *Gives big hugs and accepts any that are offered* |
*Hugs Nicole (dun mind if I call you so, do you?) back*
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*cuddles you all*
Yes. I'm still awake. Gah. But I got distracted... |
*Cuddles Helen back*
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*cuddles*
I'm off to bed, well to try. xxxxx |
Nighty night then
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Thank you Dayna *hugs back* Yes you can definatly call me Nicole.
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Hi all. Just checking in. Will say nothing here as my thread says it all.
*hugs everyone then disappears into the denial tent* Ahh. And now everything is perfect. :) |
Hi all,
hope everyone got into the New Year okay, I did not make it to bed til 1am, was doing really well until the bells when I burst into tears, trying to keep myself busy today. *hugs Kahlia* - hope you are okay Helen - hope you got some sleep *hugs* Mouse - thanks for the hot choc - virtual is the only kind for me for a while - promised myself I would get my eating habits under control this year. hope you are okay *hugs* *hugs everyone else* |
*Hugs* Mary Anne
I will survuve I think. *Joins Kahlia in the denial tent* I agree it is better in the denial tent. |
*cuddles*
I did have a nice sleep, well sort of :P Mary Anne, don't worry about crying, I did so when 2008 had started *snuggles* Nicole & Kahlia, hope you girls are ok :) |
Glad to hear that you had a nice sleep Helen.:wow:
*hugs helen back* |
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