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Heaven20 28-07-2012 11:58 PM

*hugs everyone and cuddles you all up*

ninais 29-07-2012 04:18 AM

squashed
 
I'm feeling like a bug that's being squashed or stuck in a jar and denied air. If i had the option of spending some time in the hospital now, i would jump at it. As it is I can't be around anyone. It's been months since i could talk to people other than immediate family (and even that's just a necessary evil) I don't answer the phone or messages or post on facebook. I've driven everyone from my life but I can't cut, and certainly cannot die because i have a daughter who is, like me, bipolar and those things would be devastating to her. She's saved my life so many times because of that thought. On the other hand, my life is so intensely painful and lonely that i can barely function. Thank you for letting me get that off of my chest.

RootsbeforeBranches 29-07-2012 04:36 AM

haven't been on for a little while - life has been insanely busy and I'm experiencing a lot of goodbyes and lasts that are very hard... I hope everyone is doing alright - sending love and hugs!

midnightphoenix 29-07-2012 10:48 AM

Bad bad bad deserve to suffer and die

I've thrown the tool away again

ˈsäləˌterē 29-07-2012 02:10 PM

Ninais, I'm useless atm cause I feel so much like you do that you almost coulda been writing that for me. I just wanted you to know that you're not alone n someone cares. ��

Gem-Louise 29-07-2012 02:11 PM

i have had enough cant take it anymore

Laura2.0 29-07-2012 03:49 PM

*hugs all*

I know I haven't been on here for a while. And if I was, then I wasn't doing individuals.
I'm going to a specialized hospital on Tuesday, which means that I probably wont get much online time in the next time. I'm going to be there for 4 weeks... that's my plan anyway. I don't know their plan, but they can't hold me there if I don't want to be there.

hope you are all well or at least well enough

happiness...its all a lie 30-07-2012 08:17 AM

*curls up in the corner*

Heaven20 30-07-2012 07:33 PM

Not good enough, never has been, never will be... bad lexy, not doing enough, no no no... very bad. Not acceptable, unhelpful, selfish, self serving, brattish, bad bad bad. Doesn't deserve to live, should go away, everyone would be happy, oh yes they would. Bad lexy, should do more, not ill, not a tall...

Laura2.0 30-07-2012 08:56 PM

*hugs faye* how are you?

*hugs lexy* Is that your name? You are certainly not a bad person.


I'm going ip tomorrow morning. I wish you all a good time and all that.

risenfromperdition 30-07-2012 10:51 PM

good luck love <3 hope it's helpful for you <3

happiness...its all a lie 31-07-2012 07:07 PM

*sits in corner with tool* bad bad bad evil girl. Must learn to be better and not a failure.

midnightphoenix 31-07-2012 07:52 PM

I don't feel well I don't want to live any more and I can't get help until the psychiatrist contacts me

Gem-Louise 01-08-2012 01:22 AM

cant do this anymore just want to die

RootsbeforeBranches 01-08-2012 02:32 AM

I missed three months clean by days - also got the day wrong for therapy and missed that today. Thinking of disappearing

Lyria 01-08-2012 06:58 AM

HI EVERYONE! I'm back again and in a spiral of unmedication and no sleep. WOO. Whatever. I havent felt in a while. I want to crash...ok that's probably a bit sick but who cares...

midnightphoenix 01-08-2012 07:08 PM

Ugh I hate this I want out of here

Heaven20 01-08-2012 11:31 PM

-stares at a wall-

m0nk 02-08-2012 05:39 PM

DIE !
Hide in your fuc kin' grave
You're afraid of life
You do nothing
If you spenD life whineing about death
any wonder you dont like life
just shut up!
Actions speek louder
...but theres still no one listening.
I dont care what you do
just stop getting in my way.
Stop getting me down

You loved me
even though
I know-you knew
I would never love you back
Its youre fault
you shoulda known better
dont blame me, i told you i was heartless

I'm better now, thanks for the boost
oh you want a hand up?... sorry im kinda busy

I'll always lie to you
you're nothing to me
you dont even deserve my honesty
we were never friends
and now that you're no use to me
goodbye

I despise you

but who am I
I'm just a bit ch
I'm heartless, I'm cruel
I never even thought of what i did to you
and now i dont even talk to you
dying wont get my attention
dont live for me
find another
anything
aslong as I dont have to think of you ever again
you're dead to me

m0nk 02-08-2012 05:41 PM

if you wont delete that. and live in hope and dont die from me. i love you all. ashers or not. we live together. i will tell you my secret button url. ;(
do something thats full of energy. thats where the life lives. and will accept even the smallest of memories to slip away from your aching hearts.

midnightphoenix 02-08-2012 07:13 PM

It's getting harder and harder to fight *sits in corner rocking with tool* Someone kill me please so I don't have to live like this any more

ˈsäləˌterē 04-08-2012 02:13 AM

Feels selfish to say but, I'm feeling much the same way midnight. Feeling very unsafe n now alone. Want a _____ n my tool.

ˈsäləˌterē 04-08-2012 02:53 AM

Cant choose just one mood. I'm unsafe n sad n guilty n frustrated n crying n alone n several others.

risenfromperdition 04-08-2012 05:38 AM

=[. <3.

Gem-Louise 04-08-2012 12:53 PM

:'( im done i am seriously done ...cant stop the thoughts and feelings im just done !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i want to kill myself so much ie never felt this bad before

midnightphoenix 04-08-2012 06:25 PM

*hugs Saphire*

ugh why an I so anxious today - I want to die so my anxiety goes away

Gem-Louise 04-08-2012 10:25 PM

really want to hurt myself cant stop the thoughts got my blade i cant take it anymore

midnightphoenix 05-08-2012 11:00 PM

Just passing through with some love and hugs for my wardies

ˈsäləˌterē 06-08-2012 06:08 AM

~takes Anna home n puts her to bed~

RootsbeforeBranches 08-08-2012 02:35 AM

I just want to disappear

risenfromperdition 08-08-2012 03:44 AM

*sits in corner staring at wall*

midnightphoenix 08-08-2012 08:44 AM

I don't feel well

sapphire hearts 10-08-2012 04:27 AM

Slip, you're not despicable hun *offers safe hugs* why do you think this?

Midnight - are you sick sweetie? *hugs* please take care of yourself

*hugs heather*

so tired. always alone. how many more time does this have to happen before someone finds the guts to just kill me? It's so much crueller to hurt me then leave me to try and salvage a life out of the broken pieces of myself...

midnightphoenix 10-08-2012 01:18 PM

*slinks into ward then pulls duvet over self* I don't exist I'm not a human I'm imaginary

Gem-Louise 10-08-2012 07:53 PM

i just dont care anymore:( i tried to kill myself yesturday and i FAILED like i fail at everything i just want to die so much i cant even tell anyone whats going on ....im so EVIL and i am done with everything :(....right now i just want to overdose and cut myself

midnightphoenix 11-08-2012 12:04 AM

Ugh I'm a failure I injured myself again after trying to help a suicidal friend (not on RYL)

Synthetisk 13-08-2012 11:36 AM

I'm back. I enroll at college tomorrow and I'm terrified. I don't think I'm capable. So I'm stressing out badly.

midnightphoenix 13-08-2012 05:02 PM

Save me from myself *hides in ward*

Gem-Louise 13-08-2012 07:11 PM

:( dont even care anymore...i have messed up so much what do i need to do about it now :( its all my fault i cant handle this ...i cant even look after myself

trechu 13-08-2012 07:36 PM

I don't feel safe, so I'm signing myself in here for a while...

YodaBearInterrupted 15-08-2012 04:12 AM

*gives all in here hugs and goodies/treats*

Really hurting right now... really painful. Make it all go away :(

midnightphoenix 15-08-2012 06:08 PM

I'm in severe pain - boyfriend dumped me through email yesterday (one line saying "I've found someone else so don't want you any more goodbye" :-(:crying::Emoticon(14):

YodaBearInterrupted 15-08-2012 06:19 PM

Wow, that's rude and hurtful *hugs midnight star* I am sorry to hear that

ˈsäləˌterē 16-08-2012 09:59 AM

I fix

YodaBearInterrupted 17-08-2012 08:39 AM

I hate these feelings, one moment I am fine, the next I am debating SH... make it stop

m0nk 18-08-2012 05:48 PM

sh last night. awful. think i went too far with across the wrist. but it wasnt too deep. just bled alot. i felt really good and bad afterwards. i wondered around my porch wondering if i was gonna die. but i didnt. so i called those people that brings my medicine and i told them to bring bandages. i had to wait an half hour before they came. and they put on vaseline bandages and some normal bandage around my arm and i gave them all my knives. i really thought i had crossed something serious cause i couldnt feel that i cut there.

risenfromperdition 18-08-2012 10:04 PM

*sits next to solo waving*

midnightphoenix 18-08-2012 10:42 PM

*sits next to m0nk and give m0nk a hug*

risenfromperdition 19-08-2012 03:00 AM

*curls up tight*

YodaBearInterrupted 19-08-2012 08:05 AM

*hugs risen* - hope that is okay


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