Well done for getting through work Beckie, hope you've got a restful evening planned!

Sorry it's a rough day Jen, I hope things ease a bit. Yay for doughnuts!

How are you Lindsay and Tamo? :)

I've spent most of today studying and writing my script thing again, after lying in bed until midday being avoidant feeling like I couldn't do it. I've read two big things but I've still got two more to go as well as two shorter articles. I wish I could skim-read better! I fear I'm just making it harder for myself, and I've got no time to do this assignment and I'm starting to panic about it tbh.

Hello all. I am ok thanks everyone for asking.

Tamobhuuta did you know that Doctors starts a week today?

Thanks Luce!
I have absolutely nothing planned for this evening! So restful it shall be!

Well done for the reading!
Panicking is probably going to make things worse, i know it's easy to say 'don't panic' though when you're not the one doing it!
I can't skim read either tbh. Always worry I've missed something vitally important while skimming over like 3 words. Do it with note taking too. Has to be word for word!

Well as long as you're ok dawn

I just very chaotically made dinner. I am not sure making dinner was the most sensible idea and I may have overdone it and will face consequences later. But I made a very tasty tomato bacon courgette mushroom pasta. And nothing went wrong in a dangerous way so it's all worked out in the end. Think I may have had the zoomies without realising it and partner was having a nap so wasn't around to clam me down.

That does sound delicious!
I hope it doesn't affect you too badly!

That pasta does sound absolutely delicious tbf, I hope the consequences aren't too bad for you.

Thanks Beckie, yeah panicking won't help but I've just got to push on regardless I think. It's hard when your brain is just going I CAN'T DO THIS, THERE'S NO TIME! But because there's no time I just have to persist regardless lol.

I am still buzzing and my thoughts are going a million miles an hour. And muscles are still twitching a bit. But I am full of tasty dinner and forcing myself to sit down now. Might even have a second jam doughnut.

*Crossed fingers it all works out*

Totally get that Luce!
Just do your best, that's all anyone can ask of you!

That sounds uncomfortable jen!
I do hope you manage to not overdo it!

At least I channelled my chaos into good things. Have been thrown for a loop a bit though.

Sorry not replied to other people's things finding focusing hard

True!

No worries Jen!
We all know that you usually reply!
Not like you just ignore everyone all the time!
You just focus on yourself for this evening. Maybe get an early night?

In this state of chaos sleep seems impossible. It's taking a lot of focus to stay mostly still on the sofa. Think it's going to be mad was until I crash.

Yeah, once again i managed to not bring enough presents to satisfy the young miss :( however, i am unsure if it is even possible, at her age, to actually bring a satisfying amount of presents ;)
Her little brother had a meltdown from the minute we picked them up at kindergarden. I suspect they had given both kids a double espresso each just before we arrived to Pick up….!!!! Turns out he beats people at random when he's tired o_o good thing he's only 3 and punches like a sissy!!!

So, after being beaten, hugged, cuddled, beaten some more and having tried to comfort and console them both at least 6 times, i was quite tired and happy to go home!!! I am NOT made of parent stuff. I love those two but i am mentally too much a wuss to cope with them for too long.

I Got home, had a total attack of anxious energy that left me unable to sit still and calm down. Decided to go to bed so made a kettle for my hot water bottle. Upon emptying kettle i discover there's something rattling around inside the electronic part of it. So i pull it from the plug and the entire socket decided to come out of the wall…..
I can't cope with anymore today. I'm gonna throw a tantrum like a 3 year old if i am faced with any more obstacles.

I've cuddled my bun bun so much to try and calm myself down that i suspect he'll stay Well away from me until tomorrow morning.

So, let us all try to soothe ourselves tonight and breathe in peace and inner harmony. Lest we end up punching someone/something…

Insig, I didn't realise doctors was back so soon. Thanks!

Oh no Zurg! That sounds like too much chaos!!! I am glad cuddling Findus helped and hope he doesn't avoid you too much tomorrow.

I am trying to be peaceful but finding it very tricksy.

Kind of want a hot chocolate but feel sugar may not be the best plan

Hope everyone managed to settle down and get some rest after a challenging day for many of us!

I've only just finished what I was doing study-wise today. I've been basically doing it all day and I think it might all have been mostly a waste of time, heh. Anyway, what's done is done and sent to my mentor. Bedtime now, up again in like 7 hours and then work all day followed by more study. Tired enough without thinking about that!

Sending love to all, and hugs to those who want them. <3

Morning everyone!
I was up at 3:45am
Blah

Morning!

I hope work goes ok today Luce always harder to work on low sleep. I am sure not all of your studying has gone to waste there will be something there you can build on.

Blah indeed Beckie! That is not a vibe!

I got 6 and a half hours sleep. Which isn't enough. Woke up with a headache so taken some paracetamol and going to see if I can doze a bit more. Not especially hopeful though.

It is indeed not a vibe!

I hope you can doze!
I always get a headache when i don't get enough sleep too.
Which is every morning. So XD

I dozed for an hour or so. Woke up with asthma symptoms this time. Joy...

How is your morning going Beckie?

Oh nooo :(
Are you ok?

Pretty boring.
It is freezing today!
But then, I've been cold for a few days!
Gym soon

I am ok. It's under control chest is just a bit tight. Have taken inhaler etc.

May I recommend a coffee to help warm you up? Or some protein porridge? Internal heating is the best.

It's pretty grey here.

Hopefully it stays under control!

I have had several coffees!
I don't get the porridge anymore

Yeah same here

*fingers crossed*

Sad times you used to really like that porridge. :(. I am sitting here drinking a fancy coffee with a balnket I've rmy knees.

Have fun at gym and try not to over do it!

Yeah i know :(
Ooh lovely!

Thanks! I won't!

Morning lovelies.

03:45 is waaaay too early to be up Beckie! You must be knackered. Hope the gym goes okay, be careful - especially on that little sleep.

Sorry your chest is playing up Jen, hope the inhaler and rest keeps it under control.

Work is indeed harder on no sleep - first half hour I've not even managed to do anything and I've bumped my first meeting by half an hour, but I'll get into it I'm sure. And I'm sure I can use some of the stuff I found yesterday, it just feels like that was a job that a 'normal' person would've been able to do in a couple of hours. I managed to fail at skim reading, not really know what I was looking for and over-complicate it whilst making it take all day and write pages of quotes/evidence - most of which I won't need! So yeah I feel a bit stupid and worried about the time I've got left, but we are where we are and I'll just have to get it done so I've not screwed the whole of the last year up.

Morning everyone :)

Luce, you get street cred for actually powering through even though you really needed to relax <3
Sometimes you have to compromise with assignments. And turning something in when you've tried your best is good compared to not turning anything in at all!!!

Spent most of the night awake. Had awful restlesness, awful headache that refused to go and a bunny that came jumping onto my bed a million times to dig caves in my duvet and pee on duvet because it's obviously HIS duvet and must smell accordingly!!

Poor you, Beckie!!! Having to obey your body and get up in the middle of the night. I hope gym is okay but remember to look after you!!!
And i hope you can get a nap later, Jen. With no subsequent headache or tightness in chest. Xx

Morning everyone. Sorry people didn't sleep well.

Morning everyone. Sending love.

You did your best Luce, wanted to add most people don't study and work full time let alone have mental health challenges to deal with. I am sure the extra info will come in handy at some point and there is some useful stuff in the midst of the not so relevant bits. Try and show yourself some compassion although I know that's hard.

Naughty Findus! Sorry you had a rough night Zurg.

Morning Tamo and Lindsay!

Lungs seem to be behaving. Am rather tired and quite bored as well

I hope your lungs continue to behave, Jen, and you can get some rest and also find something to occupy yourself with that isn't going to make things worse. What might you be able to do?

Good morning everyone!

Jen is right Luce! You're dealing with more than most people have to! You're doing so well, even if it doesn't feel like it

Gym was good! And i feel fine. Having a chill before doing shopping and cleaning. Also put my exercise gear in the wash. It has a sport setting on my machine! Both intensive and light. I'm so easily impressed XD

Glad your lungs are being ok jen!

Fancy washing machine right there Beckie! My oven has a pizza setting but I have never been brave enough to try it as I don't have the manual for the oven!

I tried meditating but it didn't really help. But zoned out and tired and achy. Might watch something on TV I don't know.

That's weird!

Hopefully you'll find something to do That's not strenuous!

I'm seeing my Support Worker and I've got a health check this afternoon. Busy busy.

Thank you lovely. I'm just going to have to aim for getting it in. I doubt it'll be my best work because I've just not got time to make it so, but yeah I'm gonna have to just power through constantly for the next couple of weeks which is a bit daunting. I'm sure I'll get something in, I just really don't want it to be something which is poor enough to drag my distinctions from the other assignments down too far.

Sorry you didn't sleep well and about cheeky bunny peeing on the bed too!

Thanks Jen, yeah I know. It's a lot. Working full-time and studying part-time along with the autism and mental health stuff (which is basically a full-time job alone sometimes, haha) is.. yeah. Exhausting. I just sometimes feel like it's not enough though, that I should just be able to handle it all - and although I do handle and get through it, it's often not without some sort of MH crisis. I guess I'm pretty hard on myself too which doesn't help. Hopefully the stuff I did yesterday will be helpful - at least I've now got a load of evidence to draw from for any points I come to make!

Glad the lungs are behaving for now, hope it continues!

Thanks hon. Yeah, I guess so. And sadly it doesn't feel like it - I've not even done basic self-care things like shower and so it's hard to feel like I'm doing well when the basic stuff isn't getting taken care of. I guess I'm only one human though and can only do so much, especially with this brain. :hehe:

Glad the gym went okay. Make sure you're looking after yourself today on so little sleep and exercise on top.

Just watching YouTube for now. I am probably feeling eurgh because of a combination of things, FND muscle twitches from yesterday causing the muscles ache, overdoing it a bit yesterday due to zoomies, not sleeping well, asthma playing up a little and the fact I am on my period and probably still somewhat anaemic. But all that adds up to needing to take thing easy.

Might try a nap in a bit.

Hope you have a good visit with your support worker Tamo and that health check goes smoothly.

Exactly! Only human!
And i know how hard you find showers, so it's not like it's a 'just need to hop in the shower' type situation!

Thanks!
I'm used to not having much sleep. It's fine!
May treat myself to a hot chocolate in town when i go to asda or aldi if i have enough money. I didn't count how much i had in tips, it was a LOT of change. Hopefully some pound coins in there! And i have a fiver in there from the other week. I'm rich! :tongue2:

Ninja Luce. I was the same when I was at uni, living independently with mental health issues, therapy and asthma that in my third year hospitalised me 5 times. Doing a hell of a lot for any average person but still feeling like it wasn't enough. Looking back it's amazing what I accomplished but at the time I felt inadequate. I hope when you get through this and get your degree you can look back and see how well you have been doing.

Morning all.

Can't believe i missed your post jen! *facepalm*
You definitely need to take things easy. And a nap sounds like a good idea!

I'm back from asda. Because you all needed to know that very exciting information!

Hi Dawn *waves*

I've been grocery shopping too, Beckie :D Living life in sync!!!

I managed to complete my sink and table full of dirty dishes. To entertain my support worker for a while. And clean out a certain someone's litter box.
Now it is break time. And food time. And coffee time.

Woohoo!
What did you get?
I mainly got salad for the piggos! As usual XD

Well done! Definitely deserve a break!

I'm having some friends over tomorrow for a brunch/breakfast thingy so i needed some cheese and stuff. And some lettuce for the zoo. And cola for me. I am addicted to cola. Much to my own, and my dentist's, dismay :(

A break Will be nice. My headache has returned along with tummy ache. Such luck!!!

Well done Zurg.

Lucky piggies.

Thanks for the wave Zurg. I have been watching Four in a Bed hence the late reply. Oh and waiting for amazon but that's arrived now. Now to flatten the cardboard so that it fits in my paper recycling bag.

I had a nap. Still feel pretty shattered though.

My asthma flared a bit aas I was trying to settle for nap and needed some more reliever inhaler.

Partner is making me a late lunch of beans on toast.

Hope everyone's days are going well.

Brunch sounds fun Zurg, what are you cooking?

Four in the bed is always a bit of a strange show to me Dawn they never seem to be happy!

I'm like you lr, i don't like 4 in a bed etc, no one's ever happy with their rival's offerings.

What annoys me about Four in a Bed is that they say about the anonymous feedback forms then they discuss their forms on payment day. It's not anonymous if you own up to giving 5 for cleanliness!

It is definitely an odd show. Imagine how much odder it would be if they all actually slept in one bed XD

Ooh that sounds nice zurg!
I hope you enjoy yourselves!
I am also addicted to cola lol

The piggies are very spoiled!
I even got them some watermelon, which they usually go mad for, but not today it seems.

Beans on toast is always a great meal! With cheese is even better!

I've done all my things, apart from glow beatz! And I'll probably need another shower after that