I was made to isolate in hospital because i had a positive test (didn't feel ill, it was most likely because it was less than 90 days after I actually had it) and I asked for paracetamol. Literally about 2 hours later, nothing, so asked again. Again, hours pass and nothing. I eventually had to leave my room, in tears because of pain, and they had a go at me. The nurse had forgotten. The meds room was DIRECTLY opposite my room. And I had orginally asked her WHILE SHE WAS IN THERE!
I would imagine you got a better response from your mum!
I had to call the office in hospital because I had a dodgy lock and needed the toilet at 3am and my door wouldn't unlock. So they needed to open it from the outside with their key. That lock was broken for years. Probably still is. Probably a fire hazard. Don't think they care that much XD

Morning everyone

Morning Beckie :)
How are you?

Tired.
Have to go out soonish.
And it's basically a blizzard out there!

How are you?

Hey guys!

Heya
How are you?

FYI, if you have a samsung galaxy, you need to download a new security update. There was some sort of glitch which leaves it vulnerable to hackers and malware.
Needs to be downloaded today.

Normally my phone tells me when I need to update.

I'm ok, want to go back to bed, tireder than usual.

I'm tired too. Have a lingering headache that can't decide whether it wants to get worse or fade off….

Boo to blizzard!!!

Yes, but because it's a glitch, it's not a normal update.
Otherwise my phone will tell me to update regularly also.

The blizzard has actually stopped now! Which is lucky because i have to go out in 10 mins.

Where would I find the update?

Sorry you're feeling poorly Zurg.

Where are you off to Cacoethes?

I might have a nap after doing the dishwasher.

I did it by going into the settings and selecting software update.

I went to fitness pilates, then had to rush back, get changed and straight back out. On the bus to the crisis team base to pick up my drug dealer phone. (It's not, it's for the clinical trial, just my friend said going into that town to pick up a phone sounds super dodgy XD)

Nap sounds good

Good Afternoon good people of RYL,

I am feeling much more human today. Partly because I expressed a lot of emotion through writing last night. Got to remember that is a thing that helps. I am about to do some crafting. My partner and I are making twrrin for the finale of an RPG he runs.

Hope you feel better soon Zurg. My headaches of late have been because of tree pollen, if you get hayfever maybe that's where your has come from.

Naps are always satisfying Tamo, enjoy!

Does your drug dealer phone have any cool features Beckie?

Hi everyone. I went for my prescription only to find out the chemist was closed for lunch (they never do that) so had to come back home, do some hoovering, then go to the chemist again. Annoying, but they deserve time to have lunch.

If you're having a nap, Tamo, I hope it leaves you feeling better.

How is your headache, Kat?

We had snow last night but it hasn't settled much and no snow so far today. Did you know the snow is from yet another storm? This one is called Storm Larisa.

It will be hard to explain why you have two phones without people thinking you're a dealer. Good luck with that, Beckie! Why do you need a phone if you're in the control group?

I'm glad you're feeling better Jen and know what helps you. Sometimes it's hard to get started with things that will help but I'm glad you managed. How do you think you could remember that writing is helpful, while you're in a difficult place? I write daily, could that become part of your routine? If not can you note it down somewhere you will see it? In my phone I have messages telling me lots of stuff, for example I put if in physical pain take painkillers (I hardly ever do) and if distressed listen to white noise.

It's a galaxy A13. Which isn't bad!

They don't know I'm in the control group. It's assigned randomly by numbers so there's no bias. So I don't need the phone, but I'm not gonna pass up a free smartphone!

My pharmacy is always closed between 1-2pm for lunch. It is a small pharmacy though.

Glad you're feeling better Jen!

Oh right, do you get to keep it after the trial?

I do indeed!
I'm allowed to use it as normal, just not for anything illegal.

Cool you have a new phone!

My nap did help, I didn't sleep but I enjoyed being snuggled in bed with an audiobook. Still feeling a bit run down.

Sounds like good self care

My bus didn't turn up so had to wait an hour for the mext one. It's due in 15 mins. Hopefully this one actually appears and that I get back in time before the pharmacy closes.....

Good luck with the bus!

Wow, a free phone! Are you going to use it since you already have a phone? I hope you got the bus ok and were on time for the pharmacy.

Take care of yourself, Tamo.

Thanks guys!
The bus did turn up eventually and I made it to the pharmacy!
I also got a pack of 4 chinese chicken drumsticks from the hot counter in asda and there were 5 in there. Win!

Win!

My brother bought lots of lucozade because we're all poorly and that's what we do in our house :)

We used to do that as kids.
Only time we'd ever get fizzy drinks as kids is when we were ill and had lucozade!
I don't actually think it helps though, medically

I think it's good for having calories and keeping hydrated when you don't feel like eating and drinking. Not a long term solution obviously!

Yeah i think it was mainly for the glucose

I wanted to get papa johns but it was £30 for one pizza! Could do a whole weekly shop for that!

Evening all.

Hope you're all okay.
Jen, i don't have hayfever. Just an obnoxious body that uses physical symptoms to remind me when i'm neglecting my mental health…. Truth be told, it IS quite clever Except that i'm more of an “ignore everything and hope it goes away”-type of person….

I too am that kind of person zurg!
Have you napped today?

I forgot I need to shower
Uggggghhhh

I am not sure how best to remember writing is helpful. I often do it naturally when I get to a really high distress point. On my RV or on my phone's notes app. It helps me express emotion. But ideally I could get there before the distress gets so high. I think things had been brewing under the surface for a fair few days, but I was dissociated from the emotions.

I could maybe add some writing into my routine once I get back to the routine I was achieving before my asthma attack. I have got back to doing my physio exercise and meditation. But need to get back to waking up between 10 and 11 and getting outside next.

I didn't do much to help in terrain building in the end. Had to have a nap. But I was up and about for a while, listened to some music and I did my physio. I am now watching Allegiant. I read the books ages ago and watched the first two films when they came out but never the last film. I am having trouble remembering the plot of previous bit but think I have key bits.

I understand Zurg. I have something called Functional Neurological Disorder which they used to call conversion disorder. My body concerts stress into physical symptoms all the time!

The divergent series is really good!
I watched them all recently.

Morning everyone

Morning Beckie :)
How are you today??

I just had a shower. I feel so snazzy and clean :D

Helloo!
I'm ok.
Cleaned the house because my mum *may* be coming over today with some of the fam.

Well done for the shower!
Clean is a nice feeling!
Do you have much on today?

Morning guys. I've got covid. That's everyone in the house except L now, and she'll probably have it soon!

Oh noes, Tamo :(
I hope it passes quickly!!! Being sick is rubbish!!!

Good on you for cleaning the flat, Beckie :)

I'm spending some hours doing my laundry this afternoon. About time to do it as i've almost run out of clean clothes. Oops…!!!
Findus loves to help changing the bedding. Especially the part of digging into the weighted blanket when it is put on the floor. I love how bunnies can find joy in the simple things :D

Have fun doing the laundry! I hope Findus enjoys it too. I got up to take meds and have a bit of breakfast, I'm ready to go back to bed!

Oh no!
Hope you're not feeling too awful tamo!

Thanks! Kind of had to, rather than suffer silent (or more likely non silent) judgement from mother for a messy house!

Have fun doing laundry!
I don't actually have to do any, which is unusual!

I'm sure digging into a weighted blanket is lots of fun!

I have been to aldi and asda. Aldi because the guinea pigs won't eat asda peppers and they usually have more herbs. Asda because aldi had no romaine lettuce. Spoiled piggies!
I'm now making banana bread!

Hey le thread,

I had a rough night last night mentally after a good day. Didnt leep until some time after 7am and woke up about half an hour ago.

Trying to work out how to pick myself up and try again today.

Being Zurg's bunny or Beckie's guinea pigs sounds like it would be a much nicer day. You both take such good care of your friends.

Sorry to hear that jen.
Not being able to sleep is awful

Just take it easy today!

They are both currently napping on some fresh hay after devouring a plate of grass!
I'd quite like to be them too!

Taking it easy might be better from a fatigue point of view. But mentally feel like I need to do stuff to shake myself out of a negative headspace. Distract myself too.

Aww bet they are super cosy in their fresh hay. I hope if I ever was a guinea pig that I wouldn't keep my allergies, I have hayfever which would not be compatable with #guineapiglife.

Have you got any low effort things you can be doing?

Yep!
Ah yeah, guinea pig ownership would be a nightmare with hayfever!
Apparently orchard hay is easier on allergies, but not guaranteed.

Afternoon everyone.

Yay for having a shower, Kat. It can be such a task, I'm glad it's left you feeling snazzy and clean. I hope you get your laundry done, even if you only do some, and I hope Findus doesn't make holes in your weighted blanket (do bunnies have claws?)

You take such good care of your fluffies, Beckie. I hope they appreciate it! Can guinea pigs give kisses?

I'm sorry you've got Covid, Tamo. I guess it was inevitable seen as your family has it. Look after yourself and I hope you only get mild symptoms and it passes quickly. Have you had it before?

Messed up sleep isn't fun, I hope you have a better sleep tonight, Jen. Just do what you can today.

I wish I could go for a walk, just get out on my own and channel my restless energy into something. But I can't walk that far these days and the headspace I am in I would push until I hit the wall and FND kicked in. So I am sat on my sofa with my headphones on listening to my Linkin Park music and headbanging where appropriate.


Might see if partner will take me for a drive to the beach or something later. But I have decided in my infinite wisdom to try and hide how I am feeling today from them so not sure I want to take a car ride.

Might try doing some word puzzles. I have a stack of puzzle books to get through.

What I really want as a pet is a minature mammoth. I have a soft toy one bit it would be so cool to have a tiny mammoth stampeding about the house. I got the idea from a webcomic I read, but obviously mammoths( apart from the soft toys) no longer exist and when they did they were well ... mammoth!

Have you listened to the new song Mike released, Jen? In My Head. I approve of Linkin Park and head banging! Could you walk around your garden if it's big enough? Wouldn't it be better to have the support of your partner? A drive to the beach might be nice. What word puzzles do you do? I like word puzzles. I like to do the one where you write a long word or a couple of words and then see how many different words you can make from the letters. Maybe one day mammoths will appear again and will be tiny and loving towards you.

I have listened to In My Head I liked it. I am a big fan of Mike's album Posttraumatic.

We are going a drive to the beach, just picking up something for lunch on the way. It might be better to have support objectively but not feeling able to reach out right now. At least by going on drive we will spend some time together.

I like all sorts of word puzzle, my books have a selection my favourites are probably crosswords followed by anything with anagrams.

Tiny loving mammoths would be awesome but for now I have my cuddly one

I feel really tired mainly. Just had something to eat and going to have a cup of tea.

How are you osc?

I also like Posttraumatic. Although I rarely listen to music these days which I think I something I should sort out. I hope you had a comfortable drive and enjoyed the beach, sometimes it helps just to be with a person.

I hope you don't have any further symptoms, Tamo. How are your family getting on?

I feel really low today. Just hating myself and life. Dramatic, sorry. It's horrible when every day is mostly the same.

Evening!
My mum said she would be picking jas up at 3:30-4:30 at rhe latest. Still no sign! I wonder if she's finally just legged it? XD
it's fine. But I'm going out tonight. There's a thing on at the towns nightclub called 'it's not a phase'. So a ticketed night with all the old emo anthems!

You should bring Jas along, Beckie. Introduce her to proper music!!! One day she'll thank you (or maybe disown you…. Could go both ways ;)

I managed to survive 5 machine full loads of laundry. Though i did end up having a hysterical meltdown afterwards because it took so long and i Got too tired by the end. I kicked and threw the laundry bags on the floor when i Got up and Findus stayed hiding on my office chair because he knows how i am when i start screaming and swearing…. I feel guilty even if i didn't scream or swore at him…

I am going to ask him for help in a while when i put the laundry away. I'm sure he'll love to help, even if he helps by spreading most of it on to the floor. Oh Well, it's the thought that counts ;)

Yeah, I'm sure my mum would approve of taking my 10 year old to a nightclub XD
Also, I have been trying to introduce her to proper music. She remains unimpressed, sadly.

Well done!
That is a LOT of laundry!