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Thanks Lindsay *Hugs* How are you?
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well done mark that takes a lot of courage.
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*hugs all who want hugs*
I'm all moved into my new flat and its really nice, I have lots of space. The crisis team came to see me yesterday, they said we hae a kind of contract where I don't OD while I'm with them, sort of gives me more pressure, but I have a plan to OD next week when I am home from my parents house. I still don't have internet in my flat yet, I'm in uni atm, but shall be sorting it ASAP. |
*Hugs Oliver*
*Hugs Louise* *Spots and Hugs Laura* |
cuddles all, curls up into a ball.
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*hugs mark back*
*hugs everyone else* |
*Squishes Jill Hard*
*Massive Hugs Laura* How are you girls? |
*sits in the corner and picks at bits of paper*
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I have been fantasizing pushing blades right into me for a few days I worked up the nerve , lost the plot last night and tried it twice , :( I Told my Social worker and now am waiting on a cancellation to meet the Psych....
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*Hugs Crimson* Whats up hun?
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I haven't been at the point of bothering to shave in a week or so... Figured it'd be fine to go to this "black tie" party at work in a black suit w/ a silver shirt and black and silver tie... noooooo they want to have us dressed up (an attorney is dressing us up in dresses). i am self conscious enough as is without having to wear a dress and i dunno if i can talk t into letting me just wear what I planned to...
Thought picking apart paper was a constructive-ish outlet for the moment. |
Go In a suit Crimson hun , I shave every so often and know how hard it can be and how triggering to run blades across yourself *Squishes*
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squishes mark back. hmm im feeling really stressed out of other. i had some really stuiped thoughts today when i went out, wanted to run in front of a train, or jump off a high building. my head is so fu!ked up today its scaring me.
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*Hugs Jill* I know that stuff , tbh I am there right now too, I hope you stay safe hun :)
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*super squishes Mark*
Thank the Gods! They misspoke... T is covering us in "tissue paper dresses"... ugly but not terrifying. |
*Hugs Crimson* Yey!! They sound ............weird lol but Yey at any rate!
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hugs mark, you too hon. crimson that sound kind of cool, and fun. hope you have fun hon
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The thoughts are coming back, I can't seem to stop entertaining them, in some fashion it is calming to think about, stops the anxiety, or at least pushes it back a little. I don't know what to do with these thoughts, I know how dangerous it can be to let them sit in my head and simmer, but I also know how painful it is without this comfort. I definitely belong in the ward when I am feeling this way, it is the only safe place, protect me from myself. Sorry to be a blight on the festive mood, I just don't know what to do anymore, don't think these thoughts are right, but they are so strong.
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*Hugs Jeff*
*Hugs my wardies night* |
*hugs Jill, Mark and Jeff*
The "dress" was atrocious... If they email us the pics they took I'll have to share in here. I think I pulled off sane and happy in them. I won the "Where's Waldo?" Gold Star Award for finding next to impossible to find files LOL :) It was fun. Complete with the attorneys serving us a 3 course meal, rolls and drinks (soda, water and sparkling apple cider rather than champagne). On a sad note I found out at the end of the party (when she was leaving for the day) that a coworker that I worked closely with when I volunteered before I was hired (known her for 5 yrs now) has a brain tumor and they're operating soon so no one knows if she'll survive it let alone be back to work... Have you tried writing it all down Jeff? Kind of a way of putting it all outside of yourself? Good night Mark! |
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