*cuddles Mark* I hope your leg is okay :(

-hugs ward-

*hugs Mark* I hope your leg is okay
*Hugs Sarah*
*hugs Kitty*

I'm cold. and irritated. All I want is to be happy. Is that too much to ask?

*hugs everyone* Wow. I am gonna kill someone. Apparently I have been on the laptop for hours when I have only just got online. So I am allowed 5 more mins. ****ing family :( I just wanna end it all now.

*cuddles Kitty* How you feeling today?

*snuggles Felicia* no its not too much at all

*hugs Nicole* Poor dear :( I hate it when family do that. Please stay safe hun x

*Hugs Kitty* How are you ?

*Hugs Nicole*I'm sorry your family are on your case.

*Hugs Felicia*

*Hugs Sarah* I put cream on my leg.

Good :) Should start to look and feel better soon. I keep a tube of cream in my handbag now. Eep.

-hugs felicia and nicole- I'm sorry, I don't really know what to say. Except for the fact that I can relate... -hugs again-

-hugs sarah and mark- I'm...ya I won't go into that its not important.

How are you?

I'm alright, had a rough night last night though and my tummy and throat are hurting a fair bit, but I should be okay. I hope you're okay Kitty :( let me know if there's anything I can do for you

*hugs Kitty* we're here if you want to talk.

Good Sarah I'm glad you are doing alright. Sorry to hear that you had a rough night last night.

-hugs felicia- thanks, but I really don't know what to say. I just want to die. Have an appointment to go to in about 20 minutes I'll have to leave. I don't want to leave. I just want to die. I'm sick and tired of everything.

Oh Kitty don't die :( we all love you here, lots. The ward wouldn't be the same without you hun <3

*hugs Kitty* I'm right there with you, dear. My PM box is always open if you wanna chat/vent/rant.

*Hugs Kitty* How you feel is important , here if you want to share for 22minutes at least.

I have a question . Tomorrow is the last day that I will meet my nurse before she go's on maternity leave for a year. we have been meeting for many years and she has always been there for me. I am going to miss her , she has practicaly been like the caring, listening, helping , level headed Big Sister I never had ( being the eldest ) . Should I tell her I will miss her? Should I even mention that I feel she is like a big sister to me? being that our relationship is professional I don't know if that's overstepping the mark but I would hate not to say anything and miss her for a year .....

I would tell her that you'll miss her, Mark. I don't think that's overstepping boundaries.

And since I think the ward needs some cuteness, you guys get to see my new dog (yes, she's about the size of a rodent, before you ask):

I don't know. I would want to tell her but I wouldn't know how to :( *hugs Mark* You should tell her you'll miss her whilst she's on maternity leave, I'm pretty sure thats okay professionally. I think. Ah my advice sucks.

Edit - *Squeeeeeeeee!* ickle tiny dog! I love her :D

Thanks Felicia I will try , I got tearful running through it in my head :,)

Awwww look at the little doggy :) He is cute , what's his name Felicia?

Your Advice is better than you think Sarah :)

Her name's Buttercup, Mark. Although my grandma and grandma tend to call her "Little Bit" cause she's a little bit of dog.
I'm going to be rather mad if she gets confused on what her name is. haha.

*hugs everyone* cuz i wanna brag... Got a b in world civ, a in psych, and a in women& gender studies prolly (including an a on that stupid insurance paper i wrote in a day o.O but i know gona get told the b should be an a but since i worked my ass of im gonna try to enjoy it whilst i can ><

I want your doggie felicia. Mines too big :p

Thanks Mark :)

Buttercup, oh my, the name is cute too!

Well done Heather!

*Hugs Heather* WAAAAAY TOOOOO GOOOOOOO!!!!!!!

Felicia , does Buttercup get on with your Kitty ?

Yay! Well done on the grades, Heather!

-hugs mark, sarah, felicia and heather- How are you heather?

I just am so tired of my husband treating me the way he does. He gets so pissed off if I don't go to bed when he does. But late at night is when I am more awake than in the day. And I am just triggered. I want to be creative but I can't draw, can't write, can't do anything.



I have to go now, I'll be back later. -hugs ward- Sorry.

Haha, Mark... nooo. Buttercup is terrified of my kitty. My kitty is bigger and meaner than her you see.

*Hugs Kitty* I'm sorry you feel so wretched , I would miss you were anything to happen to you hun :S

:( *hugs kitty*
thanks felicia and sarah :)

Poor Kitty *huggles* I can understand how you feel, stay strong my love xx

Poor Buttercup , Felicia :P

Bless little Buttercup, she is tiny if she's smaller than the kitty cat

I'm tired , bed I think in 2 and a half songs time , I'll let my Best of Creedence finish first :)

Heh :p hope you sleep well Mark *cuddles*

Thanks Sarah
*Night Time hugs My Wardies*
Sleep well guys,
<3

Night mark <3 :)

Ugh I feel terrible :(

*Hugs Sarah* What's up?

Just had a terrible night last night and my fiance keeps telling me I'm just ignoring what he says and letting my mum win. I just feel awful. *cuddles Lia* how are you?

*hugs Sarah*

*Hugs Lia* How are you?

It's only 6 PM... Damn... this day needs to end.

I'm sorry Sarah. I don't really know what advice to give as I am unclear on the sitation, but please don't do anything harmful to yourself.

I'm not so great, various reasons, but I am waiting for the RAINN hotline atm.

Sorry Felicia, saw your post after I posted. What's wrong? *hugs*

*cuddles Lia* hope you're okay hun



I'll try to stay safe, but my counsellor told me that whenever I SI or anything I let my mum win and when I need to and I slip up I feel so guilty. I just feel so huge and pathetic.

*snuggles Felicia* I'll be here a while yet hun if you need to chat

It's nothing huge. The holidays are just messing with me, between my ****ed up family, flashbacks, trying to not SI, and trying to keep the suicidal urges to a minimum.

I really just want today to end so i can sleep and not worry about this.

Im back errybody. -hugs felicia, lia, sarah, and crimson-

Sorry you all aren't doing so well. :(

How you be crimson?

My fiance keeps going on about how I can't just take his word for things and stop being silly about my weight or depression and things. I keep trying to explain its not that simple but it hurts so much and just keeps making me feel worse. I just wish I had enough of my meds to OD and get out of everything

*hugs everyone back* Better after talking to a coworker for 2 hours (the time just flew by)... I feel better but then on the other hand I worry that I said too much and was just a nuisance... *sigh* c'est la vie I suppose...

Well I'm glad you don't have enought meds Sarah, you're not pathetic. I'm getting messed up over one tiny could be insult from a stranger. I don't even know if it is insulting, but I'm really insecure about my writing as it is... Well anyway. Random, but does your fiance live with you?

*Hugs Felicia* Sorry you're feeling bad, the holidays mess me up slightly too as I have no distraction of school. I love school, I belong there. *squishes*

*Hugs Kitty* How are you?

*Hugs Crimson*

I'm sorry but I really can't do this.

My fiance doesn't live with me, its sometimes a blessing when things get like this. I don't know what to do anymore. I want to disappear. I'm sobbing so hard right now I can barely breathe :(