ello, i'm finally back home again after being a inpatient- so back to my lil corner here i go....
*runs to the far corner*
*hides and sobs*

-spots marshki at the far corner and waves a paw- you can come squishle with me and heather if you'd like -pats spot next to her -there's room for ya.

*Hugs Marshki* What's the matter?

Kitty, I wish we all lived close together on the ward, then I could make you move in with me, but I am not even in the USA, I'm in England, so that's a wee fail. This is a good place to escape to, it may not be technically real, but the people in the ward are and we can all do our best to help you though the low times.

Shaz. Your name is Shaz (not that you needed telling) *Hugs Shaz (again).

I failed last night. Now my hand and leg both hurt. Not happy.

Not heard anything from Rebecca today though. Feels strange.

*cuddles ward*

*Hugs Sarah.* I'm sorry, I have no words right now I just wanted you to now I'm not ignoring you.

-snaps back into it and looks around, noticing everyone disappeared-

Damnit. Fail. Hate filling out christmas cards...I dont even believe in christmas!

-hugs sarah- I'm sorry you slipped up last night. -slips back into her corner-

*cuddles Lia* Thanks hun x

*snuggles Kitty* I hate writing cards too :( My hands fail with my joints and so my writing is just getting worse and it makes me sad when they're scruffy. :(

-pats the spot nest to her- you can sit next to me in the corner if you want. Anyone is welcome - its a magical corner and there are unlimited amounts of spots next to me. I hate filling out cards because it just makes me super anxious I don't know why...any kind of cards. I just feel overwhelmed by them and eventually freak out. And, my husbands handwriting is horrible, so I am the one who always has to fill them out. It's hard to give up tradition, even if you don't believe in the religion...thats the only reason I still do it...tradition...

*cuddles everyone*

Am I the closes to Kitty of us on the ward? (I live in Alaska, Kitty)

My biggest fail with Christmas/Yule/Hanukkah cards is that everyone gets offended if I send them 'Season's Greetings' so I gave up buying them and got a stamps set and make them with the kids now and just add an inscription for whoever... This means it takes forever and they're late or it doesn't get done usually. Fail.

Welcome back Shaz!

*hugs everyone*

yeah 6 months is better than nothing, kitty, I just wish i didn't have to deal with it at all. I had to fight tooth and nail and it still took 2 months to get it fixed so i was receiving anything at all... :(

Let's hope they backdate it Crimson, they should do :) When I was old enough to receive DLA, they had to transfer it from my Mum getting to me and kept ****ing up, so it took until August & my 16th birthday was March!!! But they backdated it for me once it was all sorted.

*joins Kitty in the corner* I don't like feeling so crappy. My hand is a teeny tiny scratch but its swollen and achy. Stupid immune system. Had to have 2 injections today for my holiday. And I've been constantly hungry and piling on weight recently and I hate it. I really do not like the way I look right now. Mum bought a jigsaw of me and my sister for my nan and I look freaking huge >:(

:( At least you were able to get the assistance, though. That nightmare is over for a while. And I live in washington state - want out of the united states so bad though - mainly because of health care reasons, but there are others as well.

Everyone I send cards to is christian - or some form of it anyway. I was raised in a christian household, but dumped the religion when I was 14 because after I was...well I won't go into it because I don't want to accidentally trigger anyone. But, something bad happened when I was 14 and I tried telling one of my "friends" about it...she told me to go jump off a bridge and die. Then I tried turning to the church for help...they turned their backs and walked away. Then I did some research and decided I didn't want to be a part of that religion anymore. Now I have another religion -shrugs-

They did backdate, thankfully, Hels. It helps some but for the damage of overdrafting to pay stuff that was already done. I was worried for a while that the holidays would be totally ruined for the kids... now it'll be small but at least it'll exist. And we decided on which house we're going to get. The one I wanted wouldn't take an offer as low as we made (though they over priced it) so we looked more and found this one.The kitchen isn't as awesome but it's still really awesome and D's agreed to put in granite counters as soon as we can afford it after we finish the basement level. (The basement is half way to being an apartment so we're going to finish it off.) :hop:

-offers sarah a pillow and a fuzzy blankie- I know how you feel, hun. I feel like a fat pig. Do you have any neosporin for your hand and/or leg? Or any cream similar to it? It's not the best solution, but I don't know...seems to help at least a little.

Yeah I'm using Germoline for the pain, it helps and it keeps it clean too. I've gone up at least a clothes size in the past 3 weeks and I despise it. *curls up in fuzzy blankie* I wouldn't mind but I don't help myself either >:(

Ya...I see it pointless to help myself because I feel like I don't deserve it. Other people deserve it more than me. -rubs sarah's back a little- I am that type of person though. And people love to just come into my life and use me in any way they can because they know I'm such a nice person, I'll do anything! Then they leave. Meh. -hugs her knees and starts rocking again-

I'd like to move out of the US too but getting D to move out of state is hard enough, let alone out of country.

I quit tried on many religions and decided on Paganism but it gets complicated at the house since D and I are both different kinds of Pagan we have almost all Christian family and let the kids celebrate Christmas and believe in Santa...

*pouts at my inability to keep up and typing so slow*
Ugh I suppose I should get more work done... I don't wanna but it helps my financial situation...

*cuddles Kitty* you're amazing, thank you for being here for me. I need hugs.

*snuggles Crimson* I'm religion-less. I find it easier to focus on myself that way. I hate working on stuff when I'm not in the mood. I'll never cope in a job :(

My husband and I consider ourselves to be Pagan as well. We consider ourselves to be Wiccan, but there are some things that I don't necessarily believe about the religion and some things that I'm not as into as other Wiccans are. But meh. My brother Chris lead me to the religion...even though he's not alive...gawd I miss him...

-trembles and just stares blankly while rocking faster-

I'm distraught. I'm above the weight I promised I'd never let myself get to as its so unhealthy. *sighs and hides away*

I am, too. I want to die. -shakes-

*cuddles Kitty* Don't die, I'd miss you so much, you're lovely and I need you x

So am I. But I'm hoping after my in-laws move out (read 'get thrown out' here) and my stress level goes down (along with our bills) I'll manage to be bothered to work out and actually get somewhere with my size -in a healthy way-.

Is there something that you guys like to do? Yoga? Dance? that could help?
I'm going to a yoga class next month.

hugs- kitty xx
just made one of the toughest decisions of my life today and is kind of regretting it, (i dont want to continue with treatment now, but i said ok then :S )
who's looking forward to christmas, for one i am certainly not *shivers*
and thanks for the name mention...yup i'm shaz sadly x
Massive hugs some more >-huggs-<

No...I'm really limited on what I can do because of my chronic back pain.

I'm just feelin really low and suicidal right now...

-hits the back of her head against the wall really hard-

-hugs shaz back-

I struggle with things due to my arthiritis. >:(

*cuddles Shaz* I hope you're okay x

hmmm... maybe modified pilates?
my main problem is i'll find something that doesn't hurt me but get bored of doing it and quit, or not have the time or space or motivation/energy...

Yeah. About the only thing I can manage is swimming but I hate it. Walking is okay but eventually it gets my knees. Eventually I'll ask my doctor what I can do. So insanely thirsty today :(

-gets up from the floor- I'm so anxious...

-runs around the ward throwing things at the wall again, screaming-

Poor Kitty :(

I'm going to have to go sleep. I feel terrible. Night all *massive cuddles and well-wishes* xxx

-stops throwing things to run up to sarah and gives her a hug- night night. sleep well.

Hope you feel better tomorrow hun x

Me too...tomorrow is still a long way away for me.. -shrugs-

*sigh* forgot about B being in training and me having to cover his job this afternoon but I was only 10 min late to do it... And now it's time to go home... Maybe I'll bake some bread (since I can afford more flour if I need it now) or maybe some cookies...
*hugs my ward mates*
g'night everybody. :) be back in the morning (or afternoon depending where you are)

Night crimson. I know you aren't on anymore but still thought I'd say it anyway.

I'm pretty sure I will be here in the ward all night. I'm not leaving. I don't feel safe with myself.

-runs around the ward hitting herself into the walls and bouncing off of them-

.<3. .

-spots heather and comes running up to her and hugs her- you ok heather?

Im okish and sleepy. Howre you doing? *offers teddy*

freaking out really bad...suicidal... -shrugs, and goes back to pounding her head into the wall-

I'm freaking out so bad my heart is pounding I'm shaking gahhhhhhhhhh make it stop it won't stop make it stop

-sits back in her corner and hugs her knees and rocks back and forth-

-fails at keeping her eyes open any longer and curls up in her corner with her pillows and fuzzy blankies and falls asleep-

*Hugs Heather*

*Hugs Crimson* YEY! for the benefits people getting into gear :) and I like that house :)

*Hugs Lia*

*Hugs Kitty* Night Night , Sweet dreams :)

*Hugs Marshki*(Shaz?) Hey :) I'm Mark :)

*Hugs Sarah*

*Hugs Helen*

*How are you all this morning?
I STRUGGLED to get out of bed but I'm up now , Today I have a tenancy Review at 1pm which I hope isn't too much and then I'm DREADING the........Dentist!!!!..... I just know I'll get the whole brush your gums , brush in a circle, floss , brush better lecture when I know that I brush my teeth well twice a day, hmmmpf, wish me luck :S

*hugs everyone*
I.am.such.an.IDIOT!

*Hugs Nicole* Whats happened Hun? I'm sure you're not an idiot.

*Hugs mark* I am. I really am. :( last night. When i said i was going to bed. My friend text me....and we were talking....and then he was like 'do you wanna meet up?' so i went out and met him.....and we ended up................................................ .................................................. .................................................. ............................................yeah.
*cries*