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misskitty112 16-07-2010 10:06 PM

Rehearsal time almost!
*sprinkles everyone with magical fairy dust*

I shall be back in about 5-6 hours. :-)

shadowedsoul 16-07-2010 10:58 PM

hmm need to walk away, why the hell can't I walk away, I keep coming back for more of everything. =( *sits and rocks*

Scarletdreamer 16-07-2010 11:32 PM

So ****ing anxious!!!!

*sits, rocks, & cries*

Sorry no individuals, I'll try to do some later tonight or tomorrow. :(

I'mJustMe 16-07-2010 11:36 PM

Hey Jill, I know you won't talk, but we're all here for you if you ever do want to. *Wipes away tears and cuddles gently.* You still have my TARDIS hugs don't forget.

April- What's making you so anxious sweet? *Hugs and hands tissue. Sits with*

I don't know what to do. There is something there and I am so SCARED. I wish I hadn't had that conversation with that girl. Oh life.

x

Scarletdreamer 17-07-2010 12:17 AM

So much is going on right now... :'( ...I might have to talk to the parent(s) of one of the girls I've been "mentoring" at my church... my r/v has more about it, the whole "Sunday thing" ... but the problem is, Sunday is fast approaching. :-X

And then I found out that one of my mail-order prescriptions was "expired" - it was ONLY a month old - so now I have less than a week's worth of a NEEDED medication (my anti-anxiety med, how funny.................), and no word from my NP whether or not she'll call in some for me. :'( I feel so ****ing stupid.

I can't even focus on WoW for a long period of time. :'( And they're making me feel like **** anyway, not on purpose but still.

I just want to go die somewhere quietly... *cries softly*

Scarletdreamer 17-07-2010 01:08 AM

Updated r/v...

*hides & keeps crying* :'(

frenchhorn 17-07-2010 01:28 AM

*hides* I'm scared sorry, dont know what we are meant to do, its horrible, so ****ing horrible

nuclearnight 17-07-2010 03:27 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by frenchhorn (Post 2405215)
*hides* I'm scared sorry, dont know what we are meant to do, its horrible, so ****ing horrible

*sits with you if you like*

frenchhorn 17-07-2010 03:43 AM

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Originally Posted by nuclearnight (Post 2405272)
*sits with you if you like*


thank you

*sits with* how are you?
I may try to sleep soon, 3.45 am

misskitty112 17-07-2010 03:44 AM

I don't have the words for individuals but it looks like everyone's having a bad night so *hugs and cuddles for everyone*

Also, Michelle, I like your Virginia Woolf quote in your sig. I love Woolf.

So... I wish I could make my brain quit. I haven't even finished Midsummer for this summer and I'm already thinking about the possibility of performing Macbeth next summer and what role I want. And I am stressing myself out over said role. And I just want it to stop.

nuclearnight 17-07-2010 03:48 AM

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Originally Posted by frenchhorn (Post 2405277)
thank you

*sits with* how are you?
I may try to sleep soon, 3.45 am


I'm well enough thankyou, is the horrible feeling passing at all?
I'm in the UK too, so same time here, probably should sleep soon too I guess.
Reckon some sleep will help? x

frenchhorn 17-07-2010 03:49 AM

*hugs misskitty (Felicia I believe??)

you do a lot of acting then, i see you keep mentioning rehearsals and I'm guessing its that.
I know what long rehearsals are like, I'm a classical musician.
*hugs* hope your brain stops stressing out soon

nuclearnight 17-07-2010 03:50 AM

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Originally Posted by misskitty112 (Post 2405278)
I don't have the words for individuals but it looks like everyone's having a bad night so *hugs and cuddles for everyone*

Also, Michelle, I like your Virginia Woolf quote in your sig. I love Woolf.

So... I wish I could make my brain quit. I haven't even finished Midsummer for this summer and I'm already thinking about the possibility of performing Macbeth next summer and what role I want. And I am stressing myself out over said role. And I just want it to stop.

Thanks!

*hugs back* Sorry I can't offer more, I hope your brain does quit soon.

frenchhorn 17-07-2010 03:52 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by nuclearnight (Post 2405280)
I'm well enough thankyou, is the horrible feeling passing at all?
I'm in the UK too, so same time here, probably should sleep soon too I guess.
Reckon some sleep will help? x


oh yeah sorry, just saw your uk too.
no its still here, sleep would stop it for now, but then it would make the morning come quicker and that is scary too, was a horrible day, dont want morning to come so we dont have to face him

misskitty112 17-07-2010 03:57 AM

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Originally Posted by frenchhorn (Post 2405281)
*hugs misskitty (Felicia I believe??)

you do a lot of acting then, i see you keep mentioning rehearsals and I'm guessing its that.
I know what long rehearsals are like, I'm a classical musician.
*hugs* hope your brain stops stressing out soon

Yes it's Felicia =)
I'm an actress in a starting Shakespeare company during the summer, we perform A Midsummer Night's Dream next week, and I got word that the play for next summer is Macbeth. I'm a perfectionist, and I know if I don't get the part I want it's going to be super super hard on me. (Even though I just want to play one of the witches... cause they are awesome!)
Yes, I'm sure you do know long rehearsals. I'm a trained vocalist and to be honest, my music rehearsals kill me far worse than any theatre rehearsal I have had.
Thanks though, I hope my brain stops soon too. I need to focus on this week and let next summer take care of itself.

nuclearnight 17-07-2010 03:59 AM

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Originally Posted by frenchhorn (Post 2405286)
oh yeah sorry, just saw your uk too.
no its still here, sleep would stop it for now, but then it would make the morning come quicker and that is scary too, was a horrible day, dont want morning to come so we dont have to face him

I know what you mean about sleep making whatever you're dreading come quicker, but rest would hopefully give you a little more energy to deal with whatever it is you're fearing.

*hug* Keeping you in my thoughts and hope tomorrow is ok for you

frenchhorn 17-07-2010 04:01 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by misskitty112 (Post 2405288)
Yes it's Felicia =)
I'm an actress in a starting Shakespeare company during the summer, we perform A Midsummer Night's Dream next week, and I got word that the play for next summer is Macbeth. I'm a perfectionist, and I know if I don't get the part I want it's going to be super super hard on me. (Even though I just want to play one of the witches... cause they are awesome!)
Yes, I'm sure you do know long rehearsals. I'm a trained vocalist and to be honest, my music rehearsals kill me far worse than any theatre rehearsal I have had.
Thanks though, I hope my brain stops soon too. I need to focus on this week and let next summer take care of itself.


wow thats cool, but stressful. I hope midsummer goes well next week and good luck for getting the part you want in macbeth, i agree the witches are cool.
yeah music rehearsals can be utter hell.
yeah focus on next week that is important and then worry about next summer for macbeth when it come to it

frenchhorn 17-07-2010 04:05 AM

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Originally Posted by nuclearnight (Post 2405289)
I know what you mean about sleep making whatever you're dreading come quicker, but rest would hopefully give you a little more energy to deal with whatever it is you're fearing.

*hug* Keeping you in my thoughts and hope tomorrow is ok for you


thanks, yeah sleep would give me some more energy i guess, its not even me who will have to face most of it, it will be my bf, I just hope once we go to the friends it will be better.
basically my bf came out to his dad the other night and while in the car with him earlier, he screamed at him, tolded him he was only being trans cos it was the only way i could love him, cos I'm trans, nearly hit him and nearly crashed, now he is just ignoring us and not talking to us, so we are going to stay with a friends of his, then I have to go home on tuesday, its been horrible, especially for my bf, I'm just trying to be there for him, but I'm also getting shouted at by his dad, because I have turned him trans apparently

nuclearnight 17-07-2010 04:13 AM

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Originally Posted by frenchhorn (Post 2405292)
thanks, yeah sleep would give me some more energy i guess, its not even me who will have to face most of it, it will be my bf, I just hope once we go to the friends it will be better.
basically my bf came out to his dad the other night and while in the car with him earlier, he screamed at him, tolded him he was only being trans cos it was the only way i could love him, cos I'm trans, nearly hit him and nearly crashed, now he is just ignoring us and not talking to us, so we are going to stay with a friends of his, then I have to go home on tuesday, its been horrible, especially for my bf, I'm just trying to be there for him, but I'm also getting shouted at by his dad, because I have turned him trans

Gosh, I can understand why that would be very scary.
Is your bf's dad not too educated about this stuff if he thinks your bf has been turned trans by you? Not making excuses for his behaviour at all but I hope that with a little bit of education and time he can be more accepting.

When do you get to stay at your friends? You sound like you're being wonderfully supportive and he is lucky to have you!

Wishing you strength

frenchhorn 17-07-2010 04:17 AM

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Originally Posted by nuclearnight (Post 2405299)
Gosh, I can understand why that would be very scary.
Is your bf's dad not too educated about this stuff if he thinks your bf has been turned trans by you? Not making excuses for his behaviour at all but I hope that with a little bit of education and time he can be more accepting.

When do you get to stay at your friends? You sound like you're being wonderfully supportive and he is lucky to have you!

Wishing you strength

we are going to the friends in the morning.
His dad really isnt educated and has gone very scary, saying he wont be his gurantor for his flat, as he doesnt know anyone called alex, so he wont have anywhere to live. at the moment he is too angry and doesnt talk or screams so we havnt tried to talk to him and try to educate him or give him some useful resources

thank you

nuclearnight 17-07-2010 04:22 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by frenchhorn (Post 2405302)
we are going to the friends in the morning.
His dad really isnt educated and has gone very scary, saying he wont be his gurantor for his flat, as he doesnt know anyone called alex, so he wont have anywhere to live. at the moment he is too angry and doesnt talk or screams so we havnt tried to talk to him and try to educate him or give him some useful resources

thank you

That is so upsetting to hear. The transphobia and ignorance would be bad enough but withdrawing financial help is just...... I have no words. I am upset and angry on your behalf.

I can understand why you are scared for tomorrow to come but I hope it will at least provide the two of you with some peace for a while.

Will you let me know how it goes?

frenchhorn 17-07-2010 04:29 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by nuclearnight (Post 2405303)
That is so upsetting to hear. The transphobia and ignorance would be bad enough but withdrawing financial help is just...... I have no words. I am upset and angry on your behalf.

I can understand why you are scared for tomorrow to come but I hope it will at least provide the two of you with some peace for a while.

Will you let me know how it goes?


Yeah its horrible for him and I can't help with finances, we're both students. I just hope he comes to his senses.

Yeah I hope getting away will give us a break, i go home on tuesday and Alex, my bf, is doing an orchestral course, which his dad had planned to drive the harp to, I really hope he still will do that, there is no other way to get a harp into Edinburgh.

Yes I will let you know how it goes, I'm not sure if I'll have internet at this friends house, so it may not be until late tues/early weds morning, unless I can get into an internet cafe, or there is internet access.

thanks for your support

I'mJustMe 17-07-2010 08:12 AM

Morning all wardies.

Hope it all goes well for you Oliver and everything's ok. I'm sorry, I'm too tired to say much more right now.

Had the worst night's sleep last night. Finally dropped off at past 3 in the morning then woke again at 5.20 where I stayed awake for about 20 minutes before falling asleep again and waking for good at half 7, which bring me here at this bright and early hour. Still, going to London today and didn't have any nightmare so that's cool.

Igore my post from yesterday (not that anyone actually responded anyway, but in case someone was planning to) because I was talking rubbish and there's nothing I've forgotten, nothing pushed to the back, nothing to be scared of. I was being stupid. I hope everyone's feeling a little better this morning.

*Hugs and tea to all*

xx

Doikers 17-07-2010 10:50 AM

*Hugs Oliver* I hope you got some sleep there and I hope Alex's Dad comes around soon :S

*Hugs Felicia* Oh I hope you get to be a witch !

*Hugs Lia* I'm sorry your sleep suffered last night , have fun in London !!

*Hugs Ward-mates*

risenfromperdition 17-07-2010 11:16 AM

mark :)

oliver- hope his dad comes round... its ridiculous that he wont pay for the apartment or w/e because of that... people are frustrating o_O im sure it wont mean anything coming from someone he doesnt know- but feel free to say that im proud for coming out =] that alwaysss takes courage- especially with something thats even less understood than being gay/lesbian soooo yus.

/rambling

sorry you didnt get much sleep lia, hope you have a good day <3

ergh. food is dumb. it shudnt existtt >.> lol

katnovia 17-07-2010 11:17 AM

*crawls out of her hiding hole in the warren and skulks off in search of a shower* *sits in shower fully clothed*

risenfromperdition 17-07-2010 11:21 AM

<3 hey kat :)

risenfromperdition 17-07-2010 11:22 AM

ps, you're not being stupid lia *nod*

Doikers 17-07-2010 11:23 AM

*Hugs Heather**Hugs Kat* How are you both?

I went to go out to the shops (Food shops) and got my wallet , shoes on , keys , MP3 in my ears but I just coulden't bring myself to go out the front door , I coulden't even go down the stairs to the door , I'm tired and achey despite sleeping ok , I woke up but just wanted to sleep , just a LITTLE BIT MORE . Maybe this afternoon hmmm? I drank an energy drink , hope it gives me energy.

katnovia 17-07-2010 11:26 AM

Hey Heather.
Hey Mark *hugs* awful. but it doesn't matter.

Sorry you're having a tough time mark. hope it solves soon.

EDIT: ^^crap^^ such crap.

*pounces* i spy april, and kahlia

risenfromperdition 17-07-2010 11:33 AM

here if you want =]
if i dont reply its cuz im gonna try and get 4 hours sleep >.>

Doikers 17-07-2010 11:35 AM

Updated my R/V thread

http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum...80#post2335180

It's pretty pityful.

katnovia 17-07-2010 11:36 AM

will read mark. I dont ever mention mine, because i try not to read it. it scares me.

Doikers 17-07-2010 11:39 AM

Kat I'd be more than willing to read yours if you chose to mention it :) , My latest entry is crap though

katnovia 17-07-2010 11:46 AM

meep. link is on my sig.
I just wish i had something clever, intelligent, helpful, loving and supportive to say, but for some reason, i dont. I just cant think and i havn't been able to for months. where have i gone? I dont know me anymore.

Doikers 17-07-2010 11:56 AM

OOH I didn't spot your link , *Mental note to check it from time to time*
It's Okay Kat , you will get through this :) *Hug*

katnovia 17-07-2010 12:00 PM

I might think about mentioning updates and using it more often..i dont know. I just feel like i have nothing of worth to say. and if i do say **** then it stays in rv to be unread because it's not worth anyones time.
*hugs back* will i? I just feel like everything is falling apart.

PoisonedApple 17-07-2010 12:27 PM

*curls up in the ward for the night*

PoisonedApple 17-07-2010 12:49 PM

*pokes*
anyone around?

katnovia 17-07-2010 12:53 PM

*pokes back* I'm lurking around. how are you?

PoisonedApple 17-07-2010 12:59 PM

Trying to avoid myself.
How're you tonight?

katnovia 17-07-2010 01:07 PM

Meep. Dont know. dont care. *shrugs*

PoisonedApple 17-07-2010 01:11 PM

hmmm... dunno if thats better or worse than how i'm doing... *scratches head* though it isn't actively bad so i suppose that's a good part... *huggles*

PoisonedApple 17-07-2010 02:03 PM

*sigh* well its5am... i guess i'llgo lay down and try to sleep the urges and thoughts off...
*hugs everyone*

katnovia 17-07-2010 02:17 PM

*huggles back* *sniffles*

Strawberry.Bananas 17-07-2010 02:20 PM

Is anybody around? I need somebody to understand.

katnovia 17-07-2010 02:25 PM

i'm here, can i help?

Strawberry.Bananas 17-07-2010 02:36 PM

I'vehad a letter from my neurologist this morning. He wants me to have a blood test before my scan. I have a severe phobia of needles. I'm having a panic attack just thinking about it, and nobody understands. They're telling me to 'just do it' but I can't. And i don't know what to do.

katnovia 17-07-2010 03:02 PM

telling you to 'just do it' isn't very good advice or support, and I am sorry that is the response you are getting. Try not to think on it for the moment if you can, and try to calm down, a panic attack is the last thing you want right now. *cuddles if you can accept them*

shadowedsoul 17-07-2010 03:16 PM

Hmm think world war 3 about to kick off today lol. It's so funny and for once I havnt started it. =)


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