Alright sweetie, calm down. Is this a new habit (purging) or have you been doing it a while? And are you sure it's blood? I recently had a similar scare myself.

I don't do it often... maybe once every few weeks

Hmmm. I'm thinking it's probably not connected but you should probably talk to a professional (instead of a 24 year old psych major ;-)) if you're worried *hugs*

I sure hope its not connected

I do too. But like I said, it might not have even been blood... I hope you talk to someone about it though. *hugs*

I've got to go to bed... Have a 3 1/2 hour drive tomorrow morning... Woo-hoo...

Take care hun

hey amanda,

blood often does happen with purging, unfortunately, along with a host of other nasty things as well if u do it frequently and continuously.

how much blood was it? like, a little spot, or several drops? if it was a few drops i would go to a doctor to check you don't have a little tear in your throat or anything, and if it happens again DEFINITELY go to the doctor. better to be safe than sorry.

- wasn't meant to worry you too much hun :) just in a tell-it-like-it-is mood i guess.

night night ally. be good ;)

*peeps in*

welcome in erin!!!!

Hi everyone. Hope you're all doing okay this morning.
The crisis team stayed with me for a while last night and made me take my meds so that I'd fall asleep. I slept awfully, and I still feel exactly the same as I did last night. I'm really scared that I'm going to stab someone today. Seriously, the urge is way too strong.
The crisis team are coming over in ten minutes and I'm not going to work today. Wish me luck? x

I wish you all the luck in the world - but I also wish you strength to get you through this - you have to be strong right now Zowie and fight any urges you have - you should also tell the people that arrive just how bad the urges are - if they can understand you completely they will be in a better position to help you - don't hide from them.
Hugging you tight, xxx

good luck zowie!
please just carry on being strong and dont let beth take charge cos YOU can be in charge hunny!
hope u have an ok day.
i suggest eating chocolate and watching funny movies

My headache is gone and I frigging girl pains *whistles* instead >.< Men really don't know they're born :blink: Anyway....well when we're in the exam room we can't eat. Um like we do two sessions of two hours a day (kinda drives you crazy if you're tired) and in that you can't talk, listen to music, eat or drink =( Probs cus it's at a computer and like you could put your mp3 or whatever onto it and use files on there to cheat. Meh. Hopefully the exams I'll have at uni might be better =D I need painkillers and don't have any >.< Well the last one that was there I threw away....cus it brought memories back!! Guh. Silly Helen :pinch:

Hells - I am so glad I am past exams - I hated them and couldn't cope at all - 20 hours sounds a nightmare even if it is split up in 2 hour sessions - it sounds impossible to me - good luck to you - and think how good you will feel when it's done with. What do you want to do work wise - eventually?
Sorry about your pains - have you got a hot water bottle - that sometimes helps a bit - then curl up into a ball and chill as much as you can. Hope you feel a bit better soon.

Damn time difference:-( Zowie I hope it all went well for you sweetie. Please stay safe luv, let them help you *snuggles*

Helen, I think throwing away the pain meds was a good idea. It sucks not to have them now *massive hugs* but it was probably the right decision for you at the time.

I'm off to finish gathering my things for the weekend and then setting out. I'm not all that crazy about going home but Powwow will be fun and I do like the drive... Just me and my music for 3 1/2 hours...

Take care all

*waves to Erin and offers hugs and drinks around to everyone*

Zowie, I hope that things went alright with the crisis team today and that you were honest about how bad things are for you. I am glad that you were safe last night and that they were there with you. How are you doing?

Helen, am glad that your headache has subsided. The hot water bottle suggestion does help. Getting rid of those pain killers was for the best at the time, maybe get a small packet to help with this bout of period pain?

Ally, I hope you have a nice journey and enjoy Powwow. (What exactly is Powwow btw? lol)

How is everyone today?

I should be happy that my house is most likely coming off the market right? I'm the one who didn't want to move. I was the one who was hell bent on living here for ten years. But then I was the one who got used the idea and started getting excited (bit more than my mum tbh) and stuff. Now I just...don't know what's wrong with me. I think it's cus I've accepted it all now and I've been so angry at my dad about it...I've spoke loads and stuff. I have throughout all this still had that part that wanted to stay here. Ah well I'm glad we're staying here. I don't anyone else living in this house (other than fam obv) yet. So I'm happy I guess...

I'm back to being lightheaded from sleep deprivation. I hung out with a friend last night talking to her. I'm not sorry I did though.

Zowie, how are you doing?

Ally, have a safe trip over the mountains. Driving hung over is not good. Yes, I do know from experience. Sometime if everyone can stand a story, i'll tell y'all about it!

Helen, can you take a hot bath or better yet, a hot shower then turn the shower head to massage? My cramps hit me in my back below my waist though. Those exams sound brutal. Is that the normal thing for university where you are? Here at worst we have one final exam for every class and it only is maximum two hours, or three hours if it is a night class.

Chloe, as you said, I do too much. It is so I don't have to think though or at least as much.

I've only been up for a couple of hours and I'm already on my third diet pepsi. My vision is swimming. I need to close up the house too, the forecast is for another 100F/38C degree day.

I think I'll go close some windows and curl up next to my hubby and maybe I can doze for a bit.

Hugs to everyone!

I guess I could take a bath. I don't take them often because I like showers instead...I kinda have a small fear of baths now :| Just cus once....I tried to do something silly in it. But I much prefer showers now anyway, have before that happened. My cramps tend to hit my back if I'm at college because the amount of walking I do, but those are ok. It hits worse around just under my stomach, which is the right area I supoose :blush: The exam feels brutual. It takes it out of me. It's like last time...I couldn't stay awake some days....but had to try and do so. Even on nights I slept well, the exam made me wanna sleep. :doze: I dunno, most exams taken here are between 1 & 2 hours to my knowledge...it's just drama exams are assessed through a preformance and written paper I think. But that I could handle lol. I don't think we're allowed. I know rules are that no exam can go on longer in one day that 3 hours I think? But I think we get away with it because we break it to two sessions a day (lasting 2 hours each) and the fact there are other colleges doing this 20hr exam. Fortnately (and unfortnately) we're the last year to do this course as they're replacing this one YET again with an exciting new course....and they're involving my old school (and others...I think?) So yeah, thank gwad I'm not re-taking the exam I had in Jan, 20 hours on that too, that would kill me completly. But I can't wait cus Mon marks our last lesson (YESSSSSS!) and then after the exam (should hopefully finish on thurs/friday) and then I won't have to do IT ever again at my college anyway >.<

I'm just writing a longish post in my thread.

Helen i hope you are feeling better - i have period pains today and it sucks! So you defo have my sympathy *hugs* x

Zowie hope things are a bit better and you managed to tell the crisis team what was going on, its so hard to do but worth it so they can help you *hugs* you too hon x

I just want to curl up and sleep forever but feel so panicky and can't settle.

*snuggles Jo* Peroid pains are not needed!!!! WHY? Why do we have to have pains aswell? Obviously the fact we have to have them is not enough...

*hugs both Emmas, Jo, Zowie, Alex, Susan, Chloe, Carole, Ally, Katch, Jermery and anyone else I've forgotten*