hugs Amanda migraines are horrible, hate them.

i want to give up

*hugs back*
yeah... I am on meds for the migraines, suppose to prevent them, but they don't work.
I have another appointment with my headache specialist... but it's not until mid-January :-(
Why do you want to give up?

*hugs Amanda* I hate migraines as well.

I did get lots of cuddles in with her :) She will grow up fast indeed. :)

I'm sorry you're having a bad night sweetie :(

Am glad that such a cute little bub makes you smile Mamma Mia. Hugs are good for you especially from little ones. :)

Was doing okay until Ruth sang on x factor - Bon Jovi always was my first dance with my husband - totally set me off :(

Feeling totally rubbish.

*lots of hugs for everyone*

*hugs Mary Anne*

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Hugs?

I'm SO ****ING PISSED OFF.
Can I pm you Kahlia about it?

*hugs Lucy*

I'm feeling really bad right now. My youngest niece had her third birthday yesterday and her party was today. My parental units don't quite get the concept that I don't cope well with social situations. Too many people scare me and I shut down. I took my RYL sister along with me, but she has similar issues in that department. We only lasted about 10 minutes before bailing. It makes me feel like crap. Especially since .... no never mind. It doesn't matter anyway.

I hope you all are doing okay.

*leaves cuddles for everyone*

Thanks Amanda *hugs back*. x

Sorry haven't been around much over the past few days guys. I'll be around more soon enough, I hope.
*leaves hugs for everyone*

Kahlia its ok parents are hard to deal with I have that issue as you know. Being in contact with my dads family is scary for me am afriad they will leave me if they find out what goes on in my head, even though I love them so much.

"leaves hugs and a warm and cool drinks for everyone"

i am sorry you are feeling bad, i am not very good in amoungst a lot of people eaither i take a lot of panic attacks. you say especially since what...it does matter if there is something bother you, you might feel better once it is out. i am sorry your parents don't get the concept of you not like being in social situations, my mum just laughs at me and tells me to get on with it.

leaves hugs for everyone.

just checking in

*hugs and blankets for all* (it is well below freezing here)

x

it's cold here as well, i might just takes the blanket thanks

how is everyone?

Kahlia. I was on Aripiprazole which did nothing for me, Olanzapine PRN which made me gain loads of weight and am now on Risperidone (was on 6mg and am now on 3).
It would be so much better if it is true that they use PDs as a catch all. I am just so worried that they think I'm lying, and that really upsets me.



I'm feeling really ****. Am about to make a post about it if anyone cares xxxx

Hmmmm ariprprazole did nothing for me either and I most definitely cannot take risperidone. I'm quite lucky in the sense that I'm still losing weight even though I'm on olanzapine. My biggest concern with it is that it will give me tardive dyskenisea (excuse the bad spelling). I put on a lot of weight due to the risperidone and several other AP medications so I know where you are coming from. It's kind of hard for me to deal with it because I was underweight when I started certain medications and went from a size 8 to a size 18 pretty much overnight.
*hugs zowie* The hospital here was trying to label me BPD which is their catch all but 3 separate private psychiatrists categorised me as schizoaffective bipolar type. I hope that they don't think you are lying. I don't think you are lying .... if that helps in any way. Sometimes Doctors get way too much of a God complex and start trying to tell you what you think and feel.

*hugs everyone and leaves blankets for those in cold place, and fans for those in the warm places (like here in the wonderful (cough, cough) tropics)*

Hey.
Pomegranit thanks for the hug but please not anothing one.
How are you doing helen?

Yesterday was a long waste of time...although i did realise how useless i am.

You are NOT useless Marc!!!!

I'm not doing too great, but trying to be ok. x

*cuddles Helen*

I'm here and I'm alive. What more does anyone want? Oh, I'm also sweltering my way through a warm day. Last night I actually had my first sleep since moving in here and awoke with a pain in my spine. This is quite normal for me when I'm sleeping on a bed that I'm not used to. However, I got some pretty strong pain killers and took one. They've knocked the pain for six which is quite pleasant.

I also had some trouble with auditory hallucinations earlier and have taken my last PRN tablet. I'm going to ask my pdoc for a script with no repeats and an allowance of up to two a day. Hopefully he says it's okay.

*wakes around the room giving hugs to those who want and/or need them, then steals away into a corner with her textbook*

*Cuddles everyone*

I wish I could just stop eating for once.

*cuddles zowie* : I know what you mean. I'm having that kind of issue as well, and so is my RYL sister. I hope you manage to get through it.

Hope everyone is doing okay ... at least managing to get by.

*hugs everyone who wants/needs/can accept hugs*

*cuddles everyone*

Having another bad day. Been having panic attacks ever since before I went to bed at like 4.30am and since I've woken up. As a result I've got a bad headache & my chest is hurting and my breathing keeps ****ing up. Am trying to get through a minute/5 minutes at a time today. Because I just need to TRY to cope.

Have decided on a few things that I'm going to do todayl, some of it relating to uni.

Helen : Whoa I hate panic attacks, especially when they just seem to never stop. I hope that you are recovering from them okay. I am glad that you have managed to decide on a bit of a plan for the day. *big hugs*

*big hugs*

I hate them. Haven't had them for a while and then I had one crop up the other week. But seriously, this is bad =\

At home again today, feeling low, car has broken down so I can't even go for a drive to a pretty place.

Nervous about going to work tomorrow - have to have a 'back to work' meeting - I hate them, everyone pretends they want to help but you are at work - you are there to work - not to be looked after :(

Helen : I hope they start to improve. *holds you tight*

Mary Anne : Both mouse in darkness and myself understand where you are coming from. "Return to work" meetings can be painful. We hope that things go well for you though.

Thanks sweetie *hugs lots*

*sigh* I honestly don't know if I'm ok or not right now. Just got a text from a mate, saying he's in a&e but that he's ok. Scared for him. But, the thing is... this is the guy everyone thinks is a sociopath, so... I don't know what to believe at the moment.

Zowie i can understand about the eating thing. I had a whole thing of pringles in about 20mins on sat!

Thanks bound, How are you doing?

Auburn I think i have missed you talking about this friend before, I am sure he isnt a sociopath and hope he is ok.

I don't think I can be strong anymore.

This is **** it is all **** but i cant do anything yet its **** and not fair.

Remember what I said in chat.
Please dont.
:(
x

just checking in, brings lots of hot chocolate for everyone.
no real problems just in that slightly fragile mood, work was terrible today i ****ed up a lot and my suspicions about a fellow colleague's SI were closer to being confirmed which worries me and im still shaky when i think about cleaning up and dressing his last "accident".

(8) I feel lousey nah nah nah nah nahhhh nahhhh(8)

You're not allowed to feel lousy on this special day :P

What's up???????

I make people feel bad and **** and lousey.

I met my ex the other day....I miss him.
I REALLY want to get back together.
But he could have anyone...why would he choose me?

My throat hurts.

I started smoking again...coz it was either that or cut.

*cuddles alexx*

*offers hugs to all who want/need/can accept them*

I feel like I'm a burden on everyone. I just want to end things .... to get away from everybody. I don't want to be here and holding every person that I meet back. I'm sorry.

*lies down on the bed.*
Ahh.

*hugs all who want/need/can accept*

*sigh* Counselling in just under an hour. I was looking forward to it, strangely, because it helps, but now, I'm dreading having to talk about things, and I'm not entirely sure why.

I'll let you guys know how it goes when I return. Could be some time, last session lasted about 4 hours... eek.

Dont worry I can't do anything at the moment anyway.

Am still pretty down but am still around...that somthing?

*cuddles on Kahlia* You are NOT leaving and you NOT a burden. Trust me sweetie. <3

*jumps on Aimee* You ok babe?

*cuddles tight* I know you've been there for nearly an hour or so, hope it's going okay and it isn't as mad/intense as last time, will text you about 3.40ish

I'm glad you can't, just don't it at all please?? *cuddles* I know it's WELL hard but it will get better, people love you.xx


Me...? Well I'm still struggling and have had a panic attack and no doubt have one soon, but am feeling great about being 6 months. Today's been...emotional. I mean I've had to talk about Stef with my notetaker, but it helped and stuff. Then went & saw Heather, now that was um helpful I guess. Plus...got counselling in 15 minutes, getting REALLY nervous and I hope she hasn't given my slot to someone else, which is a possibility.

>.<

*cuddles everyone*

Right, just got back in, thought I'd drop off a load of hugs for you guys. Gotta head out for food and that lot, so don't have time to update on the counselling session until I get back.

Hells, I'll text you back soon. ly lots hun. take care. You know where I am if you wanna talk. *huge huggles*

can i still stay in here?

Anyone is welcome here.

Giveing wishes to all who are around.