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havealittlefaith 21-01-2014 10:16 PM

And I find myself in here again as my real feelings are all messed up and I'm utterly sad and the drink doesn't make it stop only hurt more but it does for a while and I narrowly avoided section and how id love illegal substances so I'm in here looking for some reassurance and non judgement and trying not to hurt ....

YodaBearInterrupted 23-01-2014 03:55 AM

I am going to hide in here again... I had a good 5 days but now I am crashing again...

Kahlia1981 23-01-2014 05:47 AM

Mark: Thanks for the glomps *glomps back*

Matt: At least you did have 5 good days. *offers blankets and pillows*

bpd_crayon: It sounds like things have been intense. Feel free to let your hair down and your emotions show. I hope you'll find this a safe place without judgement.

m0nk 24-01-2014 09:38 PM

i've occationally stopped eating. i think these meds do me too good.
i had a blood sample test and if its comes out good the doctor might take me down 5Mg.
and he said that im doing so well on them that he almost dont dares to reduce them.
its going better but still there's something that lingers. i've been over all that about self harming and worse but i didnt think much of it. other than that i might use it later as a last option. although my head is strongly rotating from it. i dont drink i dont hit myself i bore the crap out of me sometimes. although still no friends.

Frodre 25-01-2014 03:27 AM

Pardon me, I just need to have a minor explosion in the corner and then leave...

I am so damn happy. I'm tired and looking forward to sleep but I can't because I want to run around outside pretending to be some sort of superhero instead, and it's really difficult to stop myself. Eight hours ago I wanted to curl up and die, four hours ago I was pacing around talking with voices telling me things and seeing non-existent blood on my floor, and now I'm just about ready to take on the universe and am almost convinced that if I open my door I'll be emperor of the world in two days flat. I'm desperate to calm dwn and go to bed just because if I go anywhere I risk trying to shag the first person I meet just because I feel like I can, and that'll be frightening for both of us because that is not like me at all. I'm not sure if it was better yesterday when I felt so down that I curled up still and didn't so much as twitch for about two hours. At least self harm or miserableness or whatever is something I know how to deal with. I feel like my chest is going to explode with excitement at nothing at all. I have to tell someone how good I am. But I don't want to because then they'll think I'm a fruitcake. Right I'd better go and lie down and force myself not to move even if it makes my eyes water. Thanks.

YodaBearInterrupted 28-01-2014 06:15 PM

Having a rough morning after an unsafe overnight :(

*hides in the corner*

Serialangel 03-02-2014 02:35 AM

I need somewhere quiet to sleep for a bit. *grabs some duvets and pillows, falls to sleep* thank you

YodaBearInterrupted 03-02-2014 08:15 AM

*hides under the blanket*

Unsafe so I did bad things... sigh... this isn't a good week for me either coming up

m0nk 03-02-2014 04:22 PM

trouble with financial. payment demand notice of debt collection. just cause they post people didnt manage to deliver in time.
i always take good care of my bills. 1 time i had someone cleaning and they got thrown away by mistake cause the envelopes looked empty since i just open them without any letter opener.
2 big days coming up. 2 year aniversary with gf and valentines day. so tired cant sleep during nights.
i just "haaaave to" sit with the computer. even if it staring into the screen or just fidling around with solitaire. getting fiber soon 50\50 mbit
listening to enigma atm. it calms me down...

LizzieRose 04-02-2014 01:55 PM

*locks self away* Nopenopenopenopenope.

m0nk 04-02-2014 06:24 PM

*hugs alexia*

YodaBearInterrupted 05-02-2014 06:22 PM

I am going to hide in here before it gets even worse. I am tired of the betrayals, the lies. They were right once again. Sigh... I just want to go someplace and disappear forever so I don't have to hurt myself over and over

Frodre 06-02-2014 01:19 AM

Inarticulably miserable. I feel like I'm going away.

LizzieRose 06-02-2014 02:21 PM

I dunno if I'm coping or just bottling it up... Scared I'm bottling it up... Bad things happen when I do...

Kahlia1981 08-02-2014 05:11 AM

I've been pushing current events away from me but now need to come full circle and allow myself to feel. Here I can be safe and let both my feelings and my inners show. And yet, I can't. Right now I'm just going to curl up in the corner with my blankets and pillows and allow the tears to fall.

Frodre 10-02-2014 11:25 PM

Depression is almost physically painful. I can't actually feel anything, but I can barely function for the need to curl up wimpering on the floor or hunch up gasping as though I've been stabbed. I'd give anything to be able to cry right now.

Frodre 10-02-2014 11:33 PM


Originally Posted by Frodre (Post 3727597)
I was pacing around talking with voices telling me things and seeing non-existent blood on my floor ... At least self harm or miserableness or whatever is something I know how to deal with.

And I'd give anything to know how I felt on this day. Because now I'm here, I don't know what to do. I'm all alone, and the only blood on my carpet is real.

m0nk 17-02-2014 09:12 PM

my gf lost or misplaced her necklace. im about to implode my brain out of sadness. ;;(

m0nk 19-02-2014 01:58 AM

found it!!!!!! :D:D

m0nk 25-02-2014 05:59 PM

is the wardies doing ok?

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