We chatted a bit , she didn't want our last appointment for a year to be a full blown session , We said goodbye , She gave me a Christmas card and I gave her a New Baby card , We said Happy holidays , she told me not to give up fighting and we hugged goodbye , I did get to tell her I'll miss her :) which is good .
21-12-2010 02:13 PM
That's good mark. Glad you had a good last appointment for a year.
-hugs mark and helen-
I think I'm going to head out for the night (morning rather it is 5:11 am after all) my eyes are getting heavier now and I can't focus on the screen anymore. Hope you all have a good day. PM me if you need to. xx
21-12-2010 02:14 PM
Kitty , be careful Hun , You don't want to take too many sleeping pills .
21-12-2010 02:15 PM
*Hugs Kitty* Sleep well :)
21-12-2010 02:18 PM
Sleep well Kitty *hugs*
Mark *hugs* Awww that's so sweet x
21-12-2010 02:26 PM
That's lovely, Mark.
Sleep well, Kitty.
How are you today, Helen?
21-12-2010 03:03 PM
I'm rather excited today Lindsay, how re you?
21-12-2010 04:02 PM
You know, I feel so much better about feeling depressed and this life since I read somewhere that depression is like 'a dementor following you around everywhere and wearing a horcrux around your neck that tells you you're worthless'. I can certainly relate to that part, and it's like there's a dementor here right now, although I should be happy about Christmas and all. I also found out JK (Rowling) suffered with depression. That shouldn't make me feel better but it does. I feel like there's a horcrux in me. There's this badness that I can't shake.
You alright Lindey?
Good Helen :) What you excited about?
I'm glad you got your goodbye Mark :) That can make things so much easier.
Kitty, Helen's right, I lost someone. I don't feel it like I should, not even now, 5 months on. There's no right or wrong way to feel.
*Hugs all again*
21-12-2010 04:33 PM
*Hugs Lia* I'm a Bit dense when it comes to HP But thats a good analogy . How are you , Dementor and Horcrux and all?
21-12-2010 04:47 PM
Well aside from my pesky dementor and unshakable horcrux, I'm alright. I went on a hotline last night and they calmed me down. By the end of the conversation I had put down the pills and stopped considering OD at any rate. I've just spent the past half an hour on JK's website. Time well spent.
How are you Mark?
21-12-2010 04:53 PM
Thats good that you got some help Lia :) Time well spent , neat.
I'm numb , considering going to bed just to lay there for 20 minites , I'm sick of being numb and sick of feeling the NEED to S.I. but I am feeling better , not Fantastic , not even good but my mood has picked up yesterday and today , which is something to look upon as a good thing I suppose :) *Tries to be positive*
21-12-2010 05:39 PM
*Hugs Mark* Glad you're feeling at least slightly better. I was comforted in the fact that JK suffered from depression, because she's really successful now, so it can be overcome :)
21-12-2010 05:42 PM
That is good to know .Depression can be overcome *Hugs Lia*
21-12-2010 05:46 PM
I'll actually read posts once I wake up a bit, and shake off my nightmare.
Just wanted to pop in and say hi... so.. hi!
21-12-2010 05:52 PM
*Hugs Felicia* I'm sorry you had a nightmare hun *Puts on the kettle for coffee to help you wake up*
21-12-2010 06:02 PM
*Hugs Felicia.* Nightmare suck. I had one last night.
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I needed to go into the bathroom, it might have been nighttime, I can't remember. And I pushed open the door, carefully because I thought the Woman in Black might be in there or something, and this man climbed through the window. In the dream, I recognised him, I knew who he was, but I can't remember now, and he was going to hurt me, like, that type of hurt me. I couldn't fight him, not at all, it was as if I had lost all of my strength. I couldn't even run. I tried to call out, but I barely made a sound. The dream only lasted like a second before I woke up, but I remember being so scared. I couldn't do anything.
21-12-2010 06:05 PM
Thanks, Mark. Nightmares happen though. I'll be okay.
I need to go to the post office, but I can't get down my road. damn.
So instead I'm going to watch tv, and wish for millions of things.
21-12-2010 06:13 PM
Oh Lia *Hugs* That sounds horrible , I'm sorry you had that nightmare :(
21-12-2010 06:28 PM
It's kinda hard to shift from my mind, but I wrote it in my diary. Hopefully I can shake it soon. Still, on the bright side it was morning when I woke up so I didn't have to go back to sleep.