That's right!
Deliverance of my heart
Please strike!
Make it quick now

I'm trying to hold it together
Head is lighter than a feather
Looks like I'm not getting better
Not getting better

Wait, I'm coming undone
Irate, I'm coming undone
Too late, I'm coming undone
One looks so strong, so delicate

Wait, I'm starting to suffocate
And soon I anticipate
I'm coming undone
One looks so strong, so delicate

There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you. Will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face?
And will you never try to reach me?
It is I that wanted space

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

I sound
Like I can never seem to escape
All the laughing, all the pain
If you were me, what would you do?
Nothing probably
You'd just throw me away

Hello Darkness my old friend,
I've come to talk with you again,
Because a vision softly creeping,
Left its seeds while I was sleeping,
And the vision,
that was planted in my brain,

Still remains,
Within the sound of silence.

Fallen angels at my feet,
Whispered voices at my ear,
Death before my eyes,
Lying next to me I fear.
She beckons me,
Shall I give in?
Upon my end shall I begin?
Forsaking all I've fallen for...

Sucker love is heaven sent
Pucker up our passion's spent
My heart's a tart
your body's rent
My body's broken
Yours is bent.
Carved your name
Into my arm
Instead of stressed
I lie here charmed.

I wish that I could tell you something
To take it all away.

Sometimes I wish I could save you,
And there's so many things that I want you to know.

If it takes you forever, I want you to know that
If you fall, stumble down, I'll pick you up
Off the ground.
If you lose faith in you, I'll give you strength
To pull through.
Tell me you won't give up,
'Cause I'll be waiting if you fall.
You know I'll be there for you.

Sometimes I wish I could save you...

i'm not a princess, this aint a fairytale

I don't need no arms around me
I don't need no drugs to calm me
I have seen the writing on the wall
Don't think I need anything at all
No, don't think I need anything at all

To resurrect ourselves, we disembowel our saints.
We never underestimate the destructive power of change.

We find another way.
We dream up stupid **** to while away our days.
There's time for everything.
We're always searching for what's wrong.

No. Never. It's all wrong now.
No. Never.
It's all wrong in my heart.
(soothe me, lover -- left me nowhere)

We dance around the wire,
a bunch of piranhas.
We dress ourselves in words,
armed and overheard.
We're always searching for what's wrong.

No. Never. It's all gone now.
No. Never.
It's all wrong in my heart.
(soothe me, lover -- left me nowhere)

Don't - try to be the one - person
Who has stayed - Just to say
They never left me!
Aggravated, complicated, someone say it
God, I never learn..

Most of the songs/poems I have written are old. I kind of hit a writer's block when my life didn't seem to change and improve.
http://www.charmingravage.com - that is a link to my website. I produce and DJ and do a bunch of stuff for charities. If you go to the section that says Tracks there is a link to a place called "Lesbian Chat Zone" and I have a blog there. If you have time check it out. It's not very happy writing, but I don't like to live in sorrow. I am just kind of waiting until life gives me something other than heartbreak to write about.
:)

(falling away from me)
It's spinning round and round
(falling away from me)
It's lost and can't be found
(falling away from me)
It's spinning round and round
(falling away from me)
Slow it down

Life's falling away from me,
Its falling away from me,
Life's falling away from me, ****!

I hold these scars in remembrance
Loss of blood for my arrogance
Hold out my hands for deliverance.

What do I have to do?
Why can't this hurt be through?
I'm going head-on to something
I know I will fail
Why can't this kiss be true?
Why won't you please let me through?
I don't understand why you always push me away

I feel the blood drip off my body
As it pours right there
On the Ground
What am I now?
What am I now?
What am I now?

I don't know why
You want to follow me tonight
When the rest of the world
With whom I've crossed and I've quarreled
Lets me down so
For a thousand reasons that I know
To share forever the unrest
With all the demons I possess
Beneath the silver moon

I don't want to fight
I'm tired of being sorry

I've trashed myself - I've lost my way
I've got to get to you ...

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"There's something in my head, I can't get off my mind,
Since you've been gone it's raining all the time."

This ruined puzzle is beige, with the pieces all face down so the placing goes slowly.
The picture's of anything other than it's meant to be.
But the hours they creep, the patterns repeat.
Don't be concerned, you know I'll be fine on my own.
I never said "don't go."

I've hidden a note.
It's pressed between pages that you've marked to find your way back.
It says, "Does he ever get the girl?"
But what if the pages stay pressed, the chapters unfinished, the story's too dull to unfold?
Does he ever get the girl?

One step up. Two steps back.

I'm a little bit tired of fearing that I'll be the bad fruit nobody buys.
Tell me did you think we'd all dream the same?

And doesn't it sound familiar, doesn't it hit too close to home, doesn't it make you shiver, the way things could have gone?
And doesn't it feel peculiar, when everyone wants a little more? So that I do remember, could you leave me with a scar? Could you leave me with a scar?

Darkness, imprisoning me
All that I see
Absolute horror
I cannot live
I cannot die
Trapped in myself
Body my holding cell.

I hardly recognize the girl you are today
And God I hope it's not too late

I waited for you
I died inside my own head
And I'd die again for you
I'm faded and tired
Completely uninspired
And I'd die again for you

So kill me with the love
That you won't give to me, give to me
And pack the wound with salt
I wanna feel it bleed, feel it bleed
Ooh

I'm searching for reasons
To keep away the demons
And I'd die again for you
I wish you were near me
Could feel it when you hear me say
I'd die again for you

Why's it always have to be me
That's always left out to burn? And
I'll never learn.
Why's it always have to be me
That's always left out to burn? And
I'll never learn...

I wipe it off on a tile, the light is brighter this time
Everything is turning blasphemy
My eyes are red and gold, the hair is standing straight up
This is not the way I picture me

I can't control my shakes, how the hell did I get here?
Something about this, so very wrong
I have to laugh out loud, I wish I didn't like this
Is it a dream or a memory?

I've felt the hate rise up in me
Kneel down and clear the stone of leaves
I wander out where you can't see
Inside my shell, I wait and bleed

If I lay here..
If I just lay here..
Will you lie with me..
and just forgot the world

I don't quite know...
how to say...
how i feel...

Dear, I thought I'd drop a line.
The weather's cool. The folks are fine.
I'm in bed each night at nine.
P.S. I love you.

I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
You could cut ties with all the lies that you've been living in
And if you do not want to see me again
I would understand, I would understand

The angry boy, a bit too insane
Icing over a secret pain
You know you don't belong
You're the first to fight, you're way too loud
You're the flash of light on a burial shroud
I know something's wrong
Well everyone I know has got a reason to say
Put the past away

I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
You could cut ties with all the lies that you've been living in
And if you do not want to see me again
I would understand, I would understand

We'll he's on the table and he's gone to code
And I do not think anyone knows what they are doing here
And your friends have left too, you've been dismissed
I never thought it would come to this
And I, I want you to know
Everyone's got to face down the demons
Maybe today, we can put the past away

I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
You could cut ties with all the lies that you've been living in
And if you do not want to see me again
I would understand, I would understand, I would understand

(I would understand, I would understand...)

Can you put the past away
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
I would understand
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
I would understand
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
And I would understand
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
I would understand
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
And I would understand

It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word

And then that word grew louder and louder
'Til it was a battle cry

I'll come back
When you call me
No need to say goodbye

Just because everything's changing
Doesn't mean it's never
Been this way before

All you can do is try to know
Who your friends are
As you head off to the war

Pick a star on the dark horizon
And follow the light

You'll come back
When it's over
No need to say good bye

You'll come back
When it's over
No need to say good bye

Now we're back to the beginning
It's just a feeling and no one knows yet
But just because they can't feel it too
Doesn't mean that you have to forget

Let your memories grow stronger and stronger
'Til they're before your eyes

You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say good bye

You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say good bye

Now she hasn't slept in weeks.
She don't wanna close her eyes cuz she's scared that he'll leave.
They've tried just about everything.
But it's getting harder now for him to breathe.
And she said, "Daddy, Daddy don't leave."
"I'll do anything to keep you right here with me."
"Can't you see how much I need you."
"Daddy, Daddy don't leave."
"The doctors are saying things they don't mean."
"They don't know what they're talking about."
Somebody hear me out.
Father, listen.
Tell him that he's got a home and he don't have to go.
Father, save him.
I would do anything in return.
I'll clean my room, try hard in school.
I'll be good, I promise you.
Father, Father, I pray to you.
Please don't let him go.
I'm begging you so.
Let him open his eyes.
Need a little more time.
To tell him that I love him more than anything in the world.
It's daddy's little girl.

Night! So I play.
Give me a sign, this is day.
Give me some patience, so I pray.
It's time to die. Is that what I want?

All we ever wanted was to look good naked
Hope that someone could take it

Jon: I hate you!
Fred: and you hate me!
Jon: You know what, you know what?
Both: It's all in the family

Jon: And I hate you
Fred: and you hate me
Jon: you know what, you know what?
Both: It’s all in my family

Broken
Lifehouse

The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time
I am here still waiting though I still have my doubts
I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain there is healing
In your name I find meaning

The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead
And I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for purpose, they're still looking for life

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain is the healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm hangin' on another day
Just to see what you will throw my way
And I'm hangin' on to the words you say
You said that I will, will be ok

The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone
I may have lost my way now, having forgot my way home

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain is there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on

"You And Me" Lifehouse

What day is it? And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

'Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

One of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words
You've got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

'Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

There's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right

'Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
and me and all other people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

What day is it?
And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive

Come Home, OneRepublic

Hello world
Hope you're listening
Forgive me if I’m young
For speaking out of turn
There’s someone I’ve been missing
I think that they could be
The better half of me
They’re in the wrong place trying to make it right
But I’m tired of justifying
So i say you’ll..


Come home
Come home
Cause I’ve been waiting for you
For so long
For so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all i see is you and me
The fight for you is all I’ve ever known
So come home
Oh


I get lost in the beauty
Of everything i see
The world ain’t as half as bad
As they paint it to be
If all the sons
If all the daughters
Stopped to take it in
Well hopefully the hate subsides and the love can begin
It might start now..Yeahh
Well maybe I’m just dreaming out loud
Until then


Come home
Come home
Cause I’ve been waiting for you
For so long
For so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all i see is you and me
The fight for you is all I’ve ever known
Ever known
So come home
Oh


Everything i can’t be
Is everything you should be
And that’s why i need you here
Everything i can’t be
Is everything you should be
And that’s why i need you here
So hear this now

Come home
Come home
Cause I’ve been waiting for you
For so long
For so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all i see is you and me
The fight for you is all I’ve ever known
Ever known
So come home
Come home

In this world you tried,
Not leaving me alone behind.
There's no other way,
I pray to the gods let him stay.
The memories ease the pain inside,
And now I know why.

All of my memories keep you near.
In silent moments,
Imagining you here.
All of my memories keep you near,
In silent whispers, silent tears

Made me promise I'd try,
To find my way back in this life.
Hope there is a way,
To give me a sign you're okay.
Reminds me again it's worth it all,
So I can go home.

All of my memories keep you near.
In silent moments,
Imagining you here.
All of my memories keep you near.
In silent whispers, silent tears.

Together in all these memories,
I see your smile.
All of the memories I hold dear.
Darling you know I'll love you,
Til the end of time.

All of my memories keep you near
In silent moments,
Imagining you here.
All of my memories keep you near,
In silent whispers, silent tears.

All of my memories...

Ich sehe was, was du nicht siehst (I see something you don't see)
когда ты ночью крепко спишь (When you sleep deeply at night)
Ich sehe was, was du nicht siehst (I see something you don't see)
когда ты предо мной лежишь (When you lie before me)
Ich sehe was, was du nicht siehst (I see something you don't see)
когда со мною говоришь (When you talk with me)
Ich sehe was, das siehst du nie (I see something that you'll never see)

Once I give in, what can I fight?
I can never win, my self I don't like,
I don't like, I don't like, I don't like.
Something is calling, I can't keep from falling.

Do as I say not as I do because
The ****'s so deep you can't run away
I beg to differ on the contrary
I agree with every word that you say
Talk is cheap and lies are expensive
My wallet's fat and so is my head
Hit and run and then I'll hit you again
I'm a smart ass but I'm playing dumb

Standards set and broken all the time
Control the chaos behind a gun
Call it as I see it even if
I was born deaf, blind and dumb
Losers winning big on the lottery
Rehab rejects still sniffing glue
Constant refutation with myself
I'm a victim of a catch 22

I have no belief
But I believe
I'm a walking contradiction
And I ain't got no right

Do as I say not as I do because
The ****'s so deep you can't run away
I beg to differ on the contrary
I agree with every word that you say
Talk is cheap and lies are expensive
My wallet's fat and so is my head
Hit and run and then I'll hit you again
I'm a smart ass but I'm playing dumb

I have no belief
But I believe
I'm a walking contradiction
And I ain't got no right

I have no belief
But I believe
I'm a walking contradiction
And I ain't got no right

Welcome we love you
We hate you
We love you
We want you
We need you
We wish we were like you
They say you're a saint
You're a whore
You're a sinner
That he had you
He made you
He can't live without you.

Would you confess if we asked
That you nurture the urge
To declare that it's time
To settle down
With a man of your own
You want a baby
A family
A piece of security

Shut your mouth
Try not to panic
Just shut your mouth
If you can do it

Shut your mouth
Try not to panic
Just shut your mouth
If you can do it
Just shut your mouth

What's your opinion on the dire situation
In our land here
Our guest here
Of course you'll be nice here
How do you feel about god and religion
Are you good people
Bad people
Guess it doesn't matter people.

Your place
My place
Make her bring that famous face
You got some
You want some
You wanna let me get you some
We know your music but of course we'd never buy it
It's too fake man
Right man!
(We don't give a ****ING DAMN!)

Shut your mouth
Try not to panic
Just shut your mouth
If you can do it

Shut your mouth
Try not to panic
Just shut your mouth
If you can do it

I hear you say it
Play it smart girl
Win the game love
Give 'em what they want
What they want to see and you could be a big star
You could go far
Make a landmark
What have you been reading you smart girl?
Win the game love
Give 'em what they want
What they want to see and you could be a big star
You could go far
Make a landmark
Make a **** load.

And the world spins by
With everybody moaning
Pissing, bitching and everyone is shitting
On their friends
On their love
On their oaths
On their honor
On their graves
Out their mouths
And their words say nothing

Shut your mouth
Try not to panic
Just shut your mouth
If you can do it

Shut your mouth
Try not to panic
Just shut your mouth
If you can do it
Just shut your mouth

I waited to say something
Oh shut your mouth
I wanted to say something
Just shut your mouth
I waited to say something
Oh shut your mouth
I wanted to be something
Just shut your mouth

Suicide, I've already died
You're just the funeral I've been waiting for
Cyanide, living dead inside
Break this empty shell forevermore

Forevermore!
Forevermore!
It's just the funeral I've been waiting for!

Emptiness is filling me
To the point of agony
Growing darkness taking dawn
I was me, but now he's gone

No one but me can save myself, but it's too late
Now I can't think, think why I should even try

Yesterday seems as though it never existed
Death greets me warm, now I will just say goodbye, *Goodbye*

When I think more than I want to think, I do things I never should do. I drink much more than I ought to drink, because it brings me back you...

Life's gotta always be messing with me (You wanna see the light)
Can't they chill and let me be free (So do I)
Can't I take away all this pain (You wanna see the light)
I try to every night, all in vain...in vain

I've cut out the bits that don't apply to how I'm feeling lol

"She's upset
Bad day
Heads for the dresser drawer
To drive her pain away.
Nothing good can come of this.

Then she closed her eyes
And found relief in a knife
The blood flows as she cries.

All alone the way she feels
Left alone to deal with all the pain-drenched sorrow relief
Bite the lip just forget the bleeding.

Then she closed her eyes
And found relief in a knife
The blood flows as she cries
Wooah oh
Then she closed her eyes
And found relief in a knife
The blood flows as she cries.

Curled up,
She's on the floor.
The relief left her...
She had hoped for something more
From it
Hoped for something more
From it"

"The deeper you cut
The deeper I hurt
The deeper you cut
It only gets worse"