Because i'm in the middle of getting a new kitchen fitted and they want to know how it's progressing. They are more interested in it than they are in how i'm feeling.

Oh FFS Lindsay , can you not say "I need some support , please help" Sounds like a **** support network you have there.

*hugs Mark, Laura, Lindsay*
thanks for the offer(s)... i don't know what to say and even if i did i don't want to trigger or worry anybody.

*Hugs Crimson*

*hugs mark* i will be all over the UK actually. London, Salisbury, Bath, Chester, Edinburgh, and York. I'm excited :-) How r u doing?

*hugs lindsay* i agree with mark, it's ridiculous that they aren't asking you about you. i'm sorry they aren't helpful.

*hugs crimson* wish i knew what to say hun. if you change your mind and want to talk though, i am around.

Laura, I absolutely loved Edinburgh. It may have been my favorite place I visited, although London is fun... after you learn how not to get lost lol. Have fun!
*hugs Lindsay* I wish your crisis team was more helpful.
*hugs Crimson* My PM box is always open. And I practically live on Facebook, so if you want to talk you know where I am.
*hugs Mark* I know you know this, but I love you.

*sits in the corner* I need to be functional. You know, like maybe actually get dressed, and shower, and give a **** about appearing like I care about myself. Hah.

*hugs Laura and Felicia and Mark and Oliver*

*hugs all*
sorry I havn't been around much over the last week, I've been busy with my mum and sister. I've had a good time with them, but I'm feeling really depressed and suicidal still, also been really paranoid everytime we have left the flat and that makes me really anxious.

*Hugs Oliver* Sorry your feeling low and suicidal.

*Hugs Mark* I'm sorry your not feeling great and that you feel low. I hope you feel better soon

*Hugs Lindsay* Sorry your struggling

*Hugs Laura* How are you?

*Hugs Jill*

*Hugs Louise*

*Hugs Felicia* How are you?

*Hugs Crimson*

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Felicia* I love you too :)

*Hugs Crimson*

*Hugs Oliver*

*Hugs Ian*

Hello again all.

*hugs the oldies* and *waves at anyone new since I last was here*
It's utter madness here right now.... second week of uni and at least two study days a week are written off which doesn't really help with the stress. Not to mention the wedding planning and so forth. Things have just been going on going on.

My psych doc wants me to go through ECT again because he thinks they will get a second shot at my meds that way.... I hesitate to tell him that it would be a third shot, but I'm quite willing to inform him that there will be no ECT. It could be quite an interesting fight...

Sorry for boring you all and being away so long. I do try to come in when I remember, but my brain is a bit uni-orientated at the moment.

Either way I am sending you all *hugs* and *safe love and care packages*.

Take care of each other.

*Hugs Kahlia* Wow that all sounds very stressful :S

*hugs Mark* - it definitely is extremely stressful at the moment. We just keep getting knocked down when we are trying to get ourselves back on our feet. It would be really great to get a break sometime.

I miss Felicia Terribly.
I still have a sore throat that woke me at 3.45am this morning .
My Best Friend has been having suicidal thoughts.
and
MY chillis were stolen by the new neighbour kids , right off the plant out front , I've been looking after that plant for months , and it may not even fruit again as they politley snapped it , very pissed off , going to lie down.

hugs everyone

*Hugs Louise* How are you hun?

so so - how are you

*hugs everyone*

My brother is staying at a friend's house this weekend which gives me the perfect opportunity to overdose. I can't wait. I just hope that nothing goes wrong and I don't need medical attention.

*Hugs Louise*

*Hugs Lindsay* Be careful hun............:S

I'm thinking about phoning Breathing Space but don't know if I have the courage to do it.