I'm 19, 20 in November. What I'm doing is essentially the last two years of high school. Then I'll either get to repeat the second year if my score wasn't good enough or go to uni. yay. I think.
I read over your r/v too. *hugs* Sorry I don't have too much to say. I didn't sleep too well and my brains not working. I did want to say that I know how you feel with not being able to get rid of the blades. I can't manage it either. :(

Thanks Lia. I do actually like the lessons and I've made a few good friends this year but I'm struggling to concentrate to any extent at all, especially outside of class, which means that I'm not getting the best marks which is causing stress and major dissapointment. It seems I'd rather panic then get work done.
Getting my sleeves wet has actually been a rather annoying issue. :P I've had to wait until my housemate goes to work to do the washing up, and he works strange hours.
And it was good of you to open up too. *cuddles* I'm here if you ever want to talk.

Sorry about the lack of replies to everyone else. It's taken me an hour just to read over stuff and make this reply. *hugs and stuffs to everyone*

im 21 i swear ;]

Being 21 doesn't mean you can't love kids movies ... otherwise I'm screwed because I'm almost 29 and I l-o-v-e kids movies

hmmm, although the guy the gave me to pretend to be my psychologist so that the HQCC would think they were trying to "help" me when they weren't told me I only liked kids movies because I never had a childhood. I said then how come most adults liked Shrek??

Thanks April would you believe me if I sad nothing was wrong? or would you know I'm talking rubbish when I say that. The answer proberly yes to that. I will try and answer later when I'm not feeling completely out of it. =( not sure anything I have just said makes sence.

*hugs Crimson* I'm glad you are slowly getting space back in your house and you can now toast stuff :)

* Hugs Helen* I hope your chest is feeling better today.

*Hugs Jill*

*Hugs Kahlia*

*Hugs April*

*Hugs Heather* What movie is that I don't think I've watched it :S hmmm.

*Hugs Jessica*

*Hugs Laura*

*Group hugs to everyone else *

Argh!!!! I really need to stop getting so wound up over sweet nothing, need to chill out before I get into more crap. =/

Sorry no individual replies at the moment... I feel so selfish for not... but... oh, I don't know. Jarrod & I talked more about the Air Force last night & it seems more doable now that I know that (probably?) for advanced training I could live with him on the base. At least, that's what it seemed to indicate on their website... not positive though. Crimson, do you have any illumination on this? :-S Because I really don't want to be living on my own for weeks/months on end... I don't think I'd do too well. Anyway. :-/

It was another late night. We were up until 10:30pm - I know, not late for a lot of you, but for someone who WAS used to going to bed at 7pm (when we were first married, due to Jarrod having to do so much overtime), then 8pm... it's late. Lol. I'm still not used to it... and probably never will be. Guhhhh. :( I feel kinda low now and I'm not sure what to do about it... I guess nothing?? Fill out res apps? and make myself feel even worse? I don't know. :(

Sorry for blathering about me for so long... oh and Mark, I think the movie is "Pocahontas"? Not sure though...

*hides in a hole*

updated my r/v... :-S

OK, selfish moment from yesterday over. Sorry. I'm really sorry. I was a cow to one of my friends as well. She got annoyed about something and swore at me so I had a go back and told her as hard as it was to believe I'm a person and that I wished people would stop getting at me all the time. But she's right to, they're all right to. My mum's got the right idea about me. Anyway. So basically, yeah, I'm sorry.

April- I don't know what else to say. I feel pretty hopeless. There's no a lot TO say. The Air Force is better than the army, less risks than the front line, that's something I guess and there's no garantees that he will get in yet. He might not. They are rather picky. I don't know what else to do except climb into that hole with you and give you some tea, which is my answer to everything. Oh, and I read your R/V I know what you mean about not knowing how you feel, I get that a lot and it's dead confusing. You know you're not great, but you kind of don't know what and don't know what the negative feelings are. You just know they're there. Just telling you that so you know I understand and you're not nuts or anything. Mind, being as sane as I am is no comfort whatsoever.

Jill- What's up sweetie? Breathe. Lol, good advice Lia.

Hey Mark, how are you?

Yes, it is 'Pocahontas' I've never seen it, but I recognise it. Kids' movies are the best, they remind me of a time when life was simple and I didn't know what my mum did was wrong and everything was oh so happy. But I don't think it was though, that's just the picture I have in my mind. I wasn't happy even then.

How's everyone else?

*Leaves ar of hugs*

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Anyone around? I'm bored and tired, despite the fact I actually got a decent night's sleep last night.

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* spots Lia and Hugs*

Hey Mark, how's things? Sorry about yeserday. Selfish moment.


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Hey Lia , that wasn't selfish at all , we all need to get stuff out sometimes , otherwise we bottle it all up and thats not good.
I'm haveing an issue with a wound and am constantly tired despite not getting out of bed till late and then napping .Heh.

Hows thing with you ?

Maybe you're over sleeping,, that can make you tired as well- if you sleep too much. I know it's not good to bottle things, but that doesn't stop me doing it, I hated myself so much after yesterday's rant, I won't be doing it again in a hurry. Back to being my normal self now with the pretty mask.

Is it infected? Make sure you clean it properly and change the dressing reguarly. Sorry I'm not more help, but I'm no medic, although I have been working at a vets all week.

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It's dressed up and not obviously infected , It doesn't want to stop bl**ding though , although not a lot sorry I hope thats not too triggery

Dw, it's not. I can't remember where I put my blades anyway, so even if I wanted to cut...there's on in the back of my phone, but where my phone is is another matter altogether. Try squeezing it, or holding a wet paper towel to it. That sometimes helps with the bleeding. When did you do this? What is it that triggered you to cut? You don't have to answer, just if it would help to get it out.

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Hello guest viewing this thread, you can't reply, but I hope you're ok.
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I was just VERY triggered last night, very angry at myself, no ONE thing triggered me , lots of little things mounted up , I think the wound is about 24 hours now , well almost , sorry my replies are taking so long , downloading a patch and my P.C. is slow because of it :)

Lol, dw, I'm reading now so mine are likely to be a little slow too. Sorry we weren't able to help you last night when you were triggered. Why were you angry at yourself? You've done nothing wrong.

Oh, is April your actual sister btw, or your 'sister'? I've always wondered.

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