Zowies shame the evening was ruined by that one annoying guy, hope you get to cook your roast

*hugs to everyone and a plentiful supply of hankies*

Zowie, sorry about they one annoying guy. *hugs you all*

*hugs to all and handkerchieves frorm everyone.

*hugs an love to all*

*gives hugs to all*

Hi Nicole :)

OMG where are my damm freaking tears??

How the hell did I manage to sleep til half an hour ago, I know I went to sleep earlier than the night before but it was still like 4am. I hate having out-of-control sleeping patterns >.< Mum blames it entirely on me staying on my laptop which IS the problem sometimes, but not always :S

Kahlia - Diazepam is awesome for "chilling out" the mind. I'm glad it helped you, even if it was for a little while, and i'm so glad you didn't cut sweetie. *Massive huggles* Keep your chin up.

Hells - You went to sleep earliar than me! I didn't go to sleep until 7am >.<

*Big hugs to Auburn shadow, mouse in darkness & Zowie*

Mum does a paper round at my local newsagents, she goes around all the local villages in her car and delivers them. Well, dad does the round on weekends but mum goes to the shop with him to put the papers in order for him (so he knows what one goes to which house).
She usually does weekday mornings and dad weekends, as my mum had a hip replacement in May and finds it difficult doing the big weekend deliverys.

Anyway she got back at 6.15am, and she was making a racket! She was whipping cream for the home made triffles she made, as she's going round my brother Richards today and said she'd do the pudding.
I ended up getting roped in and had to decorate them.

A massive spider (the size of my hand) crawled right near my feet (she thinks it came from the towels/cloths she brought back from the shop to wash) and i screamed/had a massive panic attack/nearly fainted/didn't stop crying for half an hour.
She calmed me down but i was too shakey to sleep, i think i eventually dropped off though at just gone 7am.

Seriously, when people say they're scared of spiders it often makes me wonder *how* scared someone is. I am absolutely rigid with fear and often hypoventilate just at the sight of a money spider.
I hate my fear, as when i move out they'll be no one to get them out for me..the only thing i can do is "hoover" them up, but i can never get close enough to do it.

Er, that was a useless ramble.
I just hate how scared i am of spiders. It's not even funny anymore. I don't want to bring an asthma attack on when i'm in my own place as i'll be ****ed about getting to hospital to be put on a nebulisa. Bleurgh.

I didn't end up going to my brothers like mum & dad did. Someone needed to stay to feed the animals at 4.30pm and let my dog Candy out for a wee. It wouldn't have been fair to leave them. I guess i was also looking for a genuine excuse not to go, as i don't want to meet his new girlfriend Gem..i'm rubbish about meeting new people and i know i'd end up making an idiot of myself by crying unnecessarily when i was there through nerves.
Gah.
Damn my agoraphobia. Damn my paranoia. Damn my hatred for social situations.

*sigh*
I'll shut up whinging. ;x
x

*hugs laura* sounds like you've had a bad day

*hugs Laura tight*

Spiders suck. I think yours is a geuinue phobia.

Most people are just scared and don't pass out at seeing one but will calm down easily. Where with people with phobias, they pass out/panic attack/etc

Damm those spiders >.<

*Snuggles Hells*

I wish i wasn't such a freak about spiders. I hate passing out or having major panic attacks over them.
Sucks monkey balls. Heh.

I'm stressed.
Erk.
Personal digs = not cool.

Try not to let it stress you out anymore darling.
They're not worth it :)

*hugs tight*

Meh.
I know.
Just hate bullies.
*shrugs*

*hug*

*hugs Helen and Laura* spiders arent nice, i'm afraid of them, but you do sounds genuinley phobic

I hate them too.
:(

*hugs Becca & Laura*

10 days SI free,
will be going out of the window.

*hands out the chocolate*

I want some more chocoalate :P

I'm in tears.
This just isn't good.

*rocks Laura*

*holds helen and laura close and strokes hair*

is it ok if i stay here for a little bit? ill only take up a corner, i am not coping atm

take up as much space as you want honey *hands over blanket and RYL teddy*

Thinking of dropping out of uni.
What a ****ing failure.
Yay.