*cuddles everyone*

*gives everyone in here hugs*

*then screams*

*then sits down in corner and cries softly and rocks back and forth*


I just wish this would all stop, seriously. Why am I always getting the bad stuff?

*Hugs YodaBearInterrupted*

*Hugs Helen*

*Hugs Sarah*

*Hugs Ryuu*

*Hugs Laura*

*hugs matthew* whats wrong? Here if you want to talk or PM me anytime.

*hugs mark* morning! as i assume its morning for you. its 2:30am here.. I have yet to fall asleep

*Hugs Laura* Morning back at you :) I am groggy with sleep but have early appointments today and I got to get to the bank too , You having trouble sleeping ?:S *Puts some lavender oil in a sprayer and sprays a relaxing scent about your bed* Try now :)

*huggles all*

Helen - Happy milestone day!!
26 months for me today!!
*throws confetti 'cause she feels like it*

*Thorws Confetti for Kahlia And Dances with her :)*

Thanks Mark!!! Only four months to go until I make 2.5 years SI free!! (If I can last that long lol)

Wow Kahlia almost 2.5 years! That's awesome! I'm sure you can make it.

It's 6:30 AM, and I am awake after just going to sleep at 2 AM. Why? Why? Why? But I have classes at 8,9, and 10 AM so I know if I let myself sleep again I'll miss them. Today's gonna test me... I can tell.
*starts plotting ways to catch a nap in the library between her class at 10 and class at noon*

*Hugs Helen and Kahlia* That's great, both of you :)

*Hugs everyone else.*

How is everyone?

x

congrats Kahlia thats awesome.

*hugs everyone*

I hate the fact that I'm getting into trouble for being ill, if I was missing lectures for a physical illness I bet I wouldn't be getting into trouble, but cos its mental health stuff its like I'm not trying hard enough when I really am, they really don't realise how hard I am trying to get to my lectures, buits so hard when all you want to do is die.

*Hugs Oliver* It really sucks when people don't understand and it's hurtful too. I'm sorry that it's going on with you.

I've actually managed to get something done today. I got up, had a shower, took the dog for a walk and now I'm attempting to tackle the moutain of half term homework and meanwhile being distracted by Harry Potter.

Met with Sharron my Nurse then Kat My Course Keyworker.
The meeting with Sharron was quite light until I said I felt like drinking on my birthday , but I think I NEEDED to get that out and feel better about it now , I think I will be taking Diaz around my birthday though , but thats the lesser of two evils yep.
Then Kat and I talked , fot a bit, pretty in depth about my S.I. which was nice (right word?) to get off my chest.

*Hugs Lia*

*Hugs Oliver* It sucks that you are being treated so badly :(

*Hugs Felicia* *Makes Coffee for to wake up okay , or tea or flavoured water if you prefer :)

*Hugs Mark* I'm glad you were able to get some stuff off your chest. I hope your birthday isn't as bad as you think it's going to be.

I'm dead emotional today. I just cried listening to Dolly Parton.

*Hugs Lia* I hope my birthday won't be too bad either , it's in 2 weeks , but then there the 9th of November which I have some support for but am concerned about.

Thanks for remembering Kahlia & thanks for the congratulations Lia :)

*hugs ward*

Isn't it just ****ing fantastic when you upset your best friend & you already had nobody else to talk to? (Y) Least we're okay now, but still. I hate upsetting her or having arguments. Worst thing in the world. Well my world. Never mind, I'm just pathetic & a worthless piece of ****.

*Hugs Helen* You're not those things, you've came so far in your battle against SI. Everyone has thier disagreements and at least it's all OK now.

*hugs Lia* I am. I honestly feel like I've hardly come anywhere. Even one of my closest friends tried to point out that it is huge, four months away from a year, despite ALL the **** I've gone & am going through, I still haven't done it. But I just don't feel proud or anything. Don't even understand why. Just feel like I don't deserve to be I think. All I want to do is ****ing cut heh.

*Hugs Helen* You are NOT pathetic or worthless .

*hugs Mark* Wish I could believe you.