think i'll be here for a while

I am going to sit in here for a lil while until I get it through my head that I am tired of being betrayed and lied to... which causes me to lose control some and end up unsafe and doing bad things.

Matt: *very safe hugs*

Needing to disappear for a while

Need.to.hide.in.here.... damn it trying so hard to resist but whats the point its in my head anyway.... falling falling falling :-(

*sighs* hey everyone
'm back
i was stupid the other day
so i thought i should check in,
see you in the morning unless i'm sleeping. and then i'll see u after i sleep.

The world is black and the only way that I can see out of it I can't take because I don't want my husband to be faced with my no longer being here. Just going to disappear and hide

*Glomps Kahlia Tight*

Julie: thanx

Mark: thanks big brother

Really not doing so well right now. Suicidal as hell and in massive amounts of pain. I don't think I can take much more. I don't even know that I want to live. Fighting to stay alive is more than I can handle right now. It might just be better if I gave in now...

decides enough is enough i can't take this anymore, I am going to bed and watching skins.

tag your it :D

*goes to hide*

im a bit bored. been having a headache for the past days. cant sleep cause when i wake up i always have a headache

This just has been a nightmare week... I am going to stay in here for a while so that my emotional state can deescalate some to a more manageable level... Also struggling with doing more bad stuff than I already have as well as protecting my base again XD

Really not feeling great this evening as my cpn wants to dscharge me but I am rather 50/50 as although she is crap, useless and is like talking to a wall i still need help as my situation regarding mental health and eating is getting uncontrollable.

Mind if I join? I can make a wicked fort :)

I just want to get away. My head is a jumbled mess and nobody understands because I can't get anything out. I'm just struggling right now.

Hope everyone in the fort is doing okay *hugs to all in here*

I am going to hide in here. I am tired of all of this.

*finds bun,bun and a beanbag and curls up* I have returned I am a failure I cant do this alone

Can I join the fort please?

I wish I could be looked after tonight. I'm scared.