Kahlia - thank you, and for the hugs! I'm not really sure who to talk to, the psychiatrist asks my doctor to prescribe it but I can't get hold of my doctor and I only see the psychiatrist once a month as a I see a counselor in between. But even when I do see her she won't give me a prescription herself. I kind of think well if she thinks it will help it must be right but I'm really really scared

*curls up * want to cause myself so much hurt right now and take it further than hurting myself -.- so fed up of life and ****

I hope it's OK for me to just come here..

I just need some place to hide right now...

*cries and hides in a corner*

Why does she make me feel like this? WHY?? :((

welcom.

*curls up in the corner* I don't want to go to work. I don't want to do anything. I want to hide with my polar bear.

Blah. I don't feel good at all, and my mom is yelling at me about doing something I don't wat to do at all...

checking in and staying put until I can stop randomly crying

Yodabear how are you coping, how are things at work. It's the worst feeling when you have a hard night and have to go into work the next day. Does anyone is your office know that you could maybe confide in, or could you see about getting flexi time?

Sapphirehearts *brings over a blanket and a drink of juice* hugs. What's our polar bears name? I have an otter called seaweed he looks after me when the darkness comes, especially now my fiancée is ill.

I'm a crumbling mess, let down by so many and so alone too scared to say I can't cope for fear of being judged and people deciding I'm not fit to look after my fiancée if I loose him I will have truly lost everything. I can't do it I can't stay strong no monitoring no support no sleep and too much darkness but no strength or will to fight

StardustedSky: Polar bear's name is leo. He will keep you safe too. I'm so sorry your fiancee's ill, my thoughts are with you. You're going to be ok, I promise. PM me anytime - I know you'll be fine *hugs* xx

hello again everyone. been gone a long time...not doing too good right at the moment...thought i would check in for a little stay here to try to keep what little bit of sanity i actually have left...hugs to all. i hope all are managing to make their way through yet another day.

I can't do this anymore pretending everything is going to be fine and that I'm coping. The one person in my life who makes it worth living is ill and I can't even care for him as much as I want to. Life has become so destructive to just get by but I am paranoid he will find out. Where before I could confide in him with everything's that going on I just can't burden him with that but if he finds out he will be hurt im trapped in this hopeless loop. I haven't slept in over 6 days the only relief I can find is negative I just don't know how much longer I can hold out.

my anti-psychotics medicine is making me anti-psychotic.
and why does it always go backwards when using medicine?

*hugs all*

Not in a good place right now

So here I come... Checking in... because there's nowhere else to be, at the moment..

stupid feelings about that my body hates me cause i SI'd before... was up all night went home in the morning puked in the sink headache went to bed. woke up went back and started feeling headache.

Feeling a bit better, after last time. I only hope things keep getting better.

Need somewhere to hide, curl up and shrink away from everything that hurts me *curls up*

*Flops down into one the empty beanbags curls up under a blanket* Nope I am miles away from being okay.

*curls up and hides* Can't pretend i'm okay anymore, cracks are already showing

Hi everyone. I'm trying to work on a History essay and it's not going very well, because I just feel so down and that my work is terrible.