how is everyone

*curls up* it's too hard to pretend today. i can't do it anymore.

*Hugs Louise*

*Hugs Crimson* Whats up hun?

*hugs mark back* everything. friend fighting cancer, friend going in for surgery, trouble with my apps to the uni, only 1 job i applied for has gotten back to me... they want to hire me but the hours aren't guaranteed to be stable or full time and i lose benefits on top of it, my family can't just make do if my hours were to drop..., my current boss seems to want me to quit (a lot going on but it seems very similar to when she forced out a coworker about a year ago...) and the most recent thing with my boss? yeah she apparently thinks i do literally nothing but dick off on the net all day so she says i need to do a log of what i do all day every day while i'm at work but "you know just in half hour increments or so"... i want to get a new job and stay in my new house but between the frigid winters up here and all the crap being piled on me i am really tempted to go with what my friend g wants and move to seattle. i found the most awesome 4 bedroom apartment down there (the community has 3 pools a playground a gym and a picnic area on top of the lg 4 bdrm apartment with its own washer and drier) for less than $1400 a month. the only bill i'd have other than rent and transportation? electric. i must admit the more bs i deal with and the more stressed the **** out i get the more i feel moving down there to be the best option. even d thinks me quitting is for the best. if we could afford it i'd quit now but we can't afford it til feb or march. and to top it all there's homeschool for the kids and my own upcoming classes and all of the other smaller more trivial stuff that's just getting stacked on top of everything else. and food is another category to toss on the pile... i've been so irritated upset and stressed lately i can hardly even eat.

i keep trying to distract myself lately with nano but more often than not (especially today) i just come up with nothing.

and the more people ask how i am and whats wrong or commenting on how i look upset today, it just makes e closer to tears. but then on the other hand even when i say why not and let it go i can't cry more than a tear or 2 anyway.

*Huge Hugs Crimson*

*shuffles in and sets up camp until next tuesday*

I really think there should be more psychology people out there. I can't get in more than 1x every two weeks. THis is very frustrating. I need to see him now.

*Hugs Mousie*

*hugs all* how are you?

I'm at my Parents *Hugs*
How are you Laura?

*hugs mark*
I had to take half of my emergency med earlier. Should have taken it all... my hands are still shaking but it's bearable. I'm going to do more skills now.
How are you?

*Hugs Laura*

Hey everyone.

*Squishesb Lindsay* How are you hun?

Alright I think. A bit lonely. How are you?

*hugs all*

*Hugs Lindsay and Oliver*

*hugs Lindsay and Oliver and Doikers (I always forget your name :()*

I hate getting the feeling of being overrun emotionally, but its happening a lot these days and I can't stop it. trying not to give in either, but it's so hard not to right now...

*Hugs Matt* I'm Mark :) But no worries :) 31 today I be :P

Happy birthday, Mark!

Thanks Lindsay *Huggles*