Well other than the pain then yeah (well I still feel **** and all but whatever). I was mucking around with a friend and he went into another room, I followed, he tried to shut it on me, I tries open it, one of us let go (I think) and my hand got caught =[ Had two ice packs at college and then went cus I reallllllly worried about it :wow:

*gives snuggles to you and Alex*

*hugs everyone*

*hugs helen*

*hugs Alexx*
Aww hunni I'm sorry. Please don't wish you were dead. Those girls are certainly not worth it.

*hugs Helen*
Well I'm glad you got it looked at.

*snuggles in her corner and stares vacantly, sniffing slightly*

*sigh* thankyou :notsure:
*huggles*

why are you sad sweety?

I'm sooooooooooo upset && angry.

Drinking alcohol won't do me any favours, esp as I did have to take 4 painkillers, oh well =\

I'm writing two emails, both to teachers, so not gonna impress myself tomorrow. They need to know the truth, one more than the other....yet I'm gonna be so embrassed.

*hugs everyone who needs them*

Helen why are you upset and angry hun? What are you emailing your teachers about? xx

*snuggles Alexx*
Not sad so much hun... Out of sorts is all... A little blank with a touch of lousy. How ya doin' hun?

*hugs Helen*
Good you're writing those emails hun. I'm proud of you.

*makes a tea tray with tea, cocoa, coffee, and biscuts and passes it around*

Hey, Callie, when you get a chance tell us how the DBT thing went luv.

*curls up in her corner with her blanket and stuffed lamb and stares into space*

*offers Foreverlost a huggle and a bunny*

im better thou mom kinda made me all dizzy and panicky but i lasted through it....

Oh God...*runs, stops, paces, curls up and rocks* I don't know what the hell happened but it is like someone has flicked a switch in the last five minutes and all these images are now circulating through my head, ways to hurt myself. Take the first step, start the routine, go buy alcohol, wait, music, cut, early alarm, A+E, home in time for doctors appointment. Crap.

ok, 12 hours and then, 12 hours my whole family will be out of the country for two weeks. 36 hours and I will be alone in my house, away from my flatmates and uni for 2 weeks. I can do anything, destroy myself, harm, abuse my body for 2 weeks and nobody will be there for me to have to hide it from *sits rocking and cries*.

Thanks Alexx, glad you're better.

*moves over for emma and puts an arm around her*
I'm sorry luv, I've got no advice. Please take care...

*hugs Ally and actually starts to cry* How pathetic

Oh Emma hunni, just please be careful.
*safe snuggles*

*hugs Emma and Ally*

*walks in and scream*
I CANT DO THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sorry guys...

I'll just disappear now :crying:

No, not pathetic. Shed some tears for me too would you? I'd like to cry but can't...
*offers Emma some tissues, a blanket, and a stuffed lamb*

I'm worried about you Em :(

I'm upset and angry at my dad, kinda explained via text. But for rest of you, why does he have to pretend most of this split **** isn't his fault? It is. Why did he have to pretend at first that everything was ok? When it really wasn't. Why does he have to be such a ****ing liar? Why does he have be my boss so therefore I *have* to talk to him on sunday.

Why the **** am I drinking alcohol when I've had four painkillers, not a good idea.

I haven't emailed anyone yet, was gonna just let it all out. But shan't bother, dont wanna be told to see my counsellor when I know I have to ok. I just want them to react to it...

Aww Alexx, don't disappear... What can't you do sweetie?
*hugs*

Thanks Jeremy.

I cant do this :crying:
I cant carry on...
I cant keep going...
I'm stupidly triggered right now..
I dont know why....

DAMN MY EMPTY HOUSE!!!!
*cries*

*hugs Alexx and gives u a bunch of flowers*

Hope u stay safe there...