I don't have any work to do anyway, well...no homework needs doing :-) I know what we're doing in my evil lesson and then the second lesson...I can ask my group what's going down. I hope we didn't agree to have our meeting on tuesday :notsure:

*snuggles you muchly*

I need plenty of snuggles :crying:

I'm soooo tempted to do it one way but I can't bring myself to do it as I know my sister is stopping with us....yet theres two other ways...one I'm complentating....and the other means running away =[

GOD I'm a mess today :crying:

Yes we do^_^
and my doggies very lovely...
She lets me snuggle her
and comes and licks me to death til i start laughing when Im sad and crying.
and she's very friendly ^_^
*hugs and hot drinks for everyone*

Helen. stop. breathe. It's ok. You don't have to hurt yourself or anything like that. You are strong and can manage without that- I have faith in you :)

Focus on the nice things like the fact you have no homework and your sister being there, and smores in the RYL denial tent. xx

Please dont run away :crying:
We would miss you too much!!!

stay and talk to us?
It might help...

*massive snuggles*

*hugs you* Could you get someone to look at it at the counseling center? You don't have to apologise for anything sweetie and feel free to whine :)

I AGREE!!!

You can do this hun
xxx

*MASSIVE HUGS*

Thanks Em. I wish I felt it was ok :confused: I know I don't have to hurt myself....but I want it sooooo much and at same time I don't.

*snuggles* :crying:

I don't think I can =[

Thanks all.
Made an appointment to get the cut stitched :pinch: will let y'all know how it goes (not thinking it'll go too well). It's after my counseling session... I suppose if I tell him about it I can tell the doc that he and I already discussed it and he won't flip out on me too much...

Stay strong sweety.
I know its hard but we are here with you every step of the way.
You might feel like you need this or want it but you dont.
Honestly.
Just hang on in there.
*Super Hugs*
*brings over the doggie to cheer Helen up too*

sounds like a good idea.
maybe talking to your counsellor about it might help make it a little bit easier too?
It'll be ok hun *hugs*
Keep us posted
xx

Thanks Alex. I know I have to stay strong, but I really don't have any strength left, it all vanished months ago. So god knows how I've been getting through the days, weeks, months....It's too freaking hard. I want do everything bad so much and same time....I dont wanna ruin it. :crying: *super hugs* *plays with your dog* Cn Charlie (my sister's dog) join us too, he may be defenceless (on account of having a paw missing) but he's very great and playful :) I wish I could cry and cut and everything so much right now.

You must have a little bit left sweetheart...thats how you've managed to get through when you thought you had nothing.
You're doing a wonderful job and we are all SOOOO proud of you. You just have to fight this. I know its hard, honestly I do and I understand how you're feeling right now, but we will always be here to support you and if you ever want to PM me, dont hesitate.
No one said it would be easier but you really are doing an amazing job and if I or anyone else can help you through this bad time then we will ok?
Of course Charlie can come play sweety ^_^
the more the merrier hehe.
We should sit here...with Charlie and Millie (my doggie) and we will cuddle up in these nice warm blankets with a hot drink and we'll have a good cry about things that are upsetting, then...we should remember good things that have happened, and hopefully that will help you smile again yeah? :]
Chin up gorgeous.
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Thank you Alex, that made me well up so much hehe. Yeah maybe I do have a tiny wincy bit left. I don't feel like I'm doing a wonderful job and I don't know why everyone is SOOOO proud of me, I don't deserve to have people being proud of me, espically skopping college when I could have gone in...even if I just struggled through the day. I know I have to fight these feelings off, I just do & don't want to. It's so exhausting, trying to control these feelings every day....and control my life overall every day aswell.

I know you guys will always be there, hence the loads of posting rather than withdrawing from you guys. I don't feel like I'm doing an azming job at all, I just keep staring at one thing to self harm with :| You guys are helping me, seriously.

Yay Charlie has come to play, bet he just plays with Milly and then snuggles down again, he misses his mummy :-(

We should sit here with the dogs indeed, have cuddles (I give sooooo many hugs cus I love 'em). Blankets are awesome with hot drinks and crys and talks....and god I wish you guys were by my side, but least we have virtualness {sp}.....

*cheers madly for Alyssa from under blanket in Denial Tent*
way to go hunny! sounds like a lovely plan and remember you dont have to talk about anything until you are ready

*passes Helen smores and treats that posess magical courage and strength powers from the healing smoke from the Virtual Campfire*
just take a deep breath and be calm and remember that you can do anything in the Denial Tent!

*hugs Emm and Emma and Alex*
plays with Charlie and Millie

starts to have a panic attack because a restricted phone number just rang my cell and i think it might be the psych hosp
eep ogod ogod this is scary i bet they are telling me nobody accepts my insurance or wants me at their practice eep

i totally imbued the denial tent with magical powers where are the magical powers i need to start feeling some magicalness now please

Thank you so much *squishes*

I need to stop feeling guilty about missing college don't I? :pinch:

We are proud of you because you've come this far, and thats an achievement all in its self.
Its good you have a little bit of strength left...only if its a tinny little bit...because you can nuture it and make it grow...then you'll have more strength :]
Dont beat yourself up about skipping college....i did exactly the same today...and i lied to my mum about why i was home early...but if I look at it in a good way....at least now I'm here and can help you..
is there anything good you can think of? even if it seems really abstract or silly? Maybe...its good that you missed college because you could have some time to yourself or talk to us?
I dont know...thats for you to tell me :]
Maybe...you should try moving this thing you want to SH with...and putting it in a box with a photo of someone you really care about...
that way..its out of sight..and if you look for it..you'll see the photo and can try focus on happy memories with that person....its just a suggestion..ive found it helps me.

I love hugs and blankets and hot drinks too ^_^
And I think....we should salute who ever made the internet and RYL *salutes them*
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Just try take deep breaths and calm down....I'm sure it wil be fine hun. *big hugs* try stay positive...i know its hard and clichéd but it will help

*opens a little bottle of fairy dust and magic.*
*gives you some*

*hides in the Psych ward*