*sits with books in the corner confused and dazed*

*sits and cries* I asked my ex to hit me last night when I was upset and he did, but he had to be pulled off me to get him to stop. Why do I do these things?

*hugs emma*

U okies there? I hope he didn't do anything harmful to u

Anyway, look after urself there xx

*cries* sits in the corner and rocks back and four scared

Hey Louise

Wat's up? Feel free to PM me if u wanna chat

xx

*hugs everyone*

I feel so shitty atm =[

*comes in quietly, sists in a quiet corner and cries self to sleep*

Am still here. Just want to stop. Cut again cos I'm such a failure and my dad is such a ********. I'd like to strip the skin off my wrists and get a fresh lot put on so that I can damage it again. To bleed forever.

I don't want to feel like I need to die any more. I just want to either do it or get better. Even though I know I can never get better.

*Hugs everyone who needs it*

*Sneaks outside and grabs puppy-dog and cuddles up on the floor with it*

I'm crying so hard.
*hides*

Wat's up Helen? *gives u a box of kleenex tissues*

*hugs everybody else* Look after urself ppl!

Thanks for the tissues, I got through so many last night, dope that I am!

Just finding it really hard not having my dad here everyday anymore =[

*sobs in corner clutching her stuffed lamb*

Damn it all to hell :crying:

hi alyssa hi alyssa hi alyssa!!!

Callie!!! *gives her a massive bear hug* sorry about the tears there
I MISSED YOU!!!

*SNIFF SNUFFLE*
I KNOW me too i don't quite know what happened
i expect that as soon as i figure it out i will need to permanently check in here because apparently i am completely insane
cry all you want! i have that effect on people ;)
how are you what's up??

I'm doing, not exactly sure how... right now not too good I suppose. How about you? Gosh, I missed you so much! Life just isn't the same without my RYL Twin!!!
*gives you another bear hug and shares the tissues*

aw thanks - life without talking to you is SO not the same, nobody ever understands quite like an ryl twin does
i think i'm pretty crappy but apparently i can't identify my own emotions so who knows maybe i'm ecstatic and life is perfect
it's all quite overwhelming and confusing, isn't it?
*hoards the tissues*

*Pleads to be allowed to stay checked-in*

Got to go to the doctor today and find out if I need to see a surgeon. Really scared. Just want to be able to swallow properly again and to be happy. To be able to keep my boy and not have him running away because I'm too unstable, as if that was something I could do something about. I take the drugs what more the hell do you want ? I just want all the pain to go away. Please someone?

*hides under the bed and starts crying*

*reluctantly gives up the tissues and shares with Kahlia*

Thank you chocostashchick - I'll steal you some more tissues from the supplies cupboard.

Back from doc. She thinks it's just anxiety or an allergic reaction to meds. Offered no hope whatsoever that I'll be able to swallow or breath properly. As if wearing a noose around your throat all day every day is normal. Just the feeling I mean. Agggghhhhh. I just want to scream. I probably would but it's difficult to make any noise when speaking so I'm not even going to try. I'm just going to burrow further in and keep crying.

*burrows right under bed and cries in second box of stolen tissues*